This an older story of mine, perviously entitled All around me. I have decided to revise the exisiting chapters and continue the series. The chapters that had been included in the first version are in the first chapter but everythnig after is brand spanking new!

Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts nor do I own the songs All around me by Flyleaf or You are so Beautiful by Escape the Fate

My hands are searching for you

My arms are outstretched towards you

I feel you on my fingertips

My tongue dances behind my lips for you

First thing first, I hate my life. I go to school, come home, wake up and start all over again. One cares about me. I am the outcast. I know big whop! Another sad story. But I can't just imagine my life is perfect when it's not. I wear the clothes I like, listen to good music but none of it ever makes any difference. People still avoid me. I like that, 'cause I don't like them either.

It was a Monday morning, which is never a good sign, when the teacher jumped up with one of her fake, only-to-please smiles. She looked at the open door where an obviously stunned guy was standing. His jaw was slack in shock, Yes, I thought, there is that much white, I thought, and everything is fake here. This place reminded me of the bright light you would see when you die but the was no heaven here. He looked relatively normal at first glance, uniform was spotless. But the bright red hair could not get passed anybody. He started talking quietly with the teacher. His movements were flawless. He turned his head and I saw that his ears were pierced on both sides, and were those tattoos on his face? They were small triangles under his eyes. If I did anything like that, I would be kicked out of school and then my house. What the fuck is he doing here? No body this interesting came to this school…

"Class! We have a new class mate! His name is Axel. He's from Hokkaido. Tell me, Axel, what brings you to Nagoya?" …poor bastard, on the spot in the first five minutes. I lifted my head from my binder in feigned interest. He looked directly at me. My mouth swung open as we locked in a stare. Though his eyes were green, I saw fire. He was so…different. Everyone here looked the same. He stood out in a good way. Well, to me anyways. He still did not answer the question and it was starting to make me nervous, but I did not care. I never felt this before…

This fire rising through my being

burning I'm not used to seeing you

"Change of scenery. I hate the cold in the winter." He finally answered. His eyes never left mine.

"Oh… Well you'll find the winters here are quite pleasant!" she threw another fake smile and motioned for him to find a seat. It was inevitable…. There are only four empty desks in the class and they are all around me. Who would have guessed? He sat right behind me, in the last desk in the row.

"Ok, yesterday we reviewed the history of-" I put my head phones in and turned up the volume. Bring me the horizon was the first song that played. I always pass the day with listening to music and showing no enthusiasm towards my educational career. The teachers learned not bug me and I did not give them an aneurism.

It was about half way through the song Chelsea Smile, when I felt a hole forming in the back of my skull. He is staring at me. I put my head down on my binder in hopes that it was my head in the way of the chalk board that was the cause but, nope. I felt the green eyes follow my head down. Great… a creep!

Lunch was just a continuation of my classes. I sat under the tree that was designated for me. No one ever walked out this far in to the yard for lunch. I found my usual spot and started reading a manga that my friend recommended. It was about these two class mates who decide to unofficially investigate brutal murders. Right up my alley. I was enjoying my solitude when a very tall shadow over took my reading light. The creep has followed me here. He stood in front of me with a broad smile.

"Hello?" he waved his hand in my face; I quickly wipe the drool from the corners of my mouth, "Earth to Roxas!" His spiked hair amazed me. He had to get up at ungodly hours to get his hair to stay like that. His frame was tall and lanky but there was evidence that he worked out on a regular basis. His white uniform shirt was open to reveal a Dir en Grey shirt underneath. All of his piercings were silver and shiny. All in all, Roxas had a reason to drool.

"How the fuck do you know my name?" I spat.

"Nice to me you too!" He sarcastically smiled as wide his face would allow, "I'm Axel. Got it memorized?"

"I know…" He slumped down next to me, and leaned in to see my manga. His arm touched mine and I shivered. No one touches me… well outside of a mosh pit.

"What ya reading?" he turned his face to me. Ok, this guy has no sense of personal space. Thank god for make-up that covers bright red!

"Goth," I decided to stick to one word answers.

"Does it have any fire?"

"No,"

"Explosions?"

"No," so this guy is a pyro? Figures, I attract the crazy ones.

"You're not one for conversation, are you?" he raised his eyebrow. Damn him… being born with ability to look sexy even when confused.

