I highly recommend you listen to Blue October's Congratulations when reading this. Words in bold are lyrics from the song. Enjoy!!
"Congratulations"
E.P.O.V.
There was never anyone as beautiful as her. She looked positively angelic as she walked down the aisle, on her father's arm, in her white gown. I tried not to look at the groom thinking how I could be in his shoes. Today was a happy day, a day of celebration. Today was her day and I would not ruin her day.
The happy tears silently streamed down her face as Charlie placed her hand on top of the groom's, gave him a big smile, and her a tight squeeze. He always favored the dog over me.
The ceremony was beautiful, though it seemed to drag on for days. When the priest announced them as husband and wife I silently stood up and walked out of the church at human speed and then ran to my car. The pain was already unbearable and I just couldn't watch as they sealed their vows with a kiss. I promised her I would be her but I don't think my angel had the slightest idea of how hard this was for me. I heard the happy thoughts of their friends and family and for once I wished I could cry in this ancient body.
I tried to compose myself before the reception. No need for Bella to be upset on her wedding day. I followed the procession of cars to the small dance hall they had rented for the occasion.
I parked my car in the lot and sat for a long time. I watch the sun set over a gazebo in a small park next to the hall. I decided it would be a nice place to watch the stars come out. There was a breathtaking view of the mountains from the little gazebo. I sat down in one of the two empty chairs and watched the moon rise over the horizon.
I heard a soft footfall climb the stairs behind me and eventually stop beside me.
"Beautiful." She breathed.
"It's alright." I said. "I wouldn't use the word beautiful though. Not with you standing here in comparison." Bella blushed. I loved watching the blood rush to her cheeks.
"Is that seat taken?" She asked. I shook my head.
"Congratulations. Would you like to take a walk with me?" I said after awhile, standing up.
Bella got up from her chair and followed me down a small path.
"My mind . . . it kind of goes fast." I needed to explain myself to her. I knew it was too late, that she was a married women now but I loved her and needed to know if she loved me too. More than a friend, more than a brother, more than that dog. "I'll try to slow it down for you." My angel looked so confused. "I think I'd love to take a drive." I said this as if asking her a question.
"Edward, it's kind of my party. I can't just leave." Sadness touched her chocolate brown eyes.
I grabbed her hand. "I want to give you something - I've been wanting to give to you for years . . ."
"Edward, you didn't have to get me anything." I would have given my angel anything she wanted. Anything she could ever dream of. She wanted me to come today and I did. But not just for her. I came to see the light in my best friend. The love of my life.
"You seem as happy as you've ever been," I changed the subject. My chance of being open was broken. And now you're Mrs. Him. I thought in disgust.
Bella gave me a sad look and embraced me into a hug. My body shook so violently I thought I would hurt her. So this is what it felt like to cry.
"My words - they don't come out right," I started. "But I'll try to say I'm happy for you."
"Oh Edward! I should've never asked you to come." I pulled away from Bella.
"I think I'm gonna take that drive."
"Edward don't leave this way! Come back." Bella chased after me but she would never catch up. "I'm so sorry," she whispered. I heard it anyway. I turned around to see my angel crying.
"Bella," I said. I ran over to her. I pulled her chin up to make her eyes meet mine. "No one has ever loved anyone as much as I love you." I said sadly. But I guess that wasn't good enough I added to myself.
"Edward, I love you." Bella said.
"I want to give you something - I've been wanting to give to you for years; my heart." I pulled her up into my arms, placing my lips on hers. I gave her a chance to pull away but instead she opened her mouth slightly. I let my tongue dart out of my mouth and dance with hers, suppressing a moan. After a few moments I pulled away.
"I can't take this, Bella. I'm sorry but I can never take this back and I can't change your mind." I lightly yet quickly set her down on her feet.
"Edward please don't leave!"
I ran to my car and pulled out of the parking lot. I didn't look into my rear view mirror. I wanted to forget the scene I had caused behind me. I heard a wolf howl in the distance.
Edward, you should have never come. The thoughts of Jacob Black told me. I knew something like this would happen. His words were not sympathetic, they were angry and bitter.
I stopped my car and looked up to the sky and shouted.
Go away. Make it go away! Please
I'm not team jacob or anything but this popped in my head one day.
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