:I hope you enjoy this. I wish I had my own Edward. sigh:

Despite the fact that my new life with Edward had begun and my old life in Forks with my human family was over, I can't really decide which one has me the most anxious. Obviously, having the most gorgeous and dedicated boyfriend-scratch that-husband is all I could ever ask for, but at times I really miss the foods my appetite would crave for other than blood and getting used to not ever having to sleep has been a weird transition. I can't complain though. I did ask for this. I am pleased at how my features became significantly more delicate, my hair more fair, and my figure more pleasing to the eye. What girl wouldn't be happy with that? I suppose that makes me a bit smug. One thing I never was in my old life.

The first few weeks of being a vampire were horrifying. I was instantaneously thirsty because I was so weak and needed strength. Carlisle had to…sedate me for a while. I felt like a rabid animal that needed to be shot. They really mean it when they say that rotten vampires are monsters.

I'd never forgive myself for being tempted to harm a child that was riding his bicycle down the street at the wrong time. I never did though. Thank heaven for Alice, she foresaw the act and I was at once taken far from human civilization. It took a good year for me to control my instincts enough that when I was fed I could intermingle with humans. Carlisle is impressed with my self-control. He said I am one of the strongest when it comes to that that he has seen so far. Hopefully it won't take too much longer before I can visit family.

I miss Charlie terribly but for his safety, as my new family has warned me, I am restricted from seeing him. Until they're positive I'm safe from draining his 'soul' as Edward calls it. He could be dead by then though. It really is hard on the heart to act as if I have just disappeared. Yet in a way I suppose you could say I have. At any rate, I really am getting better at controlling my instincts. My eyes made their transition from dark and red to that golden color three years ago. It's just the chances of me slipping are still good. Maybe that's what is making me anxious. That I'm going to far outlive Charlie and Renee, for eternity.

I can't even remember the last time I was ridiculously compelled to devour a cheeseburger. The taste isn't satisfying anymore so that's kind of a displeasure. Edward has been extremely patient with me over the past four years about it even with my occasionally nagging about 'how many more deer could I possibly stomach?'. My husband is perfect. I couldn't be happier than to have him by my side every day.

Today he's planned a surprise for me and I can't seem to coax Alice into giving me the details. Not even the most nominal clue. I'd been arguing with her for the past three hours.

"Come on, you ruin my plans for you guys all the time." I pleaded.

"I wouldn't say 'ruin'." She retorted, crossing her arms over her chest.

"Oh really. I remember a graduation present that I hadn't even purchased yet at the time and you blurted it out and then only a few months ago when I had gone for a ride with Esme to get Rosalie a new vanity and cushion. You ruined that and told Rosalie about that too."

"Aren't you glad I did though? She told me she hated it."

"That's not fair!" I shamefully stomped my foot.

Edward and Emmet started down the winding staircase, wide grins displayed on their faces. "You better be careful brother. They almost make a better married couple than you and Bella do." Emmett snickered.

"I beg to differ." Edward replied disgruntled and grabbed me by my waist. He kissed me from my jaw to my shoulder sending a chill of pleasure down my spine. Even though I have no need for air I still feel as if my lungs have collapsed as if they had been working only just before he kisses me. It's amazing how spell bound I am to him. Never in a million years did I think love could ever be so strong. I bet we have the most intense. Okay, now I'm just bragging.

Taking advantage of the fact that if I wanted, I inhaled the smell of his sweet aroma. I was still highly addicted to it. Why wouldn't I be? The smell of him always was my favorite poison. And now, being a vampire, I can have him forever. I smiled at the thought.

"What are you thinking about?" Edward looked at me curiously.

"You." I smiled even wider that he still couldn't read my mind. I enjoyed being the only mystery to him.