"I hate talking… It means I have to be around people," I threw a venomous glare but he just smiled back. He was so confidant, how could I look him in the eye? That smile was so care free. How could he do it? I cannot stand the stares and glares. Why was everyone telling you to do what makes you happy when they would never accept who you truly are? "Why do you wanna talk to me?"

"Because, if we're going to be in the same class for the rest of the year, we might as well be friends," touché….

"Fine…" I mumbled.

"I'm sure it won't be that painful to make friends." Axel said sarcastically.

"Whatever you say," He leaned away from me while readjusting his legs and his arm was not touching me anymore. I suddenly felt cold…. I think I know this feeling. It had been a while.

I'm alive, I'm alive

Ok, so far so good. The creep does not want to take a hint. He keeps to himself but for the most part he is the more talkative of the two of us. It's been a few weeks since Axel showed up. I guess you could call us friends, we were the ones that we could stand to be around in this hell hole. He had caught on to my life style. The parties, the drinking and the music, how it wished I wished I was a lead singer. The only problem was the fact that I sounded like a girl when I sang. Not the effect I'm going for. This was something that had been rolling around in my head for a while. I knew that Axel had some friends he had that were in to the music scene.

"What do you know about starting a band?" I asked Axel at lunch on a Friday.

"I'm in a band." He looked up from his buritto with extra hot sauce. He went a little over board with anything that was spicy. I hate Mexican food though. He still would offer half of his lunch.

"Really?"

"So like what do you need in a lead singer?"

"He needs to be bold," shit "Good with people," Crap "And of course a good voice." Well there is light at the end of the tunnel…. I was sunk. My career in music would be reduced to standing in the crowd.

"What if the lead singer has a girly voice?" If there was a glimmer of hope, I would take it.

"Um, go power pop? Or you could find a deeper voice to duo with and get the whole System of a Down/Underoath sound."

"Know any bands going for the Underoath sound?" I don't think they would take me but how would I know if I did not try.

"Actually… Yeah. You can come see them tonight. Bring friends." Axel nodded and went back to his spicy curly fries.

"… Friends?"

"So…what is he like?" Namine asked over the phone. I told you about the friend that recommended that manga? Well Namine is one of my better friends and an artist. She loved to analyze the style of manga artists and came across Goth in her reading and passed it on. I decided to invite her and her little sister, Kairi. I also invited my best friend Sora. He lives across the city and I do not get to see him often during the week. People say we look so alike we could be brothers but we have no relation what so ever. I had hoped Namine would be satisfied with an invitation to a show and leave it at that. But she made a point of sticking her nose in my life, purely out of love… I think?

"Who said there was a Him?" damn she good at this sometimes.

"Oh, come on! We can't get you in to a bar full of people if we tried!" Namine pleaded and I knew she would eventually get it out of me but I was not going to give up so easy.

"Maybe I wanna be more social?" I hopped that would satisfy her once again.

"…"

"His name is Axel"

"YES!" she giggled "my Roxy has a crush!" I could feel her jumping up and down over the phone. I have a bad feeling about this.

We decided that we would meet at Sora's house, seeing as his place was about a block away from the basement, on the shady corner of town. This was not really a basement, more of an unofficial gathering place for Nagoya's underbelly. It was filled with liquor, music and angry people. It was heaven. The doors opened at 7, so I showed up at Sora's at 6:15. I knocked on the door and it tore open. A brunette was standing there arms crossed, face twisted in to a glare.

"Why was I the last one to find out about Him?" Sora demanded.

"You never asked," I shrugged.

"Well I'm not a mind reader!" he complained childishly.

"Namine is…" I retorted.

"That doesn't excuse you! I should have been the first to know about him." Sora put his hands on his hips.

"Who is him?" Sora's mom casually walked by.

"Roxas' crush!" Sora responded with a smile over his shoulder.

"Who you guys going to tell next? The neighbours?" I glared at Sora with a thousand daggers.

"Awe! He's blushing!" Kairi pointed at my face which was turning a pale pink. Namine was sitting with her sister on the couch. Kairi is pretty cool. She likes a lot of North American trends, she followed a style that was called "scene". Namine on the other hand was Lolita. She always had a different dress for every occasion. Sora had a crush on Kairi, he told me, but he was scared because Kairi was a year younger and Namine's sister. I saw no problem with it but Sora had a reputation as a ladies man, and Namine could name every girl he had gone out with. Namine knew too much about Sora to let him date her little sister.

