Gunning Down Romance
By: Shadow Cat17
And help (which I need) from Sword Lady
Cat: Hi!!!
Sword: What's up?
Manty Chan: I am! See! I'm flying!
Shadow: Have you been hanging out with Momiji again? *narrow eyes* And how much sugar have you had? And did you give any to Cat?
Manty Chan: *opens mouth*We-
Elwin:HELLO!!! HELLO!!!! HEL-
Kivan:*claps hands over her mouth* Yes. A lot. No. She gave it to the brat!
Trinton: Hi, Elwin!! You want to play with me and Manty-Chan?
Elwin: Sure!
Ihsan: *watches the three run off* Don't steal anything now. Hello Kivan, *walks up behind him and starts massaging his shoulders* ,you seem tense, lets go relax and allow them to start. *the two walk off* (snicker, snicker)
Sword: Do I want to know where they're going?
Elwin: *yelling from a distance* To the bedroom!!!!!! Now Kivan will be smiling again!!! YEAH!!!
Everyone:*sweat drop*
Shadow: Why am I stuck with you people? Why me?
Sess: *walks in* Shadow, Sword and Cat told me to watch your blood pressure so get over here. Oh, yeah, we also have to start with trying for a heir. *the two leave* (wink, wink)
Sword: HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! I told you so! Pay up Cat! *holds out hand* (nudge, nudge)
Cat: Damn! I lost! That was a good bag of candy! *hands over a big bag of sweets* I thought he'd object while people were around!
Sword: *puts arm on Cat's shoulder* You got to be able to judge men. They are habitual creatures by nature. And if you've dated one, you've dated them all. Save you're true love. They take their time in showing up.
Cat: You know its kinda quite here. Ummmmmmmmm..... oh I know!! *snaps fingers, Hatori and Haru appear* Good!! Now that our husbands are here we can start with the story!!! (Can you say foreshadowing?)
Sword: *Arms around Haru (her husband)* It's a Kyo/Yuki fic.
Hatori: My wife does not own Fruits Basket or else I would never have a quite moment in my life. *gets hit over the head with a frying pan* But I love her VERY MUCH so I wouldn't change a thing about her.
Haru: Suck up.
Hatori: What? I really do!
Cat: I don't own the song Gunning Down Romance that's by Savage Garden
*...* Song lyrics
*~*Story*~*
*Love and other moments are just chemical reactions in your brain
And feelings of aggression are the absence of the love drug in your veins
In your veins
Love come quickly
Because I feel my self-esteem is caving in
It's on the brink
Love come quickly
Because I don't think I can keep this monster in
It's in my skin*
Alone, like always, yeah I'm depressed, I know it. And yes before you ask I'm suicidal. Why do you think I keep getting into fights with the Cow, Rat, and Boar, I'm hoping that maybe one of them will hurt me enough that'll I'll die or can't feel this pain in my heart anymore. And yes I tried to kill myself before, I have the scars and the knife, its tucked away with my poems.
Yes, I write poems, the mutt isn't the only writer in the family, except that no one would pay any attention to what I write, except for maybe Kagura, but I don't want her attention, I want his. Alone, standing on the roof, peering through the fence, I'm watching him. I sigh as I sit cross-legged on the roof and look away from the scene of him surrounded by all of his admirers. I pull out an black leather journal and a pen, I always use pen because I can't take back the words I write, like I can't take back the words I say.
My Secret of Sin
I have a secret,
So I can't tell.
No one can know because its an evil secret with two nasty things.
The scars on my wrist are covered by the symbol of my monster.
Also the one I love I shouldn't love, the love is unholy and I have to die.
I have to die before the one I love can know, I truly do
Because the one you should hate you should never love,
My lover is the dark one, the caretaker of death,
He courts me every night,
With my bloody knife.
I lean back on the roof and stare at the sky and let myself cry.
*Love and other socially acceptable emotions are morphine
They're morphine
Cleverly concealing primal urges often felt but rarely seen
Rarely seen
Love I beg you
Lift me up into that privileged point of view
The world of two
Love don't leave me
Because I console myself that Hallmark cards are true
I really do*
The center of attention of babbling idiots, I would much rather be with an idiot that has some intelligence of me then them. They don't know the first thing about me, but you do. You probably know more than you let on, I see you, I notice you, so why don't you notice me? I feel a pair of eyes watching me and look up, there you are in all your feline glory, looking like the sensual cat you are, your not some monster, far from it, you're my support in this crazy thing we call life. But how can I tell you, I don't even know if you swing my way, I mean you are _engaged_ to Kagura, even if she did threaten you. Your eyes move to the side and seem to stare at the dull rooftop, why won't you look at me, what is so entering about the roof? I want to look longer, admiring you from a far like always, but the president of the student council needs my advice on something and those stupid, annoying, idiotic fan girls are chanting some stupid 'I love Yuki' slogan. Stupid.
