A/N: Jinx and Kid Flash only talk through letters now. They write about their heartaches and love. Hope you guys like it!
Summary: Love letters written between Jinx and Kid Flash! :D
Letter #1
Dear Wally,
It seems as though I can't seem to forget about you. You're on my mind. Day and night. Every second. All day, every day. You haunt me. I don't like it. But I don't hate it either. If that even makes any sense to you. I really hope it does. Even though it's confusing to I have daydreams about you. I like to think I haven't screwed everything up. I like to pretend we're still together. You know what pretending is, don't you? I'm sure you do. You're smart enough. Smarter than you look that's for sure. Bad luck. That's my excuse to why things ended so badly.
I'm hurt. Okay? I know I act as if nothing can hurt me. Even though that isn't true at all. You know that and I know that. You mean the world to me. I can't begin to tell you how sorry I am for dumping you. It was a stupid and impulsive decision. Now I'm all alone and I need you. I'm not exactly sure if I can make it without you. I'm growing weaker and weaker without you here beside me
I'm such a hypocrite! I know. You know. We both know. I miss you. I hate you. But I also love you more than life itself. Wally, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for breaking your heart. Yours wasn't the only one I broke in the process, though. Mine has suffered a great deal of pain with each day of your absence. I push and push you away with every intention of hurting you. I wouldn't blame you if you gave up on me, but that won't stop me from loving you. Absolutely nothing will. Life has no meaning without you. It's pointless. There's just no use going on without you in my life, without you loving me. This may sound desperate and stupid but you always wanted to know how I truly feel about you. So, here I am. Writing this letter to you while crying. I don't know why this is so hard. I guess you were right. I am falling in love with you. Only, I never realized it until after I hit the ground. Now you're gone. I'm alone. I miss you. I will always love you.
-Jinx
Dear Jinx,
You broke my heart. All I ever wanted to do was help you. All you do is push me away! I can't believe you. It seems like you're intentionally trying to hurt me. Even though I wish this isn't true, I do remember what you were like before we met. So angry at the world. You were angry at everything. Sometimes I wish I hadn't met you. That way I wouldn't be hurting like this anymore. Pain is terrible. I can't function normally. I can't sleep. I can't eat. All I do is stare at my bedroom ceiling. I don't exactly know what I'm looking for. It's pointless.
I want you back. I don't want you back. I don't know what I want. Wait, I do. I want you to want me. I want you to need me the way that I need you. Jinx, you don't understand how much I need you to love me. Without you in my world I'm not me. I'm a horrid monster. I hate myself. Why? I'm not exactly sure why but I just do. Do you even love me? One minute you say you do and the next you don't. It's so confusing. I just wish you'd tell me how you really and truly feel about me because I'm going crazy here!
I hate being without you. I hate being alone. Without you, I'm nothing. Nothing. I miss you. Why did you tell me to leave? Are you afraid? Do you hate me as much as I think you do? Please, just tell me why. All I need to know is why. So. . . . Why?
-Wally