"K, let's get ready in my room," Sora's version of pre-party prep was to at least consume half the alcohol for the night. I am pretty sure Sora's mom has caught on, but she was turning a blind eye.

We went down the short hallway to the last door. Sora ushered everyone in the room then closed the door behind us. He skipped over to the edge of his bed. He reached underneath his mattress and pulled out two bottles. One Jack Daniels', one peach mango rum. I got the Jack and the rest liked their rum. Sora took shots to ensure maximum drunkenness. Namine and her sister mixed with coke. Me? I drank straight from the bottle, especially tonight. I was nervous.

"So, what does he look like?" Sora was egger to find out what he missed. I took a swag of JDs'.

"Tall," I did not like have to answer questions so I was back to one liners.

"And?" Namine pushed.

"Red Hair," They were really making me anxious. It was bad enough that I was going to see the guy tonight, now they were forcing me to describe him.

"Is he Irish?" Sora asked and head turned to the side.

"Not natural red, bright red," I liked the color of his hair, it was unique.

"Really? And he's in a band?" Kairi asked. Another gulp…

"Yeah, lead singer. His band is playing tonight." Oh, sure let's remind our self that were playing with fire….

"Well, you're the only one who likes metal/emo shit," Sora commented, "You should thank us. There's going to be a rough crowd there tonight." Sora was right. Every time we had been there it was for pop-punk concerts that attract a younger, less irate crowd.

"It isn't shit…" I defended. I felt the alcohol starting to hit me and fast. I was seeing double and my fingers were numb. Good. I'm almost ready to go. I took the biggest gulp of the night and sat myself next to Namine on the bed and waited till we left, gulping in regular intervals.

About half an hour (and half a 2/6) later, we agreed we would start making our way down to the show. I stood up quickly and felt a beautiful wave of dizziness. Time was becoming a blur as I made it down stairs. Before I knew it, I was at the door paying my 1,000 yen to get in.

"Yo! Yoshiya!" I gave the door man a high five. I was always a friendly drunk. The people here probably did not know that I was anti-social, since I have never showed up sober.

"Roxas! Thousand." Most shows never charge more than 700.

"NE? That's fuckin' bull!" as I made a sad attempt to put the money in his hand. He eventually just grabbed it and pushed me in. The others popped up behind me. We looked around but the show would not be starting for another 10 minutes. Time to find the bar! I started in that direction when a hand grabbed the back of my shirt.

"Haven't had enough for a while? You don't wanna embarrass yourself in front of Axel." Namine was the babysitter of the group by nature.

"HAH! AXEL IS IT? Yes! I am no longer out of the loop!" …and Sora is the loud drunk.

"Wanna say that any louder?" I glared at Sora again.

"Wha?" He was oblivious to his loudness.

"Nevermind… I need a drink." This time I made it all the way to the bar. I ordered a black tooth; whiskey with a splash of coke. When you are holding it in your hand in a low lit room, it looks like you are drinking a coke, but in truth it is more alcohol than anything else.

"Black tooth? More like black-out, especially for someone your size." Axel had decided to join me at the bar.

"I-I'm not that 'mall 'nd I c-can hold my liquor!" Fuck, I should have listened to Namine. I have seemed to have miss placed my lips. Can anyone find them?

"Can I get a red bull?" Axel asked. Oh fuck, he might not drink and here I was drunk as a skunk. Namine… help? "N-no liquid courage?" I asked feebly.

"No. Not to night. I tend to be a little fucked up when I'm… well fucked up." I nodded, nearly hitting my cheek on the bar, seeing as I was slowly aiming for curling up underneath it. "I don't drink before a show, but there's a party at our apartment after. Wanna come? You can come meet the band I was talking about."

"Yeah! I mean if my friends can come?" I was doing a good job of keeping my composure. Or from what I could tell.

"Sure… I gotta get backstage. See ya." He gave a side glance that I could not interpret, so I took it was a look of disgust.

I can feel you all around me

Thickening the air I'm breathing

Holding on to what I'm feeling

Savoring this heart that's healing

"It's ok Roxas, I'm sure he couldn't tell you were drunk." Namine had found me finishing my fourth drink.

"'Ealy? 'Ou 'ure?" I was flopped over Sora's right shoulder, he was supporting me with my arm over his shoulders.

"You're in the safe." She nodded with a bright smile. There was hint of desperation behind the smile. I could tell she was praying that Axel did not notice I was toastered.

