I'll Tell Him Tomorrow

By Viggar

Disclaimer: Sadly I own nothing but the plot

A/N: Okay, so I know I promised that my next story would be My Destiny, but then this one pumped up and it just wouldn't leave my mind, so I couldn't concentrate on writing My Destiny before this one is "out of the way" if you know what I mean..

Anyway, this story is set after the war; everyone is back on their last year at Hogwarts. Pansy has finally got her prince, and everything seems to be heading her way. But every rose has their thorns. One day she catch Draco together with another girl, however Draco doesn't know he's been busted, but will Pansy ever get the courage to tell him?

I'd never imagined that I would write a Pansy/Draco story but as you can see I did, so please take your time to read and review^-^

My name is Pansy Parkinson and I have only one regret; that I'd ever fell in love with Draco Malfoy! He's my boyfriend for that matter, or was... Anyway, now you would probably think, "wow you go girl, you have him, the sexiest guy in Hogwarts". In the beginning I thought so too, but the only problem here is, I don't have him… She does. Who's she you might wonder, yeah wouldn't I like to know. Well all I know about her is, that she is the blond Slytherin girl who stole my boyfriend! I actually took them in the action; they just don't know it yet. I know sooner or later I probably have to confront Draco, tell him that I know, but here's an even bigger problem, if possible, I can't tell him. Every time I'd tried, the words just won't come out. I tell myself over and over again: Tomorrow! Tomorrow is the day I'm going to tell him. But tomorrow ends up being the day after tomorrow, then next week, or month, or year.

You would probably say I am a fool to stick around with such a looser, well I think so too, but I'm simply so lost. I keep hanging around waiting for 'the right moment' to show up. It just never does. I mean, haven't you ever loved someone so deep that you just can't let go? No matter how much they put you through, you still refuse to see the truth, even if it's right in front of you?

Right now I'm sitting on my bed, trying to sort these things out, but I probably never will…

Well it all started in the beginning of my seventh and last year at Hogwarts. I was on my way to a lecture in Charms and I noticed Draco walked the other way, I found that pretty weird since we have Charms together.

"Hey Drakey, you do know Charms is that way right?" I shouted after him half laughing at him as I pointed in the right direction.

Draco turned and looked at me with that irritating look he used to send me. No joy at all in that icy glare of his. "Don't worry Pan; I'll be there in time. I just forgot my charms book." Then he turned again and I watched him turn a corner.

Draco normally don't call me Pan, so being overwhelmed by joy it took me a few minutes to realize, that I was standing with his book in my hand. Sometimes I just carry his things around for him, just to touch something he'd touched. I know how weird that sounds, but I simply can't help it. It just sends all these wonderful tingles through my whole body. All most as when he touches my skin. At least that's how it used to feel... before.

Anyway when it finally crossed my mind that I was standing there in the middle of the corridor blankly staring out in the blue and holding his book in my hands, I couldn't help but think about how foolish of me not to notice before as I made my way towards the corner where he disappeared a short while ago.

As I looked down the empty corridor, I, to my surprise, heard Draco's voice. It was coming from an empty classroom on my left. I didn't give it much thought that Draco was in an empty classroom even though he just told me he was going to get his book, so I walked closer. I knew we were already late and that Professor McGonagal probably would give both of us a detention for that matter, but I didn't care, as long as the detention would be together with him.

I griped the doorknob, but just as I were about to stumble into the room I heard a girl voice. "Come on Draco, you don't want to leave already, you just got here."

I froze as I heard Draco, my Draco, reply, "don't worry beautiful, I'll see you later."

I was shaking hard as I leaned forward to look through the keyhole. "But Draco has Quidditch practice later, he always does," I whispered to myself. Through the small hole I could see a girl sitting on a table. Draco was standing between her spread legs, with his hands on her leg. She had long blond hair and her black and green Slytherin rope fitted her forms perfectly.

I remembered having seen her in our common room from time to time. As I recalled it she was on her sixed year at Hogwarts, but this just didn't make any sense to me. What would Draco want from a stupid blond sixth yeah, when he had me? The Slytherin princess.

Then suddenly Draco leaned in and kissed her on the mouth. A deep kiss I may add. I gasped. My mind just couldn't believe what my eyes were telling me. Was Draco really cheating on me?

Mentally I crashed into the room, shouted at Draco and demanded for him to explain himself as the girl was screaming out in pain caused by the Dolor curse I was holding her in, but physically I was just standing there on the other side of the door, feeling how tears started to run down my cheeks. My breathing got heavy and I started to sniffle. Then I ran. I ran without knowing the destination my legs were caring me to. Just ran to get away from him, her and everything else.

