Wow how did anyone put up with my bs grammar? Lol I am going through my fanfics and editing them. Hoping it will inspire me to continue and complete the sequel?

Ok you might want to play the song Waiting for You by Anson Hu. One of my favorite songs. It kind of fits the mood into this chapter let me know wat you think. thx for reading!

The battle against Aizen had come to an end, Orihime was saved and the group returned to their normal lives. Well, not everyone.

(Guitar melody playing)

Why did I let myself lose control?!

Ichigo was sitting in his room alone, playing with his guitar. Normally he wouldn't play with his instrument, its only purpose was for decor but for some odd reason, he felt the need to strum his guitar. He played a slow melody.

'If I had trained harder, I could have controlled myself!' He thought to himself.

His head shifts toward his closet, where his comrade, his partner, his friend and love use to hide away in secrecy from his family. She was the reason he could fight and protect again. She was the reason the weight on his shoulders were less heavy. She's the reason the rain had stopped falling and now the rain pores down on him once again and he can't help but think about her. He turns away with a look of shame, he's ashamed of himself for what he had done that day and he can only pray that she's still alive.

Flashback

It seemed as if the battles will never end. Some men were injured or dead and finally the battle against Aizen had begun; only Ichigo could fight this battle. Swords clashed against one another and blood splashed everywhere. Everyone watched in amazement and fear. Ichigo went from bankai to vizard form. He lunges in towards Aizen chest and ending the battle. Finally, it is over, the war has ended and maybe the 2 worlds will be at piece. Everyone cheered with joy until… "AHHH!" cried Ichigo. The mask would not vanish. Ichigo sways back and forth, trying to take off the mask but the mask won't seem to let go of his face "Kurosaki-kun?!"What's wrong with him?!" cried Orihime. No one knew what was going on except for Rukia. This situation was very familiar to her especially after fighting with her past moments ago; it became much more memorable than ever. She could feel her stomach twist and her throat choke. A familiar pain stabs her in her heart once again and she couldn't take it much longer."H-his hollow is taking over." She could hardly speak and she had a look of fear in her eyes.

'No! This can't be happening, not again, Ichigo!' She couldn't allow her past to repeat itself, so she ran towards Ichigo and held him tightly. Ichigo suddenly feels a warm, comforting spirit and stops his maniac swaying. "R-rukia?"The right side of his mask cracked revealing his humanity. 'Good, he still has some self-control.' She thought. "Ichigo, you idiot!" "Snap out of it!" She cried, trying to knock some sense into him. She searched his eyes hoping to reach Ichigo's soul. One side was fierce and frightening. The other half was soft and mellow with anxiety. Rukia smiled and then… Slash! Cold metal pierced through her.

"I-Ichigo," she tried to speak "Ichigo, fight it. I know that idiot is still in there!" she cried

"R-Rukia, I can't control myself!" Ichigo was fighting himself and was losing.

She starts to pore out tears of pain. "Idiot," She tried to encourage him like she always did. "When I tell you not to give up, don't!" Her hands held his face in hopes to calm his panic. Rukia started to lose a bit of her composure, she had to act fast. With little strength she had left, she pulled his mask off. Ichigo gasped as if he hasn't breathed in years and Rukia fell into Ichigo's arms.

Tear fell on to Rukia's now gray cheeks. She couldn't hang any longer.

"Rukia!" he cried

"Rukia, I'm sorry, this is my fault, Please, don't give up on me!"

Her lips made a curve, and she gave a weak chuckle.

"You idiot, don't blame yourself for stupid reasons like this." She reassured him.

"After all, I was the one that ran to you." "If I die than that would be my burden, not yours." She gripped his robe and made him stare into her blue eyes. "So damnit, strawberry, if you blame this on yourself I'll kill you for sure." All was quiet for a moment than Rukia spoke again, "Ichigo, a very good friend of mine told me that it's not good to die alone." "When you die, you always want to make sure you leave your heart to someone. Her eyes began to pore again, "so what I'm trying to say is…" "Ichigo, please live on and take good care of my heart." With that said and done, her hand fell to the ground, her eyes closed shut and her body became lifeless.

"RUKIA!"

(End of Flashback)

From time to time, Ichigo would look outside his window, searching, hoping that Rukia will show up. He is hoping to hear her yell at him, hit him or call him names. It really didn't matter to him what she would do, but to see and hear her would mean everything to him.

'Rukia, please come back.' He collapsed down to his knees and banged his fist into the ground. He cried, and he couldn't forgive himself for what he has done.