"K…" After Axel left backstage, I got depressed and started my journey to alcohol poisoning.

"Drink more water!" Kairi gave her small piece of advice.

"No! He'll spill all over me again!" Sora wined.

"OK! WE'RE KODOU!" Right then a mind numbing bass riff and drums started up. Short and sweet. I liked it. As far as my drunk mind could tell, the music was fucking awesome! From our spot at the back, I could not see the band nor was I in the mosh pit. So, my blitzed out mind came up with an idea.

"I could've found a better way

You know I never should have stayed

I could've done the things I believed were wrong

Now you're saying that its late

It doesn't matter what i say

You know you're just another one of my mistakes

You are so beautiful, You are the kind of guy

that has the chemicals that makes me fall in love

Beautiful, you are the kinda guy, that has the chemicals

That makes me fall in love"

"Guys… I think I need to puke…." I held my stomach and ran in the direction of the toilets.

"Do you need me to come along?" Sora yelled over the crowd.

"No!" I yelled back and kept running like there was no tomorrow. When I reached the toilet, I unclenched my stomach and walked back. I had no intention of going back to the nose bleed section, I walked straight in the direction of the mosh and Axel. I took a couple steps of a running start then leaped in. The mass amount of people in one spot, all pushing, all sweaty and all angry at the world, it was my release. This is what I lived for. I was too numb to feel potential bruises. After my moment of euphoria, I caught a glimpse of Axel in the corner of my eye. I managed to push my way through half of the mosh pit. I knew that the second half was worse. The stage acted as a barricade, pinning human bodies to it in the hope to be close to the band. I was nothing compared to some of these metal heads. Jesus! It was like all the high school football teams in the city showed up. I was drunk and a foot shorter than these monsters. It was no surprise when a drunk manbeast lifted me up to crowd surf.

"So now I'm feeling like a slave

I'm locked away inside this grave

And I'm hoping for a way I can be saved

You know that there will come a day

when I just have to say, you're just another one of my mistakes"

I could not figure out what was going on. There were people and they lifted me. I was going up and down rhythmically, sometimes getting too low or too high for comfort. I could not realize where I was. I was really getting dizzy and need the toilet for real this time.

" You are so beautiful, You are the kind of guy

that has the chemicals that makes me fall in love

Beautiful, you are the kinda guy, that has the chemicals

That makes me fall in love

Fall in love

You know I felt a strong regret

You lied about, You lied about

You lie to me, lie to me"

The world was spinning, usually I would sit back and enjoy the ride, but I was really going to be sick. Like being ripped from a pool of colour and hot bodies, someone grabbed my belt on my dangerously low jeans. They yanked me to my feet up on to a flat surface and stood me up. I came nose to nose with nose other than Axel… I have never blushed so hard in my life. I was inches way from a hot, sexy lead singer who was still gripping my belt. As if on cue the song ended with Axel singing his was line while still staring at me.

"Makes me fall in love!"

Axel smiled then faced the crowd. He put his arm around my waist. My stomach did a major back flip. Shit, this is not the time for me to reverse the contents of my stomach. I went deer in the head lights. I vaguely understood that Axel was introducing me to the audience. I was dealing with too much to pay close attention. Axel leaned in to my ear, his lips tickling my ear.

"Go find your friends and stay there, ok?" Axel gave me the promise me eyes. I nodded and started stumbling to the stairs at the side of the stage. I got on solid ground and ran for the bathroom. This time I was going to be sick.

I think I lost my liver sometime in the middle of my body deciding to retch up all of its contents. I curled up with toilet seat and was finally feeling like I might be ok to stand up. I have a love hate relationship with alcohol; I love it when I am drunk, and I hate it after. I was starting to get up when I heard someone walk in to the bathroom. Whoever it was, they can go fuck themselves. I need silence and they were being noisy. I stumbled out and was swearing obscenities at them when I vaguely recognized one of the guys was the one that lifted my up to crowd surf. He was behind about three other guys blocking the doors. They all had a blank face at first; any one would seeing a drunk yelling at them.

"'So 'ou better jus' fuck off…" I glared at them and I tried walking past them and the gears in their heads turned and they stopped me from leaving. The big guy in the middle smiled.

"You the little fag who thought he was tough shit in the pit?" He crossed his arms showing Yakuza tats.

"'nd 'f I'm?" I will never be allowed to drink after tonight. I obviously have a problem with keeping my mouth shut.