At last I stopped. My body were trembling hard both because of the shock and the long run. I looked around, I was almost down to the forbidden forest. In front of me was an old tree. I slowly walked a bit closer and looked up. I could see that some of the branches were folded kind of like a chair. I sighed and stated to climb up. It took some tries, but at last I got up. The view from up there was truly amazing, but sadly I couldn't even enjoy it. The only thing I could think of, was what I had just seen. I closed my eyes. Over and over again I saw Draco kiss her, but every time it had different endings. For my inner eye I saw how I shouted at both of them, or pushed the blond girl so she feel and broke her neck. I even saw myself on bended knees, begging Draco to drop her for me.

I sat there for a while. When I finally opened my eyes again, a dark cloud had covered the sun. Just matching my mood I guess. A chilly breeze makes the hair on my neck rise. I didn't want to get up. I simply couldn't. Even when the rain started to fall down I didn't move. My tears became one with the salty raindrops. I had never imagined that I could get hurt like this.

The rain was purring down, but even though I was soaked into my bare skin I didn't care. I was so cold, outside and inside, I felt nothing but pain, pain caused by the very person I trusted the most. I just didn't understand that someone I believed in could cause me so much misery.

I didn't move from the tree before the darkness started to fall. I just sat there, crying and feeling sorry for myself. Telling myself that I had to confront Draco with what he'd done. I slowly crawled down the trunk and started to walk back towards the castle. The rain had finally stopped; I could feel my wet school uniform and my robe cling my skin. I passed the Black Lake on my way back. I remembered how Draco and I had been sitting there for hours, sharing our deepest secrets. But now he had thrown it all away for a girl I barely even knew.

In the distince I could see the Quidditch field, but I couldn't spot any players. 'Of cause there's no players Pansy, you fool, he just told you that so he could be together with her, he lied to you', my mind screamed, but I wouldn't listen, I needed to be sure, maybe they're just behind the tribune. Just because I couldn't see them didn't mean they weren't there right?

I ran the last way and stopped in front of the entrees, took a deep breath and then I walked into the field, finding nothing but the green grass. Not even footsteps in the mud, I mean there had to be, from when the players landed, but no, nothing. Feeling my heart break all over again I started to slowly walk back. I mean it's not that I actually expected to find them there, but it still hurt, I had hoped so badly that I was wrong.

Finally I got to the castle doors. I hesitated. I really didn't want to go inside, but I didn't want to stay out in the cold either, besides I was dying to get my wet muddy clothes off and get a warm bath. Sighing deeply I opened the doors and walked inside. They made a lot of noise, as they swung open, "for Merlins sake Filch really should grease the hinges" I whispered to my self. As I walked by the great hall I could hear the cheerful voices from inside, telling me that the dinner has been served, First now I realized that I hadn't eat all day. Not that it mattered I wasn't hungry anyway.

As I walked by the open doors I cast a look inside, my eyes quickly caught Draco. He was sitting beside the blond girl, obviously telling her something funny, cause she was laughing.

I studied Draco from my place in the doorway; he had not a single drop of mud on his skin, his hair wasn't even wet by the rain. No sign at all that he had been outside playing quidditch like he told me he would. He looked so happy; like he didn't even care that I'd been away all day. That hurt just as much, as when I saw him kiss her. Suddenly he looked in my direction; I quickly moved a step to the side and placed my bag against the cold wooden door, praying he hadn't seen me. I felt my eyes fill with tears; a single one ran lonesome down my cheek which still was red and cold.

In the darkness from the other side of the door, I gathered all my courage and leaned forward to look inside the Great Hall again. Now he had his back to the door so he probably hadn't seen me. Otherwise he didn't care.

I slowly started to walk backwards towards the common room. I felt tired and dizzy, not to mention the cold I felt all over my body, on the outside, as well on the inside.

As I entered the girl's dormitory I immediately took of my soaked clothes and put on my bathrobe. I hurried into the bathroom and locked the door. I placed my bag up against the closed door and slid down until I was sitting on the floor. Now the tears once again started to flow freely. I sobbed as I pulled my legs to my chess, I swung my arms around my legs and buried my head in my arms.

I sat there for almost an hour, and then suddenly I heard footsteps outside the door. Afraid that someone might hear me I tried to hold back the sobs.

"Pansy?" a voice called. It was Draco. At some point I was happier than I had been the whole day, but on the other hand I felt sad and alone. I tried to get control over my voice when I replied.

"Yes?"

