James lay in bed wondering how his life turned out like this; here he was 19, famous, gay, and 7 months pregnant with his ex boyfriend Kendall Knight's baby. James just laid there everything had been ok between him and Kendall and then James found out he was pregnant he had asked Kendall how he felt about having kids and wasn't pleased with the answer that he received, that's how he ended up where he is now back in Minnesota waiting to have his baby and then return to L.A. James never wanted this, well just not this soon he wanted to live a happy life with Kendall maybe get married and talk about kids later, but as his luck turned out it wasn't in the cards. James left L.A almost five months ago, and the break up with Kendall was something that would be forever burned in James' brain.
FLASHBACK
"Jamie why are you doing this, I thought you loved me" said Kendall with tears threatening to fall from his face.
"Kenny I'm sorry you just don't understand. I have to do this but I promise I will come back" said James with tears streaming down his face, he didn't want to leave but how could he tell Kendall that he was going to be a father, he just found it easier to leave and loose Kendall then to stay and have the baby and raise it alone and lose Kendall all in the same jump. As he turned around and began to walk out of the apartment he walked past Carlos whom was crying forcing his boyfriend of three years Logan to hold him, James had to hurry before he broke down. Just as he was about to walk out of the apartment he heard something that just broke his heart even more, if that was possible, he heard Kendall whisper to himself "Why am I never good enough?". That was it James broke, he ran out of the apartment crying with suitcase in hand.
END OF FLASHBACK
James decided it was time to crawl out of bed and feed himself and his baby, "today is going to be a good day" James tells himself, today he was going to find out the sex of the baby he was excited he would often daydream of how the baby would look like. James wondered if the baby would have Kendall's eyes or his bushy eyebrows (which James always found sexy) or would the baby look like him, James is snapped out of his daydream when he hears his mother Brooke Diamond calling him into the kitchen.
"James are you up yet?" asked Brooke then a sweet smile came upon her face when she saw her son and his rounded belly waddle into the kitchen
"Yes mom I'm up couldn't really sleep last night" said James in slightly sad tone (he had dreamed about him and Kendall together).
"What's wrong sweetie I thought you would be happy you find out what the sex of the baby is today" Brooke said slightly worried.
"I am I –I just miss Kendall, today's his birthday I've always been with him on his birthday, and I just miss him and Carlos and Logan, I even miss Gustavo!" said James on the verge of tears 'I just miss all of them".
"I know sweetie but once you have the baby you can go back, I'm sure they'll be happy to see you" Brooke said trying to cheer James up.
You see James had decided that he wanted to give the baby up for adoption; he didn't think that he would be able to raise the baby the way that it needed to be raised, once he did this he would be free to go back to L.A and try to get his life back to normal. After breakfast James went and showered and picked out his outfit for the day he went back downstairs and waited for his mom she wanted to come to the doctor's appointment and she offered to drive. Once they arrived at the doctor's office James began to get nervous he wanted to give the baby up so it could have a better life but he was starting to second guess himself. When he was called back the nurse squirted a cold jelly on James' stomach and began looking for the baby, once she found it a smile spread across her face.
"So James do you want to know the sex?" asked the nurse.
"Yes please" said James who looked like he could puke and anytime.
"Well James in the next three months you will be giving birth to a beautiful little boy" the nurse said smiling.
James could hear sniffling but he couldn't tell if it was him or his mother that was making the sounds, after the appointment Brooke dropped James off at the house and went to work he sat alone and stared at his phone trying to decide if he wanted to call Kendall and wish him a happy birthday, but he thought it would be weird he hadn't talked to any of them since he left so instead he called the one person that he was close too (besides Kendall) which in fact was Carlos.
"Ring-ring-ring" "Hello?"
"Hey 'Litos its James" said James who was trying very hard not to sound nervous
"Jamie is it really you?" said Carlos who sounded happy to hear from his friend, which relieved James.
"Yeah buddy its me…so how have things been?' said James starting to sound nervous again.
"Things are good me and Logie…I mean Logie and I are good, and so is Katie you will never guess who she's dating" said Carlos who started getting excited about the news he was getting ready to share.
"Who is she dating?" asked James whose interest had peaked
"Camille!" said Carlos who was now indeed excited
"WHAT when did she start going for girls?" James asked who was shocked by the news
"Um about two weeks after you left" Carlos said getting a little sad at the end of the sentence
"Oh um well how is Kendall you know since it's his birthday and all" asked James who started to get a little sad also
"Cant' really talk about that" Carlos said in a hushed tone, which signaled that Kendall must have walked in the room
"He just walked in didn't he?" James asked
"Yeah….um I gotta go can I call you back later?" Carlos asked with hope in his voice
"Sure 'Litos just um tell Kenny I said happy birthday or something" James said glad he was getting off the phone he felt as though he was going to start to cry.
MEANWHILE IN L.A
Carlos sat there nervous he hoped Kendall hadn't over heard his conversation today was his birthday and he didn't want Kendall to be upset, but by the look on Kendall's face Carlos knew something was wrong.