"You wanna mosh? Mosh this!" They began to push me between them in a mock mosh pit. But then pushes became punches. I became the entertainment for the drunken idiots.

"Fuck off! You wanna go? I'll take you!" I yelled hoping if I put up a fight they would leave me alone. I was wrong. A hand grabbed my jaw a fist slammed in to my cheekbone.

"Where's Roxas? I sent him your way?" Axel was asking Kairi and Namine.

"We haven't seen him since his little stunt…" Kairi was not impressed with Roxas behaviour of late.

"I would go check the bathroom." Sora suggested.

"Thanks guys, oh, and I invited Roxas to our after party, he said he wanted you guys to come too." Axel added.

"Yes! I mean… haha… yeah, no problem." Namine was just a little excited for Roxas.

"K, Talk to you later." Axel nodded and headed for the john.

I could not tell who was who; I was only seeing flashes of the action. The fists were about all I would see then everything was black again. I had one black eye, a battered nose, cracked lip and my stomach was past the point of bearable, not to mention the cracked ribs. I could be dead and I would not have known the difference. The low lighting in the bathroom lightened up for a second, signalling the door being opened. The massacre stopped or the moment while my attackers talked with the person. All I could see was a shadow of the person and I could not comprehend words, so I stuck to lying face down in the pool of blood from the cuts on my face. The gang stayed in between me and the guy. They talked for what seemed like eternity when the group nodded off and left. I was in pure agony. I could feel my pulse in every inch of my body. The stranger came closer and I lifted my head in interest. All I saw was bright red hair.

My hands float up above me

And you whisper you love me

And I begin to fade in to our secret place

My blonde hair was stained red. My face was a mess and my clothes were dirty from lying on the floor. I was only slightly ashamed of what had happened tonight. To top it all off, Axel was the one who had picked me up off the floor and sat me down on the counter and began helping me clean up. I was entering the gates of hell. Axel took paper towel from the counter and began wetting them with water and cleaning off my face. I was so mad at myself. Why do I do this to myself? I mentally scolded myself, It will always end the same… you're just going to scare him away. I was going to go home alone and sob over it then go to school on Monday and get over it, but there is one problem with this equation. Axel goes to my school now. I am royally fucked up in more ways than one.

"Are you awake?" Axel asked. He really needs to learn personal space. He was examining my face close up almost nose to nose. I had closed my eyes to think and to keep the stinging light out of my eyes.

"Y-yeah, I think." I blushed but this time I had no make up to hide it.

"Do you think you can clean up a bit?" he held up the wet paper towel so I could see it.

"I don't know…" I had used my arms to block on coming fists and they were feeling pretty sore. And not to brag, I got one or two punches in, making my knuckles swell.

"OK, I'll help then." He picked up the wet paper towel and began wiping away the blood. For the size of his hands, his touch was extraordinarily gentle. He only touched lightly and never actually disturbed any of the wounds. He was cleaning my mouth and his face was still centimeters away from mine.

"Why are you doing this?" my voice was quite as if there was a silence that was so delicate it would shatter in to a million pieces with excessive noise.

"I can't just leave you." There was a painful look in his eyes. If it was hard to take care of me, why was he doing it?

"Yeah, you could. Anyone else would…" He was just making me mad by trying to be the nice guy. Just drop it, I know that you would never do this if you did not know Namine would kick your ass.

"Your friends out there wouldn't leave you here." He said, making my point.

"They're supposed to be like that-ouch!" I had moved my lip at the same time his hand moved and came in to contact with my cut on my lip.

"I'm so, so, so sorry! I'm sorry!" Axel for once, looked frazzled and truly apologetic.

"It's ok…" I was sorrier for the trouble I had caused.

"Roxas? Why do you do this…? The drinking?" I looked down and played with my wrist bands. I was embarrassed but now I was utterly ashamed of myself. I wanted to die.

"I don't know… To be someone else I guess," I hated being anti-social but I had a big problem with trusting people. They only wanted to hurt me.

"I like who you are." Ok, so maybe I was still a little drunk because all of a sudden, I got really brave.

"Really? You like me?" I smiled.

"Yeah, you're a nice guy." Axel nodded but kept his focus on the clean-up.

"Would you date me?" Axel stopped and looked at me. There was a moment where we both were seizing each other up, who was going to bluff and who was honest? He was being honest but I was only joking, so I looked down.