*I'm gunning down romance
It never did a thing for me
But heartache and misery
Ain't nothing but a tragedy.*
My eyes follow you as you walk towards home finally managing to free yourself from your admirers. They believe you to be perfect but in fact you just give the appearance of perfection. I walk down to the court yard and slip out the front gate with out any fuss, after all I'm not with you so why should they notice me.
*Love don't leave me*
I walk down a street I know so well, I've been dragged here many times by members of the family who hate me, and their not even cursed! I don't think Akito knows about this because somehow I feel that he would never approve, because he has never hurt me physically like Yuki, just mentally and emotionally, he just doesn't want to get himself dirty or tainted by touching me. My eyes take on a frightened, child look, I know because I saw my reflection in a passing store window as I walk to a rundown bar filled with drunken bastards, that do nothing but drink and indulge in sexual pleasures from the male whores here. I seem to be the favorite because if I don't show up, they'll come to my house and hurt my family. And I can't let them do that! I have to protect them! They even threatened to call an Asylum on Akito and I can't allow that because its not his fault! So I have to do this, better me than them, after all I already am a monster.
They're gone, its all over, I can go home, but I don't want to move. They are so rough, there's so much blood, I think they ripped something, oh god how can I keep living like this, having eight drunken slobs take me every night, and it wouldn't be so bad if they just raped me, but they have to beat me up, and kiss me, and make me suck them off. I'll never be clean again, and I can never regain my virginity that I lost when I was six, or my first kiss that I was saving for my lovely, pure Rat. I just want to curl up in a ball and die. I feel my body changing into that of an orange cat, as I stay curled up in a tight ball weeping for the most precious treasures that I have lost.
I wake up naked, bruised, violated on a beer soaked bed smelling like sex. I can't go home, they'll ask questions, so I pull on my tattered clothes grab my bag and limp out of the room, heading for my two best friends house. They know what's going on but can't stop it because they can't, I won't allow them to get involved and hurt. I reach their small but quaint house and knock on the door. It's answered by a 25 year old purple haired female with vivid gold eyes. She takes one look at me and opens the door wide and beckons me in, standing next to her is a 20 year old light blue haired female with vivid silver eyes, they are both worried I can tell by their eyes but they don't say a word. They are lovers, and the purpled haired one is Ella, and she's a healer and an empathy, a member of the spirit foxes, the light blue haired one is Elspeth she is a tracker and a fighter, a member of the spirit wolves. They have human colors and configurations when they are out in the human world but at home they drop their guises. Ella moves and heals me while Elspeth gets a warm bath ready, they don't speak much, but I love them all the same, they are the mothers I've never had. I pull out my journal again and write another poem.
Broken Wings
So many things I hide,
So many emotions locked inside,
One is shown,
The rest is hidden,
I have walls,
But they are cracked and falling down,
Two pillars remain, a fox, a wolf.
Ripped apart have I been,
No longer do I want to see this face.
No longer do I want air to pass into my lungs.
No longer do I want the blood to flow through my veins.
No longer do I want to feel the warmth of the sun.
I'm cold, I'm broken, I've fallen,
Won't something help me up,
Why do I bloody my knife,
Why do I hide my scars,
Why do I still live?
Dark one come and claim me as your lover,
Take me far below the Earth,
Wrap me in your darkness,
Warm me by your fiery hearth.
Because no longer can I fly,
Because one can't fly on broken wings
And my wings have been broken so many times,
That I don't want to fly away any more.
I close my book and say bye to Ella and Elspeth and walk towards home. My eyes looking at the sidewalk, my will to live is eroding away. Maybe Akito is right, no one can love me. I'm the cat, I'm tainted, I can't be loved, especially by one so pure as you, my lovely Rat.
*Take these broken wings
I'm going to take these broken wings
And learn to fly
And learn to fly away
And learn to fly away*
I walk into an quiet house and sneak up to my room, its Friday we don't have school tomorrow so they won't miss me in the morning. I pull open a drawer and pull out a knife that is brown with dried blood and bring it across my arm. I watch as the blood oozes out and think that maybe when I'm locked up, like the monster that I am, that my darling Rat will know how I feel. But that is just a dream, and I better clean up before bed.
*I'm gunning down romance*
TBC.
Cat: This is just the first part, I plan to have at least two to four more chapters. Please review!!!!!!!!!!!!
