My Guardian Angel

Bella's POV

My heart felt as if it had been ripped into shreds. Tears continuously fell from my chocolate brown eyes. My mind was clouded and all I wanted was darkness. All I wanted was a dark abyss instead of this one. My pain and suffering, I couldn't take it. I wanted to just die at this moment. Love...Life...Meaning was all rushed away if he never returned or if I never found him. But he made it clear...never!

He made of absolute no sense though. Why? Why did he have to leave me? Tears flooded my vision even more. No! It had all been an awful dream. I kept saying that in my head but i knew it was inevitable. He was gone. And he left me alone in this dark forest with the ice cold rain falling on me. But to me these shards of ice felt like knives on my skin and yet it didn't hurt like the pain in my chest.

"Edward..." I murmured.

My eyes continued to fade in and out, light to dark. I had to get up and find him, maybe I could catch him still. I tried to stand, my legs were wobbly and they sent stings of pain. But I tried. Edward! He was the reason for me and I had to try.

My vision refocused and all I knew was I was running. Running my way through thorn bushes and twigs. Tugging my hair and ripping my skin. But I didn't care it was Edward I cared about. My heart raced as I ran up the path to the Cullen's mansion. I sprinted up the white porch and busted the door open. Everything was as it had been three days ago.

"EDWARD!" I yelled.

I ran up the stairs and into his room. As well all of his stuff was still there. His Cd's and stereo, his magnificent bed and...he must be here.

"EDWARD!" I yelled, tears springing to my eyes.

I ran back down the stairs, not once falling. Immediately I ran to there garage. My heart raced his silver Volvo sat engine started but know one in his car. I sighed I still had time.

"...Bella...?" a soft, velvet voice said.

Tears sprang to my eyes and I froze still as a statue. I had to admit I was scared. Surprised though that I had caught him in time. Slowly I turned my head. He had his duffel bag and I know I was right on time.

"Bella, what are you doing here?" He asked in disbelief.

"Please, give me a minute to speak this time." I whispered

I was surprised that he obliged. Slowly I turned my whole body to face him. His face was twisted in agony and remorse. I inhaled a shakey breath.

"Promise not to leave until I'm done talking?" I asked quietly.

He nodded.

"Please don't leave me, Edward. You have know ideal what your doing to me. My heart already feels as it was ripped to shreds. Please just please don't leave me. I mean God Edward I have no ideal what I would do without you. And I probably would end up killing myself." I said, tears springing my eyes.

I watched as Edward turned his face to the side unable to look at me.

"Don't be melodramatic. Come on Bella. I can't work with us I'm not human and you certainly are not a vampire. It can't work we already tried." he said coldly.

Anger lashed out of me. "Damn you Edward. What the hell do you mean we tried. You to busy being so damn cautious to even try. Everything was perfect stop lying. Stop running. Why do you have to try so damn hard Edward? I love you no matter what happens. It's not fair that you leave me once and now again. Stop!" I snapped, tears falling like rain drops.

And yet he never looked at me. He just glanced to the side. I could tell that his face was twisted in pain and agony. I couldn't let him leave me...again.

"I have to go Bella." He said finally facing me.

I smashed my hand into the hood of his Volvo. His eyes snapped up to my face, wide eyed expression.

"You.don't.love.me." I said monotone.

My eyes looked up into his gold orbs, searching for any trace of my Edward. My eyes softened and all I could do was run and wrap my arms around his stone body. At first I could tell he was shocked and then suprisenly he dropped his bag and hugged me back. My tears began to fall even more and soon it was seeping through his shirt. But I couldn't stop soon I was sobbing. Heart-wrenched sobs. Edward tried to sooth me by rubbing circles in my back.

If he left I had know one. Renee and Phil died in a plane crash and Charlie had been murded six months ago. And the Cullens had been my only family. Now they were all gone, except Edward. Icouldn't allow it.

"Bella I do love you." he whispered.

My sobs came out even louder.

"Then don't go. Please I can't be alone. I have know one if you leave. Please Edward!" the last two words came out as a scream and I could tell it broke his heart.

"Bella..." he whispered

And then he kissed me. His cold icy lips pressed against my warm ones. And for that moment I thought it was going to be alright.

"I have to go. But I promise to come back to you." he whispered.

I nodded and then he kissed me once more.

Then he was gone.

My knees crumbled and my heart broke. I knew he was lying. I knew he was going to break this promise and it broke my heart. My family, my friends, my Edward...my love.

TBC