"…Yes, but not at this moment," I looked up in surprise, "Right now, you're too drunk to remember this."

"I'm not drunk anymore!" there is nothing like a fist fight to sober you up!

"Yeah, Yeah, Yeah. Stand up and get your head under the sink to rinse your hair." Axel encouraged. I stood up and wobbled on my feet. Axel saw me having troubles and put his hand around my waist. It felt nice to that close to him. He helped me get to the sink then let me hold myself up. I missed him holding me, so I decided to fake dizziness. I made my self slide down the counter. He caught me and I felt it again. This was the feeling that I had not had in years…

"I swear! Goddamn it!" Kairi was pissed at the football players who played tennis with my face.

"If I catch them, they are so dead." Sora really could not do any real damage if he got a hold of them but the thought is what counted.

"I'll stick with him till the end of the show," Axel volunteered.

"No, go have fun," I refused, "You don't want a gimp like me following you around."

"Oh no, you're not leaving my side tonight!" Axel was not about to back down.

"Or mine!" piped up Sora. Not that he would make a good bodyguard.

"Or mine!" Kairi joined in. Ok, her hair spray might work as pepper spray.

"I actually think Kairi should be heading home," Namine hinted, "She has that thingy tomorrow, right Kairi?" I'm so going to have a talk with Namine tomorrow.

"Oh… yeah… thing tomorrow, hehe," Kairi caught the drift but unfortunately Sora did not.

"What thing? You never said anything thing about a thing?" he was drunk but that was not the problem to begin with. He was just not good at reading between the lines.

"Sora, why don't you walk Kairi and me home?" She raised an eyebrow.

"uh…. OH! ok…" Sora yelled.

"Then it's decided. You can take care of our precious Roxy?" Namine raised an eye brow at Axel. In Namine speak, this means; you hurt him, I kill you.

"I think I can keep him out of trouble… I think?" Axel gave me inquisitive look. He put his arm around me and smiled. Damn him for having a beautiful smile…

"K, then its decided. Talk to you tomorrow Roxas." Namine winked at me then waved goodbye to Axel. I think I waved good bye, but I still cannot feel my hand. I avoided looking at Axel at all costs. He definitely was trying to burn a hole in my head again, I just looked at my shoes. His arm was still around me and was starting to wonder when this silence was going to end. Never mind that Axel smells good! And he is comfy to lean on.

"Do you wanna meet the band I talking about?" My eyes widened. What? I'm not exactly going for the Miss. America crown at the moment not mention that "world peace" is the only sentence I can say.

"N-now?" I wished for a miracle. Please, God, let me vanish in to a black hole!

"Yeah, I got an idea." He squeezed my shoulders and led me in the direction of the entrance way. We walked towards a group of guys that were a few years older than me but otherwise wore the same skinny jeans, band tees and straightened their hair the same as me. The band seemed pretty cool.

"Hey! Riku!" Axel caught their attention. They looked at Axel and smiled and waved. "Follow my lead." He whispered in my ear. I looked at him then back to the group. I did not like the idea of being the center of attention in a big group again tonight but Axel was there, so I felt safe. These guys looked friendly and un-manbeast-ish.

"Hey Ax, is this the newest celebrity of the night?" Riku asked.

"Yeah, guys this is Roxas, Roxas this Riku, lead singer, Yuffie on skins*, Pence on bass and Hayner on guitar." Everybody waved at me except one had to jump up and down while waving.

"Hi…" wow… nice first impression, Roxas.

"So I hear you have a voice?" Riku hinted.

"Yeah, but it's a little …ahem… high?" I was understating.

"Well that's exactly what we're after. You should come and practice sometime this week." Riku suggested. That was it? I got an audition?

"Really?" I said, the excitement in my voice made Riku smile.

"Yeah, we rent the same space for practice and Kodou, just get Axel to show you where it is." Riku looked at Axel and he nodded in agreement.

"K, um, when?" I asked because I had school and these guys looked like they might be out of school.

"Next practice is on Tuesday night." Haner answered.

"Ok!" I was getting excited. I had not even got to go back stage, let alone go to a practice session.

"Well, now that's sorted out… AXEL YOU WERE AWSUME!" Yuffie had decided that her opinions needed be heard… and now. She had jumped from behind Riku and was nearly on top of Axel.

"Yeah, it was a good show," Axel turned to me, "This is Yuffie. Never give her sugar."