"Are you okay?" he asked. He didn't sound concerned at all, just like it was something he had to ask me.

"Yes, why?" I said. Knowing that he clearly could hear the sadness in my voice.

"Okay then. Not for anything in particular"

"Okay" I replied coldly, furious that he didn't care about I felt so bad. I mean it was totally obviously that I was sad. I sniffled. I felt so betrayed, so angry... So alone, and he acted like he didn't even care.

"I have something for you" He suddenly said like it was the most logical thing to say in a moment like this.

I sniffled again and dried my eyes with the back of my hand. "Wha… What is it?" I managed to say as I slowly got up. I have to admit that I was a bit curious. Okay that would be an understatement; I was filled to the brim with this feeling that almost seemed new in my body. Like it hasn't been there for years, the feeling of happiness that I'd hungered for all day.

"I won't tell, if you want it, you have to come out here and get it". He replied simply. I could hear in his voice that he was pretty pleased with himself right now.

"Okay" I said in a hesitating tone. "But I have to shower first" The last sentence, just babbled out of me, how could I be so cruel? He was standing outside with something for me. A present and here I was, saying that I needed shower first? What was I thinking? But I didn't get out even though I really wanted to. He couldn't see me like this. I really needed to shower first I knew that. "I promise to make it fast" I quickly added so he didn't think that I was mad at him.

"Fine I'll wait on the couch in front of the fireplace" He said joyful.

As I showered all I could think of was how happy he was, and that he had a present for me. I almost felt bad for being so mad at him. My heart kept on trying to convince my mind that it was just a mistake, that he really didn't wanted to kiss the blond girl, after all he was just a boy, boys mess up sometimes, that's how it goes, but now everything would might go back to the way it was. But it was like my mind wouldn't listen. I felt so split up inside. One part of me was so happy and the other side of me was so depressed.

I quickly finished the bath and put some clothes on. After a glance in the mirror I entered the common room. Draco was right where he said he would be. I sat down beside him. This felt awkward; it was like I didn't even know the boy sitting beside me anymore, somehow he was like a complete stranger after the episode. He smiled at me, and I forced myself to smile back.

For a short moment we sat there in silence, just watching each other, I could see he was trying to figure out what was on my mind. "So where have you been all day?" He asked, not removing his steady look from me.

I hesitated for a short second, trying to find a good explanation "I just didn't feel that good, so I decided to stay in bed" I lied

"You're such a bad liar" He replied with a smirk, "I was up here to look for you three times today" he said as he folded his hands in his lap and leaned forward in the couch.

He was here, looking for me. My inner voice screamed in joy. "Well I was out for a long walk to get some fresh air" I said in a convincing tone.

"Okay then"

I could see in his eyes he still didn't believe me, and it was killing him that I didn't wanted to tell him what I had been doing all day. He hated when I kept secrets from him, witch I rarely did, by the way. Anyway if anyone needed to explain him or herself it would be him, not me! That's for sure.

"So, you said you had something for me" I said trying to change the subject. I tried really hard not to gaze into his eyes for too long, cause I simply couldn't handle it, every time I looked at him, I saw in my inner eye how he kissed the blond.

"Yes I do have something for you." He said as he smirks. Then he pulled forward a small box and handed it over to me.

I was taking by surprise as I took it. My hands were shaking slightly. "Draco… What is it?" I said and switched uncomfortably in my seat. I was so nervous. I knew I had to tell him that I knew all about him and the blond. My mind was screaming that I had to tell him now, but another part of me didn't want him to know. I mean it wasn't such a big deal right? Now he brought me a present, and if I said anything about the girl, this moment we were sharing right now would be broken and I certainly didn't want that!

I slowly opened the fine box. It was in a dark green collar. As I opened it, the contents came clear to my sight. I gasped. Inside was the most beautiful necklace I had ever laid my eyes on. In a long silver chain hang a beautiful emerald on size of a coin. I took it up between my fingers and studied it for a long time. Then I looked up at Draco with tears in my eyes. "Thank you" I whispered. I couldn't stop thinking about how selfish I'd been, being so mad at him.

Draco's smirk grew wider as he got up and snapped the necklace out of my hand. He unfolded the chain as he walked over to stand right behind me. He let the cold metal touch my skin as he locked it on my neck. "I hope you like it" he whispered back, "It will probably fit perfectly with the dress your wearing at the graduation ball."

