Originally meant to be a one-shot but too long for my liking. Only pairing
in here is Shuichi x Yuki. It's a month after track 14 and a bit of 15.
I'm rewriting the ending to book 4 of Gravitation or what ever you wanna
call this.
Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation. But this is mine.
Tears flowed freely out of Shuichi`s eyes as he came across the place where he and Eiri first met. He remembered how things ended that day. Every fucking thought he had. The exact words. Every moment. Every single second. It was all so clear now.
` Flashback `
Yuki shut his eyes so hard it hurt as he exclaimed, " I'm had enough!" He threw his clenched fists down, loosening them.
Shuichi sat on the bed gripping a sheet as he kneeled. He was there to listen now. Yuki held his face and looked him straight in the eye with pain. It hurt him so much, but he had to say it. One hand was clenched loosely into a fist. He was bent over.
Shuichi even remembered his ex-lover's exact outfit that day. It was a pale blue button up dress shirt with both sleeves rolled up to his elbows, the right rolled up more than the left, shirttails left out. A pair of black slacks with the right pant leg stuck behind the tongue of the shoe and the shoes were a shiny black, shoelaces untied. His hair was all ruffled up covering his right eye a bit.
"I'm not going to tell you I hate you. And I won't try to throw you out anymore!" the author said straight out. There was pain in his eyes, but Shuichi just couldn't place what it was. He kept his hand on Shuichi's face waiting for a response.
"Yuki..." he was at a loss for word. Shindou-kun (I don`t know what else to call him cus I don`t wanna use the same name over and over) put up a small grin to cover up his confusion.
Eiri continued with that same sad look in his eyes, "Instead, I'll leave."
The Bad Luck singer's honest violet eyes were fully opened now. The grin went away. There was a tiny opening where he looked like he wanted to say something. Yuki pulled his hand away. His face was indicating that there was a secret he was holding back. He was afraid of something.
His messy golden hair covered one of his pained hazel eyes. The other eye contained a mixture of hurt, confusion, secret and fear. His hand was still open where he had held his lover's face. "I'll be the one to disappear from your life." Yuki said differently from everything else he said. This tone had something else in it, and it wasn't coldness.
Shuichi stayed on the bed, still on his knees. He was speechless. Why was Yuki doing this? Didn't he know that Shuichi would always love Eiri no matter what?
Yuki put his hands down to his side with a broken look. He dropped down to his knees. It was like he was going to break down or something.
They looked each other straight in the eye. The author broke the silence and explained, "I'll vanish."
Bad Luck's lead singer stared at him now. He continued anyway.
"I'll disappear from your life. That way..." he couldn't finish, couldn't bear to say it. The man's eyes were all glassy now with tears threatening to fall down his face. He put his hand over his mouth, finger spread apart. He looked down at his lab, afraid to look the boy in the eye. He'd cry if he did. Time stood still for those moments. Shuichi broke the silence. (A/N: If I weren't in gym right now, I'd be in tears.) (Emma's note during 8th period: I'm in science with tears streaming down my face.)
"I understand," he paused. Shuichi's messy hair covered his face. He reached his arm out, making an attempt to get a broken Yuki to look up. "Yuki... In other words..." He grabbed the color of Yuki's shirt. "You're abandoning me even after I dressed up like this?" Tears were streaming down his face. Eiri kept his eyes shut. He couldn't bear it.
"You thought I'd like that? You've got problems!" the author retorted. Shuichi screamed out in anguish. He was pulling his hair now.
"You said you couldn't stand it because I was a guy!! So I went and borrowed my sister's school uniform!! I even shaved my legs!!" Feeling quite strange, he lifted up his skirt (rather his sister's skirt) and shouted, "Look! I borrowed her panties!" On the inside he was thinking, I'm hanging out a little, of course.
"Don't show me! I trust you!" a very shocked Yuki exclaimed. Shuichi sat back down of the ground.