"Ha-ha, ok." Not that anyone needed to tell me that one.

"Hey Rocky, who's been giving you the dukes?" Hayner asked. Shit, was hoping this would never surface, but I did look like a zombie.

"Uh…I-" I stammered, I was embarrassed but I could not come up with a lie fast enough with my drunken mind.

"He was in the mosh remember? He just got in over his head." Axel jumped in and saved my skin.

"Nice. Toughing it out in the mosh. Man, I wouldn't even go in that thing tonight. It looks plain ugly." Pence complemented. Pence wasn't small either.

"Well, I should be heading to my place. Make sure Demyx didn't leave food and toxic waste lying around, or worse, his clothes."

"Yeah that wasn't fun last time…" Hayner added. "With the underwear and… yeah, you know what I'm talking about!" Pence just gave him a grossed out look.

"Um, I think I'll just stay here." I decided that I wanted to see the last band seeing as I had only seen one of the five bands playing tonight.

"Like hell you are! You're going to help clean up at my apartment." With that Axel grabbed my wrist and left the building.

The music makes me sway

The Angel singing say

We alone with you

I am alone and they are to with you

We got to Axel's apartment and I was so ready to fall in to a soft bed and never wake up. I was starting to sway as we were going up the stairs. I was glad when we made it up the three flights of stairs. We walked in the smallest, most cluttered apartment I have ever seen. There was not a surface that was not covered in something. Books, movies, magazines, clothes and anything else you could think of was lying everywhere! How could this all get cleaned up in half an hour?

"Holy shit… Where do we start?" I stared at what could be called an apartment.

"Don't worry, I have this great system," Axel explained, "See over half this stuff is Demyx's, So, I just pick it up and move it in to his room."

"Oh, ok, so where is Demyx's room?" I asked.

"…Follow the junk." Axel said then led the way down the hallway. There was old pizza containers, beer bottles and clothes all cluttered next to the second door on the left just off the living room. That would be it. Axel opened the door and took out a huge shop broom and started pushing all the stuff on the floor in to Demyx's bed room.

"I'll do the floor if you get the coffee table and sofas." He pointed in the direction of the living room to the right.

"Ok, sounds good to me." I was sobering up now and was able to walk in a straight line.

After everyone got here, the drinks started pouring. The small space was cluttered with bodies rather than books and junk. I did a good job of staying away from booze for about an hour until I met Demyx and he challenged me to a drinking contest. I was only beer but I, of course, I went down first. The night was picking up and I was really starting to have fun. I was meeting new people and being social (ha! Take that Namine). I had seen Axel since we finished cleaning up. I wandered down to the kitchen that was right next to the door. I was making some people laugh with my Soulja Boy impression. I was stumbling backwards when the door opened and Axel stepped in just in time for me to lean against him. What can I say? He is just that comfy.

"Whoa, you ok?" he helped me stand up straight.

"Demyx …. me …. chugging contest…" I was having too much fun. I liked these guys.

"Yeah, that would do it." Axel sighed and put my arm around his shoulders.

"Where 'ou go?" I was confused when did Axel leave so that he could come back in at the exact moment I needed him?

"I think we should get you home. Ne?"

"NO! I can't go home! My mom… I was 'pose to stay at Sora's." I pouted.

"Okok, you'll crash here tonight." Axel sighed.

"Where?" I perked up at the thought of being in Axel's house for the night.

"Well, there is a couch but I think Saix has called it for the night." Axel readjusted me on his shoulders, "So, it's either bunk up with Demyx or me or sleep in the bathtub." Ok, the me drunk should never be allowed to make decisions like this.

"Your bed…" I was feeling brave but also tiered. And the fact that Demyx has been hitting on this guy Zexion all night and already practically raping him as we speak. I am not getting in that bed…

"Ok, let's get you in to bed." Axel just scooped me up and carried me bridal style. I was too drunk to care, just that I got to a bed that was half descent. Axel opened the door and walked in. I kept my head leaning on his neck. His room was a little messy but not like the blast zone outside the room. Axel set me down on the bed and started taking off my shoes then lifted me in to bed. His face was really close to mine, so in my drunken haze I whispered.

"Bet you wanna take advantage of me right now…" …ok, that's it! I'm going straight edge! No more alcohol for Roxas!

"Haha… I think you need to sleep." Axel seemed a little tense but continued to get me in to bed. I sobered up fast.

