Chapter 1.
How was I to know that he wanted forever? He never told me. He didn't even tell me he wanted a little bit. All he told me was that I needed to do what I want. Now he is happily married to Courtney and I am miserable and with Ric because I don't deserve any better. It has been beat into my head since I was a little girl that no man would ever love me for me. It was either because I wasn't pretty enough or smart enough. Don't get me wrong I care about Rick but he isn't the one I love. Instead he is the one I chose after the one I love rejected me. He tells me he loves me and I want to believe that but I just can't. How can I believe anything he ever says? All he wants to do is prove he is a better man than Sonny. He thinks he can do that by being with me. Well I have news for him. I am tired of coming in second best to Sonny Corinthos. I wasn't about to do it again.