Why is life so hard?
A Christian and syed Love Story
Christian
This time last year life had been so so different, carefree, easy even. He sighs heavily and pads in to the kitchen. Still in his pyjamas he switches on the kettle and walks to the window. He was trying so hard not to get obsessed with him, but deep down he knew it was too late. He stood looking out of the window imaging what a life with him would be like. Day dreaming had become his main past time. They were always together in his dreams, free and happy. He leans forward and opens the window hoping the air will clear his head and allow his dreams and desires to stop whizzing round. He senses some one watching him, he looks up and see's him standing there looking up at the window. Their eyes lock on to each other as if there is no one else in the world. Christian can hear his heart pounding in his ears as he is frozen to syed's stare.
Syed
Looking up at Christian's flat as he passed had become a habit. It was comforting knowing he was close by. Today how ever his legs seemed to stop of their own accord across the road and his eyes wondered up. His longing for Christian was getting harder to push back down. The need to see him, touch him and be were ever he is, was like a constant ach in the pit of his stomach. As there eyes locked syed realized he wanted Christian to be part of his future, he had made him look at the world in a different way, showed him a future he never dreamed he could have but syed didn't see how this was possible. If he gave into his true feeling he would lose everything, his family, his job and he was not even sure his friends would understand.
The stare was like unspoken words between them. Syed made his way to Christian's front door and Christian made his way to open it. Syed stepped right into Christian arms and they just held each other. Neither wanting to let go, but taking courage from the warmth of there close bodies. Christian laced his fingers though syed's and lead him to the sofa. He had to tell him how he really felt before it was too late. He cupped his face and looked deep into his soul.
"Sy, we have been fighting against this for so long. The strength of my feelings for you just keeps driving me towards you. The Jealous I feel when I see you with her gives me physical pain and I feel like my heart is being pulled out. I am so in love will you that I don't know what to do."
Syed feels like he can't breathe, Christian had just taken his breath away; his hand automatically reaches for his lovers face. They both have tears running down there checks. The enormity of Christians words sit between them. The L word was always unsaid before, because it made it easier.