"What? You don't like me anymore?" Like an hour ago, this guy said he go out with me. Now he won't even take advantage of me? Axel looked me in the eye.

"You are really not your self tonight! I tried to get more than two words out of you since we met. Now you won't shut up and you're trying to jump my bones?" Axel was not impressed with the drunk me.

"Well if you don't like me then, why did you say you did?" He looked down then at me. I had to admit, Namine was right, I had a big crush on this guy… But it will never happen.

"I'm going to bed!" I was in tears and I did not know why. Maybe it was just the booze. I flipped over and covered my head in his comforter.

Turns out, when you are mad, you cannot sleep. I had been watching the digital alarm clock on the night stand. I was in his bed since 12:15 and it was 4 now. There was just too much I was thinking about, and being in the bed of the person you thinking about never helps. The buzzing in my head told me I was still intoxicated. I could hear people leaving and the volume outside died down. I could hear Demyx and Axel talking. Axel had gotten up, from what I could hear. I could tell that he was walking down the hallway. Then I heard a thunk as if someone had hit the wall with their head. Great, he was drunk. Fun-fun… He opened the door opened and light came flooding in. He struggled to get in the door. He closed the door, walked next to the bed and flopped next to me. Eventually he rolled over and took off his shoes. He did not leave it at that though. The shirt and the jeans came off too. He curled up under the covers. I felt a hand wrap around my waist then pull me closer. Axel proceeded to use my body as a teddy bear. He pressed his nose in to the back of my neck and moaned… Oh… My… Fucking… God… I'm in bed with a sexy lead singer who is now molesting me with his nose! Ok, so I haven't made out with some let alone get in bed with someone in months. Actually, for all the shit I get myself in to, I'm still a virgin. Spooning was just as awesome as far as I could tell. Axel kept nuzzling the back of my neck until he stopped. I was about to flip over to see if he was still breathing when he started leaving a trail of soft kisses from my neck to my ear.

"Now, you can take advantage of me…" Then Axel giggled and rolled me over and kissed me passionately. His lips tasted sweet and bitter from the alcohol. The alcohol tingled on the cut on my, lip mixing pleasure with pain. He bit my bottom lip hard and I gasped. Then he slipped his tongue past my lips. I never wanted it to end. His body pressed in to mine then he lifted my shirt off. The skin on skin feeling of our chests was driving me crazy. I was too shocked to even try to gain dominance in the kiss, instead I just playfully flicked his tongue with mine. He was starting to slow down. I broke the kiss and looked at him. Fuck, was he hammered. His eyes were drooping until his head slid down and his arms gave out over top of me. And that was the curtain call of the night, me stuck with Axel passed out on top of me, and the sounds of Zexion fucking Demyx senseless in the next room. I need to find a new source of entertainment…

What the fuck is on top of me? Why does my head hurt? Why is Demyx still screaming? Fuck, I need aspirin. Wait…. The giant is still on top of me. Wait, why is the giant on me? Where is my shirt? Where is Axel's shirt? Where are his pants? I jumped up and pushed Axel off me. He just rolled over and kept sleeping. I looked everywhere for my shirt. I could not find it. I was starting to get frustrated. I frantically looked the room over. Then I saw it. The only black in the red sheets, right under Axel who was face down, hugging his pillow. My shirt was underneath his hips. Do I grab it or wake him up? No, I don't want to find out what happened last night. What did happen? I was then, that I remembered the fight, unfortunately that is all I remember. How I got under him or why I was shirtless, was a complete mystery. I ripped my shirt from under Axel and ran. My sudden actions woke up Axel. He screamed as he was thrown from the bed.

"Roxas? Wha… WAIT!" He jumped up and chased after me. I whipped my shirt on. I got as far as the front hallway. Axel grabbed my shoulders and pressed my in to the wall. He looked me in the eyes. Another memory surfaced from last night… the kiss, and the almost moment if Axel had not passed out. I was so close but yet so far. "What happened?"

"If you can't remember, I'm not going to tell you!" With that I stormed out leaving a stunned Axel, Demyx and Zexion standing in the hallway. Saix was just plain pissed some disturbed his beauty sleep.

"Oh god… Did I molest the poor bastard?" Axel asked himself. Completely shocked, he turned to Demyx.

"I told you not to drink that much!" Demyx is the one to talk. He was the one standing with a sheet around his waist, not walking straight from the night's activities…

Next chapter will be here soon... ish.