By: Shadow Cat17
And help (which I need) from Sword Lady
Cat: Hi!!!
Sword: What's up?
Manty Chan: I am! See! I'm flying!
Shadow: Have you been hanging out with Momiji again? *narrow eyes* And how much sugar have you had? And did you give any to Cat?
Manty Chan: *opens mouth*We-
Elwin:HELLO!!! HELLO!!!! HEL-
Kivan:*claps hands over her mouth* Yes. A lot. No. She gave it to the brat!
Trinton: Hi, Elwin!! You want to play with me and Manty-Chan?
Elwin: Sure!
Ihsan: *watches the three run off* Don't steal anything now. Hello Kivan, *walks up behind him and starts massaging his shoulders* ,you seem tense, lets go relax and allow them to start. *the two walk off* (snicker, snicker)
Sword: Do I want to know where they're going?
Elwin: *yelling from a distance* To the bedroom!!!!!! Now Kivan will be smiling again!!! YEAH!!!
Everyone:*sweat drop*
Shadow: Why am I stuck with you people? Why me?
Sess: *walks in* Shadow, Sword and Cat told me to watch your blood pressure so get over here. Oh, yeah, we also have to start with trying for a heir. *the two leave* (wink, wink)
Sword: HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!! I told you so! Pay up Cat! *holds out hand* (nudge, nudge)
Cat: Damn! I lost! That was a good bag of candy! *hands over a big bag of sweets* I thought he'd object while people were around!
Sword: *puts arm on Cat's shoulder* You got to be able to judge men. They are habitual creatures by nature. And if you've dated one, you've dated them all. Save you're true love. They take their time in showing up.
Cat: You know its kinda quite here. Ummmmmmmmm..... oh I know!! *snaps fingers, Hatori and Haru appear* Good!! Now that our husbands are here we can start with the story!!! (Can you say foreshadowing?)
Sword: *Arms around Haru (her husband)* It's a Kyo/Yuki fic.
Hatori: My wife does not own Fruits Basket or else I would never have a quite moment in my life. *gets hit over the head with a frying pan* But I love her VERY MUCH so I wouldn't change a thing about her.
Haru: Suck up.
Hatori: What? I really do!
Cat: I don't own the song Gunning Down Romance that's by Savage Garden
*...* Song lyrics
*~*Story*~*
*Love and other moments are just chemical reactions in your brain
And feelings of aggression are the absence of the love drug in your veins
In your veins
Love come quickly
Because I feel my self-esteem is caving in
It's on the brink
Love come quickly
Because I don't think I can keep this monster in
It's in my skin*
Alone, like always, yeah I'm depressed, I know it. And yes before you ask I'm suicidal. Why do you think I keep getting into fights with the Cow, Rat, and Boar, I'm hoping that maybe one of them will hurt me enough that'll I'll die or can't feel this pain in my heart anymore. And yes I tried to kill myself before, I have the scars and the knife, its tucked away with my poems.
Yes, I write poems, the mutt isn't the only writer in the family, except that no one would pay any attention to what I write, except for maybe Kagura, but I don't want her attention, I want his. Alone, standing on the roof, peering through the fence, I'm watching him. I sigh as I sit cross-legged on the roof and look away from the scene of him surrounded by all of his admirers. I pull out an black leather journal and a pen, I always use pen because I can't take back the words I write, like I can't take back the words I say.
My Secret of Sin
I have a secret,
So I can't tell.
No one can know because its an evil secret with two nasty things.
The scars on my wrist are covered by the symbol of my monster.
Also the one I love I shouldn't love, the love is unholy and I have to die.
I have to die before the one I love can know, I truly do
Because the one you should hate you should never love,
My lover is the dark one, the caretaker of death,
He courts me every night,
With my bloody knife.
I lean back on the roof and stare at the sky and let myself cry.
*Love and other socially acceptable emotions are morphine
They're morphine
Cleverly concealing primal urges often felt but rarely seen
Rarely seen
Love I beg you
Lift me up into that privileged point of view
The world of two
Love don't leave me
Because I console myself that Hallmark cards are true
I really do*
The center of attention of babbling idiots, I would much rather be with an idiot that has some intelligence of me then them. They don't know the first thing about me, but you do. You probably know more than you let on, I see you, I notice you, so why don't you notice me? I feel a pair of eyes watching me and look up, there you are in all your feline glory, looking like the sensual cat you are, your not some monster, far from it, you're my support in this crazy thing we call life. But how can I tell you, I don't even know if you swing my way, I mean you are _engaged_ to Kagura, even if she did threaten you. Your eyes move to the side and seem to stare at the dull rooftop, why won't you look at me, what is so entering about the roof? I want to look longer, admiring you from a far like always, but the president of the student council needs my advice on something and those stupid, annoying, idiotic fan girls are chanting some stupid 'I love Yuki' slogan. Stupid.
