My first Jelly fic, hope I got them right. Enjoy! Might continue it, depends.

Butterflies

Jen Gilmore never really expected to fall in love with her student Tilly Evans though she did and she cannot help the way that she feels. She just come out of a long-term relationship when she met her, though Tilly kept putting a smile on her face. She loves her still, even after she was forced to leave. She was let out on caution, living back with her brother Liam. Not much changed, she still got those feelings for Tilly. By the time she left, she almost lost who was she truly was. Though after a break from the village, she is back to the Jen who first entered Hollyoaks.

As she was up quite late at night, painting. Her mind could not rest, nor could her body. As all her thoughts were blocking her mind and the heat was almost unbearable. So here she was in the spare room, painting the moonlight sky. She painted with just carefulness, trying to improve the painting.

She went to bed at around three, later then usual. Though sometimes she likes to get up early and watch the sun rise. Though not this time, she did not have enough sleep as it is. She fell asleep, dreaming about something that she couldn't remember. She only remembers being on a beach, kind of like the beach where herself and Tilly shared their first, passionate kiss.

She woke up at eleven in the morning. As she quickly got changed, feeling slightly tired still as she rubbed her eyes. Her brother Liam was eating a packet of cheese and onion flavored Walker's crisp. She was still half asleep, as she yawned.

"What time did you go to bed last night?" Liam asked her, as bits of crisp when on his beard which he will have to shave of later.

"I don't know; around three, I couldn't get to sleep for ages" Jen told him, sitting on the stool which was opposite her brother.

As she put her hand under her chin, thinking about her job. She works in the local corner shop now, is not allowed to be a teacher anymore. That disappoints her, she loves teaching and now the law has taken it away from her, snatched away the thing she loves doing.

"No wonder your still tired" Liam answered his sister, he felt kind of bad for her. Even if he does think she deserves it for being so 'stupid' and thinking she could away with dating one of her pupils.

"I'm going out for a walk" Jen told him, as she put on her shoes.

No coat, the weather was too hot to wear a coat. As she walked out, in her flower patterned knee length-dress and black high heels. She needed to wake herself up, as the wind hit her face as she carried on walking.

She needs to clear her head, though she thinks that is impossible. Since she was sure that Tilly hates her now, after what happened with Esther Bloom. She walks around some more, until walking into where she works.

Going behind the counter as her boss passes her, her uniform. She goes round the back to change and then goes back behind the counter. Her life has become an almost endless charade of putting money in a till and all she can hear all day is Beep! Beep! Beep! Get's annoying after a while.

She looks up, to find the girl who she still misses. As Tilly rushes out, not knowing she worked there. It was only out of chance that she went to that shop. She was on her way to Liverpool and just passed by.

"Tilly" Jen called, not believing her eyes. Tilly stopped half-way down the road, as she heard Jen rushing over to her. Her work-mate was not impressed, as Jen left the counter empty.

"I didn't know you worked there" Tilly speaks, not knowing what else to say. She was lost for words and seeing Jen was last thing she expected to happen today.

"Yeah, I can't go back to teaching" Jen breathed, looking into Tilly's beautiful eyes.

Tilly shook her head, as she set of again.

"You know even without us having a relationship then you still shouldn't have been allowed back into teaching, I can't forgive you for what you done to Esther" Tilly replied with her arms crossed.

"I'm not asking you to" Jen replied, with a sigh.

"I really need to get going and this shouldn't have happened; if they find out you been talking to me again then you get more than just a caution" Tilly reminded her, Jen nodded. She knew Tilly was right.

"I know but I missed you" Jen told her, Tilly sighed. She couldn't help but understand. She missed her too, she just didn't show it. Besides she likes Esther and cares for her, to an extent she loves Esther but not the same way. Not the butterflies in your stomach kind of way.

"We can't be together Jen; don't you understand" Tilly answered, as she looked over at her again. Looking at Jen, who seemed remorseful for her actions.

"I understand, I just wish I didn't" Jen looked down on her hands, as she longed for Tilly again. Longed to kiss her lips.

"You find somebody else; look I'm with Esther now, were happy; maybe you should do the same thing" Tilly's heart was not entirely in it.

"I can't Tilly; I'm only ever truly happy with you" Jen admitted, as she looked up again. Tilly felt those familiar butterflies.

"I'm sorry" Tilly breathed, though what could she possibly say? She will never forgive Jen but that doesn't mean she stopped loving her. Because she does still love her, very much so.

It was a spur of the moment though Tilly kissed her in the middle of the street for ten seconds then backed away. As she felt terrible, she just so much as cheated on Esther. Esther was still fragile, Frankie Osborne was right. She was going to break her heart if she ever found out.

Though that short kiss was just so pleasuring, though she felt guilty for being pleasured about it. Jen seemed shocked at the unexpected kiss too, though for different reasons.

"That shouldn't have happened; I need to go" Tilly was slightly shaking, as she walked away. With Jen walking behind her.

"I love you Tilly and I know you love me back; I can feel it" Jen answered, as she grabbed gently onto her hand. Tilly surprisingly didn't let go, it felt right. Jen's hand held onto her's.

"I do but we can't be together; it's forbidden and I just cheated on poor Esther; I can't do this to her, you knew how fragile she was" Tilly looked into her eyes, feeling drawn back into them.

"Yeah I do, but it's not fair on her to be with someone who doesn't love her" Jen told her.

"I do love her" Tilly was cut of.

"But you're not infatuated with her" Jen insisted, as she held onto both of Tilly's hands now. She could feel it in her heart that Tilly loved her just as much as she loved Tilly. Which was bucket loads.

"I know" Tilly and Jen kissed again, though broke away soon after. As Tilly realized, she was still in love with Jen Gilmore.

Fin