Disclaimer: I don't own the G-boys and I never will * don't rub it in * T-T

Summary: Heero loves Duo and Duo loves Heero but what will happen when Heero thinks his shinigami is dead 1x2 3x4 (I know the summary stinks but give it a try anyway you may like it) r&r

(a/n This is my first yaoi fic so will you review please ill love you forever)P.S I'm a bad speller 'thought' "speech"

Ch.1 alone

Heero Yuy was alone and was destine to be alone forever or so it seemed. At one point in his life he wasn't alone and was happy, but that was all over now. Now that Duo Maxwell was gone and not coming back this time. This time he could not just apologize for like the other times when Duo would just pretend to get mad and stop off, go to the bar, get drunk, come back home and curl up next to Heero and fall asleep in his arms. But the last time was different the last time Duo did not come back.

It had been three months ago when it happened. Heero had heard the new from a sobbing Quatre. Some one from the preventers had found Dou's jeep burning in a ditch and Quatre and Trowa had identified it as his jeep. There was basically nothing left but some ashes that were thought to be Duo's and some traces of c4. It was said that it had been s rebel group that was angry because the war was over and wanted vengeance by killing the ex-gundam pilot. However, to Heero that's not what it was the only way he saw it was that some one took the only person that he cared about away from him and he wanted him back. And what made it seem worse was that he had yelled at Duo before he left and told him to leave.

*~flash back ~*

"For the tenth time Duo turn that music down now!"

"Aw but hee-chan I love this song"

"turn it down or leave I cant get my work done with that racket so loud"

"but hee-chan I like being in here with you. Plus if you think I'm being bad for not turning my music down maybe you should spank me."

"."

"Whacha say Heero do I need to be punished?"

"Leave!"

Pout, "fine I will!"

*~ End flash back~ *

'It was all my fault that he's gone, now there nothing left here for me, hmp who would have thought that me Heero Yuy would fell guilty for some thing' thought Heero as he sat in front of his lap top. Sure he had thought of ending it all but the last time he had tried that Duo had stopped him and made him swear never to try it again. Heero could at least respect one of his promises to Duo. "Heero were home" Heero looked up to see Quatre and Trowa coming in with bags of groceries. "you need help?" said Heero at seeing the blonde almost fall over with more groceries than he could hold but thankfully was caught by Trowa "no we got them rite Trowa." "but you could go get Wufei?" said Quatre smiling sweetly. Heero grumbled and let out an "hn" and walked of to go get Wufei.

Dinner went by mostly is silence. Heero cleaned his plate and headed up to what was once his and Duo's room. "do you think that he'll be ok? It's been three months but he still wont even mention Duo's name." Quatre said cleaning of the table "I'm not shore but it if it were me who had lost you I know I would never be the same it's been hard on us since Duo died, but its been the hardest on Heero. They had only been together for ten months and as soon as he opened up to someone .." "I know Trowa but its just not fair that rebel group had no reason to it, the wars over so the mindless killing should stop.!!" Quatre was on the verge of tears as Trowa pulled him in to his arms and kissed the shaking blond. "Shh I know its not fair."



A/N ok done with the first chapter I hope you liked it please review I'm almost done with the next chapter If I get enough reviews ill post it ^_^ P.S Duo is alive so thought I should tell you