*I'm gunning down romance
It never did a thing for me
But heartache and misery
Ain't nothing but a tragedy.*
My eyes follow you as you walk towards home finally managing to free yourself from your admirers. They believe you to be perfect but in fact you just give the appearance of perfection. I walk down to the court yard and slip out the front gate with out any fuss, after all I'm not with you so why should they notice me.
*Love don't leave me*
I walk down a street I know so well, I've been dragged here many times by members of the family who hate me, and their not even cursed! I don't think Akito knows about this because somehow I feel that he would never approve, because he has never hurt me physically like Yuki, just mentally and emotionally, he just doesn't want to get himself dirty or tainted by touching me. My eyes take on a frightened, child look, I know because I saw my reflection in a passing store window as I walk to a rundown bar filled with drunken bastards, that do nothing but drink and indulge in sexual pleasures from the male whores here. I seem to be the favorite because if I don't show up, they'll come to my house and hurt my family. And I can't let them do that! I have to protect them! They even threatened to call an Asylum on Akito and I can't allow that because its not his fault! So I have to do this, better me than them, after all I already am a monster.
They're gone, its all over, I can go home, but I don't want to move. They are so rough, there's so much blood, I think they ripped something, oh god how can I keep living like this, having eight drunken slobs take me every night, and it wouldn't be so bad if they just raped me, but they have to beat me up, and kiss me, and make me suck them off. I'll never be clean again, and I can never regain my virginity that I lost when I was six, or my first kiss that I was saving for my lovely, pure Rat. I just want to curl up in a ball and die. I feel my body changing into that of an orange cat, as I stay curled up in a tight ball weeping for the most precious treasures that I have lost.
I wake up naked, bruised, violated on a beer soaked bed smelling like sex. I can't go home, they'll ask questions, so I pull on my tattered clothes grab my bag and limp out of the room, heading for my two best friends house. They know what's going on but can't stop it because they can't, I won't allow them to get involved and hurt. I reach their small but quaint house and knock on the door. It's answered by a 25 year old purple haired female with vivid gold eyes. She takes one look at me and opens the door wide and beckons me in, standing next to her is a 20 year old light blue haired female with vivid silver eyes, they are both worried I can tell by their eyes but they don't say a word. They are lovers, and the purpled haired one is Ella, and she's a healer and an empathy, a member of the spirit foxes, the light blue haired one is Elspeth she is a tracker and a fighter, a member of the spirit wolves. They have human colors and configurations when they are out in the human world but at home they drop their guises. Ella moves and heals me while Elspeth gets a warm bath ready, they don't speak much, but I love them all the same, they are the mothers I've never had. I pull out my journal again and write another poem.
Broken Wings
So many things I hide,
So many emotions locked inside,
One is shown,
The rest is hidden,
I have walls,
But they are cracked and falling down,
Two pillars remain, a fox, a wolf.
Ripped apart have I been,
No longer do I want to see this face.
No longer do I want air to pass into my lungs.
No longer do I want the blood to flow through my veins.
No longer do I want to feel the warmth of the sun.
I'm cold, I'm broken, I've fallen,
Won't something help me up,
Why do I bloody my knife,
Why do I hide my scars,
Why do I still live?
Dark one come and claim me as your lover,
Take me far below the Earth,
Wrap me in your darkness,
Warm me by your fiery hearth.
Because no longer can I fly,
Because one can't fly on broken wings
And my wings have been broken so many times,
That I don't want to fly away any more.
I close my book and say bye to Ella and Elspeth and walk towards home. My eyes looking at the sidewalk, my will to live is eroding away. Maybe Akito is right, no one can love me. I'm the cat, I'm tainted, I can't be loved, especially by one so pure as you, my lovely Rat.
*Take these broken wings
I'm going to take these broken wings
And learn to fly
And learn to fly away
And learn to fly away*
I walk into an quiet house and sneak up to my room, its Friday we don't have school tomorrow so they won't miss me in the morning. I pull open a drawer and pull out a knife that is brown with dried blood and bring it across my arm. I watch as the blood oozes out and think that maybe when I'm locked up, like the monster that I am, that my darling Rat will know how I feel. But that is just a dream, and I better clean up before bed.
*I'm gunning down romance*
TBC.
Cat: This is just the first part, I plan to have at least two to four more chapters. Please review!!!!!!!!!!!!