"Listen," he started. He looked into the singer's sad eyes, confused, sad eyes. His hand was on Shuichi's shoulder, calming the boy down. "When did I ever say that I didn't like you because you were a guy?" He shut his eyes and paused. "If that were the case, I would have dumped you a long time ago." Shindou-kun looked up at him frowning, his large violet orbs brining with tears. Yuki continued, "I would have never made you my lover."
Bad Luck's lead singer collapsed onto Eiri's shoulder. Then why?, he thought. Why won't you stay with me? He sat on the man's knee, with Yuki's hand slowly sliding up his skirt. Shuichi had one hand on his shoulder, the other around Yuki's waist. Both sets of lips met halfway for a tender, but loving kiss.
As they broke apart, Shuichi wrapped his arms around Eiri's neck in a tight embrace. Both pairs of eyes were shut. "Yuki..." he whispered into Yuki's ear. At the same time, a stream of thought ran through his mind. Why do you always look so sad? I want to know... ... But I'm afraid to ask... And they ended it like that. With one last kiss.
` Flashback ends `
Shuichi was now sitting on a park bench with his head on his knees, sitting in a ball with his arms around his calves. Tears were streaming down his face drench his pants with the salty water running down his cheeks, but he didn't have a care in the world. All he wanted was Yuki back. Even if Yuki was a murderer or so Tohma said. He was still single. (A/N: I made up that Tohma told Shuichi was a murderer. Tohma saw that Shuichi was miserable to he told him that out of nowhere, so at least the boy would know something about his ex-lover.)
The marriage with Ayaka was canceled when Ayaka found herself in love with Hiro. Shuichi didn't even have to fight for him anymore, but the question was, Did Yuki hate him? Love him? Still want him? And at that, he remember Yuki saying, "I'll be the one to disappear from your life." That pained look in those beautiful golden eyes. All because of the memory, Shuichi couldn't help himself but to burst into tears again.
Oh fuck it, he thought. Staying here crying all night isn't going to get me anywhere anyway. He wiped his eyes off and got off the bench. A crinkle of his paper caught his attention. The newest lyrics he had been working on. A way to get Yuki back.
Done. Chapter 1 is completed. Now, should I continue? Is this worth it? Or not? Review to let me know. =) Well, until next time! If there even is one... x]
Disclaimer: I don't own Gravitation. But this is mine.
Tears flowed freely out of Shuichi`s eyes as he came across the place where he and Eiri first met. He remembered how things ended that day. Every fucking thought he had. The exact words. Every moment. Every single second. It was all so clear now.
` Flashback `
Yuki shut his eyes so hard it hurt as he exclaimed, " I'm had enough!" He threw his clenched fists down, loosening them.
Shuichi sat on the bed gripping a sheet as he kneeled. He was there to listen now. Yuki held his face and looked him straight in the eye with pain. It hurt him so much, but he had to say it. One hand was clenched loosely into a fist. He was bent over.
Shuichi even remembered his ex-lover's exact outfit that day. It was a pale blue button up dress shirt with both sleeves rolled up to his elbows, the right rolled up more than the left, shirttails left out. A pair of black slacks with the right pant leg stuck behind the tongue of the shoe and the shoes were a shiny black, shoelaces untied. His hair was all ruffled up covering his right eye a bit.
"I'm not going to tell you I hate you. And I won't try to throw you out anymore!" the author said straight out. There was pain in his eyes, but Shuichi just couldn't place what it was. He kept his hand on Shuichi's face waiting for a response.
"Yuki..." he was at a loss for word. Shindou-kun (I don`t know what else to call him cus I don`t wanna use the same name over and over) put up a small grin to cover up his confusion.
Eiri continued with that same sad look in his eyes, "Instead, I'll leave."
The Bad Luck singer's honest violet eyes were fully opened now. The grin went away. There was a tiny opening where he looked like he wanted to say something. Yuki pulled his hand away. His face was indicating that there was a secret he was holding back. He was afraid of something.
His messy golden hair covered one of his pained hazel eyes. The other eye contained a mixture of hurt, confusion, secret and fear. His hand was still open where he had held his lover's face. "I'll be the one to disappear from your life." Yuki said differently from everything else he said. This tone had something else in it, and it wasn't coldness.