It's probably best. I had terrible thoughts my first two years, half of it was about him and his stubbornness because he didn't want me to do something 'stupid'. Like I hadn't heard that one before. I knew it was for my safety, but being a newborn I didn't want to take anybody's parental like control and I fought kicking and screaming my way through it even though I failed most of the time. So like those slumber parties he had Alice force me into way back, I found myself trapped inside the house most of the time. House arrest only made my wild temper worse and I was already stronger than them at the time. However, once Emmet tackled me to the ground and held me there, that was it. Doesn't mean I didn't live up to those arm wrestling matches that Edward had waited to see. Emmet's expression was priceless the first time I threw his hand into the table with one easy swing.

I could feel Edwards grasp on me tighten in response. It was almost as tight as Jakes had been, the kind where you suddenly can't breath. If I was human I'm sure the grasp would have broken some ribs. I wonder how Jake is doing anyhow. The Cullens, me being the newest member, all moved to Elkins West Virginia some time after my…transformation, I suppose you could call it. It's a safe zone for us because there are only 48 sunny days a year here. Carlisle had a mansion built about 50 miles out of town out in the foothills. It is absolutely gorgeous country and a walking buffet if I do say so myself. We all thought it be best if we seclude our lifestyle into the wilderness from others. Mostly because of me. Emmet and Jasper made a dirt road that leads from interstate 79 to the house. Our driveway is fairly hidden when you're going about 75 miles per hour down the interstate and it's about 20 miles into the woods.

We own a good eight acres of the land around us. The mansion has two levels. Its outside appearance sort of a flat wood log cabin look to it. There are 5 bedrooms, and an enormous kitchen with a center counter for all the vegetables to hang and utensils to be stored. Not that we ever really eat any fruits or vegetables so it's really just for show. There is a large center room with the piano Edward played my lullaby on back in Forks. The ceiling in there reaches up to the roof and the hallway upstairs winds around half of it so you can look over the railing into the center room below.

The east wall in the center room is all glass showing off miles and miles of trees and meadows. There is a stone fireplace in the middle of that wall that goes from the floor to the second story ceiling. The winding staircase, where we stood, is in that room. The rooms are white, beige, and ivory colored, if not that log cabin look to it with all wooden floors. A few antique rugs were the only soft exception. Carlisle interior taste is very 16-1700's. In the backyard there is a large deck with a pool to occupy our time when we don't know what else to do with ourselves. On the left side of the property there is a four-door garage that holds the sports cars. Emmet's jeep is too big to fit so it sits between the house and the garage.

"Why don't you take her to her surprise. The poor girl's about to burst." Alice interrupted my being lost in his arms with a quiet laugh.

"Not until dusk." Edward replied, loosening his grip on me.

I really was going to knock him through a wall. He keeps pushing back the time when he's going to take me to it. It amuses him. Obviously. He looked to my face as innocently as possible to search my expression. Clearly it was irritated because he broke into laughter and took my hands.

"My silly Bella, if it will make you happy then we can go now. But the best part really isn't until dusk."

"That's more like it." I mumbled.

"I know you'll love it. I'm sure you have never been there before." He paused. "At least I hope not."

"Don't worry she hasn't." Alice chimed in.

I glared at her contemptuously.

"Perfect!" Edward exclaimed with his godly smile. Oh fine, I can forgive her for telling him if it makes him this happy. But damn her and her astonishing gift. It's only a menace when it comes to me.

An hour later Edward and I reached the tree line behind the house but paused as he turned to look at me with so much affection displayed on his face that my heart sunk to the leaves under my feet. He bent down and our icy lips pressed hard against each other for a sweet kiss. He broke the kiss and looked at me for a moment, a grin beginning to spread across his face.

"You shouldn't have any problem keeping up with me right?"

"Is that a challenge?" I mused.

"Maybe."

"You're on." And before I even finished saying that he sprint into the woods. I followed close behind him, dodging trees and roots and bushes and boulders so easily I'd say I was hovering over the ground and not running. This litheness is a big change from what I was like as a human. I was the human destined for hurting herself over and over. It was awfully embarrassing. Sometimes I still slip here and there. Of course I do.

