She never slows down.
She doesn't know why
But she knows that
When she's all alone
Feels like it's all coming down
Hanna Marin stopped and sat down on the curb of her street. She sniffed and turned around looking at her house. That was once my safe haven. She thought sadly. She turned back toward the street, watching silently as car after car passed by. She breathed out a shaky breath. Don't cry. Don't cry. She chanted in her head. She put her head in the middle of her legs, trying to calm down her emotions.
She won't turn around
The shadows are long
And she fears if she cries
That first tear
The tears will not stop raining down
She lifted her head after hearing her front door slam. She closed her eyes, trying very hard not to break down and run inside. He had betrayed her. She didn't want to see him or talk to him or have anything to do with him. She took deep breaths in through her mouth and exhaled through her nose. Her throat tightened, the first sign that she was very ready to cry.
So, stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day what's lost can be found
Just Stand in the Rain
She's been through this before, but this felt ten times worse than before. She let her mind travel back to seventh grade. She had felt wanted, special, part of something special. Being part of something special makes you special. She had thought to herself a lot back then. But, was it really worth it? All those moments of feeling small just to be popular. She looked around. Everything was going wrong; she had been hit by a car this year, stalked by someone by the name of A, which turned out to be Mona Vanderwaal, her best friend since Ali went missing. She was currently loosing her queen bee status and Mona was dead. After everything she did to her, she still wanted her to be here.
She won't make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself
And the fears whispering
If she stands, she'll fall down
She breathed out a shaky breath once more, watching as her car pulled up to her driveway. She slightly turned away seeing her evil stepsister, Kate and her friend-enemies, Riley and Naomi, get out her brand her Lexis. Hanna glared at Kate. She was once her dad's favorite, but now she was only second best. And, that's all I'll ever be to him. She thought sadly.
She wants to be found
The only way out is through
everything she's running from
Wants to give up and lie down
She remembered the first time she puked. Or should she say tried puking. Ali had come with her to visit her dad, also meeting Kate and Isobel. Hanna was jealous of the bond Kate and Ali and immediately shared; some sort of pretty girl bond. Hanna wanted to be apart of the bond, so she did what she had to do.
So, stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it's all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won't drown
And one day what's lost can be found
Just Stand in the Rain
She let the first tear drop as it began to rain. She didn't bother whipping her fallen tear, knowing there was more to come. She looked up at the now cloudy sky. First was a blue sky, full of possibilities. Now, were grey clouds, bringing sadness and depression with it. Just like Hanna's life. Hanna now felt a different sort of sadness. One that wanted to bring her to the past but for some reason, she wouldn't let it. She was just starting to get used to the sadness her life was bringing her. She stood up and just stood out in the rain, letting the cold drops fall on her skin. Each raindrop feeling like a pinch. Hanna felt nothing, she felt numb.
(a/n So, if you're wondering why I wrote this. I don't know. I was listening to the songs on my iPod and 'Stand In The Rain' by SuperChick came on, and I was thinking about who to write this about. Hanna Marin fit the plot of the one-shot perfectly. This based off of the book, NOT THE TV SERIES! Please review.)