"Hey Blondie happy birthday" Carlos said in a forced happy tone
Kendall just looked at him he really wanted to be happy on his birthday but he didn't feel it, this would be his birthday without James and in total honesty Kendall hated it. Even though James had left without giving Kendall a good explanation he still loved the copper headed boy and him not be there with Kendall was making him break on the inside. Snapping out of his thoughts he sees Carlos standing there now joined by Logan looking at him with worried expressions on their faces.
"Kendall you ok?" asked Logan who was looking the blond up and down
"Yeah just tired that's all" said Kendall who could tell that his friends weren't buying it
"You miss James don't you?" asked Carlos who was debating with himself weather or not he should tell that he talked to James just a few minutes ago. The look that came on Kendall's face at just the mention of James would break anyone's heart Kendall let his head fall and shuffled his feet maybe his friends really did know how he felt.
"Yes….I just wish I knew why he left, why I wasn't good enough" Kendall said in a dejected voice, Carlos knew he had to say something but before he could Logan piped in.
"Kendall why don't you just call him…you know you want to" Logan said with a hint of hope in his voice.
"Logan even if I was to call him, he wouldn't answer when he left it was for a reason and that reason has to be me" Kendall said on the verge of tears. Carlos got up and left he was going to find out why James had left why he had made Kendall so sad.
BACK IN MINNESOTA
James sat in his living room watching tv and eating that was about the only thing he could do, just as he was about to go off into a day dream he heard his phone ringing he looked at the caller I.D and smiled it was Carlos he picked it up in a hurry.
"Hey 'Litos didn't think you would call back so soon." James said in a happy tone
"Jamie I need to ask you something…I need you to tell me the truth" Carlos said in a serious tone
"Ok? What is it?" James asked in confusion
"Why did you leave?" asked Carlos
"If I tell you promise me you won't tell anyone not even Logan and especially not Kendall" James said in a scared voice
"I promise" said Carlos
"Don't laugh but I'm seven months pregnant with Kendall's baby" James said all in one breath
Carlos was silent for a moment he couldn't believe what he just heard he thought James was lying.
"James you can't be pregnant you're a boy" Carlos said in a slight annoyed voice
"Carlos I swear I'm telling the truth I'll get off the phone and send you a picture to prove it too you" James said in a slight hurt tone he understood that Carlos might not believe him but it still hurt.
"Fine send me the picture" Carlos said and with that they hung up, James waddled into the bathroom and sent a full body picture to Carlos' phone that showed his rounded belly and swollen face he couldn't believe that he was doing this someone besides his mother and doctors was going to know about the baby. James sent the picture and waited for a reply
BACK IN L.A
Carlos received a new picture message he opened it and what he saw shocked him James was telling the truth he couldn't believe it he had to call James back they had to talk.
"Now do you believe me?" James asked on the other side of the line
"Holy shit you're really pregnant with Kendall's baby" Carlos said still in shock
"Yeah I am that's why I left Kendall doesn't want kids and I'm pregnant with his so I mean what was I suppose to do?" James said with his voice cracking
"I see your point but James he's breaking down without you, call him and talk to him please" Carlos asked in a begging tone
"Carlos I can't he wouldn't talk to me even if I did call" James said sounding defeated
"Jamie do you trust me?" Carlos asked in the serious tone again
"Yes I trust you or I wouldn't have told you about the baby, why?" James asked now curious
"Just call Kendall please for me?" Carlos asked
"I-I-I ugh fine! I'll call him ok" James said in defeat
"Thank you! Now I'm going to get off here while you call him" Carlos said in a happy tone
BACK IN L.A
Kendall and Logan were trying to figure out what had gotten into Carlos why he had just got up and left. As they were thinking Carlos came back into the apartment bouncing Logan and Kendall gave each other a look before Logan asked the question that was on his and Kendall's mind.
"Care bear where did you go?" Logan asked using one of his many nicknames for Carlos
"I had a phone call I had to make that's all" said Carlos who now had a proud smirk on his face
"Ok? Who did you call?" asked Logan
"Kenny's surprise" Carlos said as if it was the most common thing in the world
At this Kendall and Logan's interest peaked Kendall wanted to know who Carlos was talking about as he was about to say something he phone began to ring he looked at the screen and almost fainted at name that flashed across it. Kendall walked into the room that he once shared with James to take his phone call.
"Hello, Jamie" Kendall said as his heart began to beat faster and faster
"Hey Kenny, um happy birthday" James said as sadness and happiness flowed through his voice
Kendall let the water works go he began to cry silently into the phone hoping that James wouldn't notice but he did
"Kenny baby please don't cry" James said as he too began to cry
"How am I not suppose to I miss you and your not here you left and I don't know why and after five months you decide to call me now!" Kendall said with angry flowing through his voice along with pain and hurt
"I'm sorry Kenny I'll leave you alone I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday….and to tell you that I still love you whether you believe me or not" James said with just as much hurt and Kendall, he couldn't believe that he had just said that to Kendall after all that time and just as he was about to hang up he heard Kendall say
" I still love you too Jamie" James look down at his stomach and smiled when he felt the baby kick maybe things would get better after all.
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