Shuichi stayed on the bed, still on his knees. He was speechless. Why was Yuki doing this? Didn't he know that Shuichi would always love Eiri no matter what?
Yuki put his hands down to his side with a broken look. He dropped down to his knees. It was like he was going to break down or something.
They looked each other straight in the eye. The author broke the silence and explained, "I'll vanish."
Bad Luck's lead singer stared at him now. He continued anyway.
"I'll disappear from your life. That way..." he couldn't finish, couldn't bear to say it. The man's eyes were all glassy now with tears threatening to fall down his face. He put his hand over his mouth, finger spread apart. He looked down at his lab, afraid to look the boy in the eye. He'd cry if he did. Time stood still for those moments. Shuichi broke the silence. (A/N: If I weren't in gym right now, I'd be in tears.) (Emma's note during 8th period: I'm in science with tears streaming down my face.)
"I understand," he paused. Shuichi's messy hair covered his face. He reached his arm out, making an attempt to get a broken Yuki to look up. "Yuki... In other words..." He grabbed the color of Yuki's shirt. "You're abandoning me even after I dressed up like this?" Tears were streaming down his face. Eiri kept his eyes shut. He couldn't bear it.
"You thought I'd like that? You've got problems!" the author retorted. Shuichi screamed out in anguish. He was pulling his hair now.
"You said you couldn't stand it because I was a guy!! So I went and borrowed my sister's school uniform!! I even shaved my legs!!" Feeling quite strange, he lifted up his skirt (rather his sister's skirt) and shouted, "Look! I borrowed her panties!" On the inside he was thinking, I'm hanging out a little, of course.
"Don't show me! I trust you!" a very shocked Yuki exclaimed. Shuichi sat back down of the ground.
"Listen," he started. He looked into the singer's sad eyes, confused, sad eyes. His hand was on Shuichi's shoulder, calming the boy down. "When did I ever say that I didn't like you because you were a guy?" He shut his eyes and paused. "If that were the case, I would have dumped you a long time ago." Shindou-kun looked up at him frowning, his large violet orbs brining with tears. Yuki continued, "I would have never made you my lover."
Bad Luck's lead singer collapsed onto Eiri's shoulder. Then why?, he thought. Why won't you stay with me? He sat on the man's knee, with Yuki's hand slowly sliding up his skirt. Shuichi had one hand on his shoulder, the other around Yuki's waist. Both sets of lips met halfway for a tender, but loving kiss.
As they broke apart, Shuichi wrapped his arms around Eiri's neck in a tight embrace. Both pairs of eyes were shut. "Yuki..." he whispered into Yuki's ear. At the same time, a stream of thought ran through his mind. Why do you always look so sad? I want to know... ... But I'm afraid to ask... And they ended it like that. With one last kiss.
` Flashback ends `
Shuichi was now sitting on a park bench with his head on his knees, sitting in a ball with his arms around his calves. Tears were streaming down his face drench his pants with the salty water running down his cheeks, but he didn't have a care in the world. All he wanted was Yuki back. Even if Yuki was a murderer or so Tohma said. He was still single. (A/N: I made up that Tohma told Shuichi was a murderer. Tohma saw that Shuichi was miserable to he told him that out of nowhere, so at least the boy would know something about his ex-lover.)
The marriage with Ayaka was canceled when Ayaka found herself in love with Hiro. Shuichi didn't even have to fight for him anymore, but the question was, Did Yuki hate him? Love him? Still want him? And at that, he remember Yuki saying, "I'll be the one to disappear from your life." That pained look in those beautiful golden eyes. All because of the memory, Shuichi couldn't help himself but to burst into tears again.
Oh fuck it, he thought. Staying here crying all night isn't going to get me anywhere anyway. He wiped his eyes off and got off the bench. A crinkle of his paper caught his attention. The newest lyrics he had been working on. A way to get Yuki back.
Done. Chapter 1 is completed. Now, should I continue? Is this worth it? Or not? Review to let me know. =) Well, until next time! If there even is one... x]