The trees buzzed past me so fast that everything was a blur and for a split second we darted across a meadow and back into the trees. We had been running like this for ten minutes and I could keep going for a while. I know why Edward loves to run so much now. It's exhilarating, yet doesn't ware you out like it should. He slowed down to about 30 mph (wild guess) and that's when I noticed it was beginning to thunder.

I caught an apprehensive look on his face but he immediately turned to me with a reassuring smile. The storm wasn't going to hit us. We would just hear it from the north.

We ran at this steady pace for about five minutes, coming up to an old abandoned cabin that probably hasn't been used for hundreds of years. Edward came to a sudden halt so I stomped my heel into the ground, digging up dirt a few feet before everything went to a stand still. I noticed he was listening intently. I didn't know what for. Maybe humans would come hike up here every so often. I didn't smell any though.

I took a look around me and gasped at what I saw. There was a willow tree, ancient; it's branches so long that the tips rested on the ground. Around it was what looked like a garden of roses that must have been planted at the time the little shabby house was vacant. Only now the roses have grown wild, some of the thorny vines twisting with the branches of the willow.

A river was running a few yards from it, the setting sun (the first in about a month) giving it a wild fire look. There was a tiny waterfall only about a foot high, making the river hum even louder. Even the cabin looked somewhat enchanted. Moss had grown over the broken roof and ivy had reached its way up the railings, small purple flowers budded here and there. The grass around it must have been about 6 feet high. I don't know if the inside of the cabin has had a good dose of sun in a while for that reason.

"Do you smell that?"

I turned my head, broken from my trance. Edward's nostrils were flared, his eyes closed as if in concentration. Curious, I inhaled a deep whiff of something I had never smelled before. It was tantalizing yet somewhat repellent causing my senses to get out of whack.

"What is it?" I took a deeper inhale, taking a step towards it's direction.

"That my love, is a mountain lion." He was delighted.

I stopped, caught off guard. "Here? What's it doing here?"

"I remember hearing something about a forest fire a few weeks ago. It must have been forced into the area." He took a deeper breath. "There're three."

"Smells too salty. I think I'll pass."

"I like it salty." He grinned. "I'm not going to hunt anyway. I've already had my fill yesterday. Besides the other two are only cubs. I better wait until they're grown. The whole reason I brought you here was this." He gestured to what I had already fallen in love with. "I'll just have to keep in mind the cougars are here."

"You do that." I muttered, turning towards the house to a full-blown "HAPPY 5 YEAR ANNIVERSARY!"

I stumbled back, bowled over in surprise and tripped over one of the roots from the Willow. There was a sudden roar of laughter from Emmet.

"Even inhuman, she is little miss trips-a lot." He managed to say this between gasps of air from the lack of oxygen to his brain. Not that it ever works…
Even Edward was trying not to snicker. Some love bug.

"My sweet Bella, I can't express how happy I am to have yet another year of your treasured presence ahead of us." Esme smiled sweetly as she helped me to my feet. "I do think of you as a wonderful daughter." She added, hugging me fiercely.

"Thank you Esme, I love you too. I couldn't be happier to have a motherly figure such as yourself." I smiled and gave Carlisle just as fierce a hug. I grimaced then and turned to Alice. "You're good. You convinced me I was going to love this." I grumbled.

"Oh Bella it isn't so bad. At least it is us you are celebrating with."

"Exactly. What better company could you ask for?" Jasper chimed in.

Okay, she had me there.

Rosalie skipped her perfect, flawless self over to me with a small package in her hands. Since I had become one of them I have to admit, she had been a big help to me. Without her encouragement it would have been harder for me to get used to my new life. It was hardly expected but it was highly appreciated. Without. A. Doubt. At least she could now admit to not disliking me anymore.

"This is hardly appropriate." I objected.

"It's more than appropriate." She shoved the box into my hands. "Open it already. Edward was the one that picked it out." She grinned ruefully.

Oh man.

I eyed all five of them suspiciously, mainly Edward who was now towering over me from behind. I shook the box a little. It sounded pretty hollow; a little object inside was hitting all the walls. I slowly opened it to find a key. I stopped to stare at it bewildered.

"A key to what?"