"Are you kidding me Dray? I love it!" I turned around and jumped up the couch as I threw my arms around his neck and kissed him deeply on the mouth. I forgot all about the mysterious blond girl for a while, foolish of me of course. If I had been thinking about the kiss we shared there, I would know for sure that the blond wasn't going to stay in the past. Almost as soon as I kissed him he wrapped himself free from my grip. Showing me off by saying he was tired and needed to go to bed. He left me behind in the common room without even cast a single look over his shoulders. But that night I didn't care, I still felt like the luckiest girl in the world.

A couple of weeks passed by, and everything seemed to be back at normal. I had put 'the incident' behind me, and I was ready to start all over. Draco had avoided me since the night in the common room, so I only saw him when we had classes together, but that wasn't something new after all.

I was on my way to Potions together with most of my classmates, when I noticed Draco were standing with his back against the an big old statue of a evil-looking wizard, it looked like he was wating for someone, and naïve like I was, I thought he might be waiting for me. I smilled and started to struggle my way through the talking crowed of students. Draco hadn't seemed to notice me and when I was almost there, she showed up. I stopped like if I'd hit an invinsible wall or something, I wish I had thought, it would might have woke up my brain. Anyway I quickly swooped in on the other side of the statue so they couldn't see me.

Right on the other side of the statue I could hear them talk together. If I leaned up against the wall, I could see the girl stand against the wall now and Draco was standing in front of her. All the studendts kept moving by the statue to get to classes so I couldn't get anything out of the conversation they had. But after what seemed like an eternity, the hallway was all empty except for us. I tried not to breathe too heavily afraid that Draco would might hear me. But to be honest, I highly doubt he would notice anything at that point.

The girl sighed deeply "So when are you going to tell her about us?"

Draco didn't reply, like if he thought the silence would be answer enough for the girl.

"When Draco?" She seemed to be a little frustrated that he didn't reply. "You're still going to tell her right?"

I held my breath and focused all my energy to listen to what Draco's answer would be.

"Of course I am, just now isn't the best time"

"It never is Draco! We have been together for three months and you still haven't told her!" Now she was angry.

My jaw droped. Three months. Three months! For three months he'd been cheating on me and I didn't even know before a few weeks ago, that wasn't just a stupid-boy-mistake, that was for real. He really didn't care that he'd been screwing around behind my back for three months. I felt my eyes overflow with tears, but I knew I had to hold it back. I couldn't let them know I was here.

"I'm sorry Astoria," he mudderd, "I promise I will tell her soon" there was a long silence, before Draco spoke again, this time in a happier tone "you know how much I love your long blond hair Asto?" He smiled at her in a charming way.

I felt like someone just stabed my heart with a long icy cold knife. Astoria, so that was her name. The name of the girl who tried to steal away my boyfriend, my life! How could she! He was my everything, everyone at Hogwarts knew that. Even the Golden Trio knew that. It was just basic knowledge. And what's that 'Asto' all about? He had a nickname for her? And suddenly he just loved long blond hair, since when? I tried to study my own short hair in the shinning statue. He'd never told me he liked my hair, I just assumed he did, cause he'd never said anything bad about it either. So I just kept this ridiculously hairstyle all the years at Hogwarts for absolutly no reason at all.

I snapped out of my own thoughts when Astoria giggled. "Draco, what am I going to do with you?"

I quickly leand up agaist the wall again to see what was going on on the other side. She had wrapped both of her arms around his neck and his hands were on her hips.

"I will tell her soon" Draco assured her again without answering her question.

"Okay then," she mumbled then she sighed.

I saw how Draco leand in and gave her a gentle kiss on the forehead before pulling back. He turned his back on her and started to walk towards the cold dungeon where the Potions lesson had started for about ten minutes ago.

"So I see you later?" She called after him.

"Six o'clock" he agreed without turning around to look at her. He turned a corner and disappeared out of my sigh.

Astoria stood there for a while before leaving the hallway as well.

Finally I could let go of the river of emotions that had piled up inside of me. I slid down the wall, as I sobbed deeply. Tears were flowing freely, like an endless stream. Everything was just one big mess. How would I ever survive a breakup from my one and only, my prince. I mean he was my whole life, everything I did, I did for him. No questions asked. I would do anything for him, I would walk to the end of the world and beyond for his sake. And now I was going to loose him forever. I sobbed again, this time not as loud as before. I felt I was loosing a side of my self. I kept thinking: If I loose him I am going to die, I can't live without him. But then something hit me, if I loose him. Maybe I could still win him back. I just had to fight for it. That's how it should be right? Fight for the one you love. And right there I knew, I was not letting go without a fight. "Watch it Asto I'm not going to give up that easy!" I mumbled to myself. "I'm going to fight to the very end!"