As he woke up head pounding and stomach in his throat, Duo sighed and rolled over, his side meeting with something warm. He looked over trying to get his drunken eyes to focus on it. Lying in the bed facing away from him was a raven-haired girl; her hair fell to her shoulders. And her back moved up and down with the slow movements of sleep.
Duo started to panic, wondering what had happened the night before, he remembered going drinking, but that was all. He worried If Wu-man finds out he'll think I'm strait and then I'll never ever have a chance with him…Duo bit his lip sharply to keep him lucid.
As he panicked the girl rolled over pulling Duo close and resting her head against his chest, still facing away from him. It took him a moment to realize that this was no girl. "Fei?" He asked himself, the boy in his arms stirred and opened his large chocolate colored eyes to him and gasped.
"D…Duo?" Wufei hung his head and pulled back starting to gather up his shirt "I'm sorry Duo; we must have… been drunk…" Wufei hadn't seamed to realize yet that they were in his room that detail of the night before escaping him as he remembered it all with crystal clarity. You've ruined it Chang, ruined all of it. He thought dazed trying to find his hair tie in the pillows at the head of the bed.
He was apologizing to the boy, but not angry. There was hope?
"It's all right Fei, I've always liked you, but I guess I must have screwed that up ne?" Duo hung his head and sung his legs out of the bed so they fell on the opposite side of the bed from Wufei, he grasped his head with one hand, it ached and he closed his eyes to the tears and to the light of the window.
"Really Duo?" All the movement in the room behind him stopped, and he resisted the urge to turn and see the expression on Wufei's face. Tears broke free from under his eyelids and started the slow journey down his cheeks to his chin. "Duo, I've always liked you, and well, I woke up at six this morning as I usually do," Duo glanced at the clock on the bedside table, it was 11:36 , "and when I saw that I was in your arms. And well I went back to sleep; to be so close was just too… perfect."
Wufei walked around the bed and took Duo's chin in his hands, he bringing his lips close he stopped just far enough to whisper, "Don't be mad love." And he kissed him, his lips claiming the other boys gently.
"I'm sorry." He whispered and kissed away the tears from his right eye, tongue sliding past his lips for a moment to taste the warm salty skin. "I'm sorry," he repeated, moving his lips to his other cheek to kiss away the tears from the other side. "I'm sorry." He whispered and hung his head letting himself rest on his knees on the floor before Duo.
Hastily standing and waking back to where he had left his shoes and shirt on the ground. He picked them up; praying to himself silently Gods please, let him stop me.
Duo was shell-shocked; one hand rose and touched his lips where Wufei had kissed him. "Wufei," His now not-so-secret-love had just reached the door and he turned to look at his love.
"Yes love?" he asked, afraid to raise his eyes from his feet.
"Please don't leave me alone again." Duo whispered, tears still running down his face. Wufie's chest felt tight, he remembered running from the base loosing Duo he had stopped torn between his secret love and the mission he got to a safe place and called for back up, the other were not as quick as he liked taking a day to get there, he had volunteered to go get Duo and had done so as quickly as possible; storming back into the base and killing anyone in his path until he found the battered Duo and took him out of the base before leveling it.
Wufei dropping his shirt and shoes went back to Duo. He had dropped down to the floor, and was curled up in a ball, sobs shaking his body.
"Do you remember the last mission? We were supposed to infiltrate OZ and get some info and get out?" Duo asked his voice thick with tears.
"And I left you there." Wufei let his head fall again and Duo tried to silence his sobs. Wufei reached out to him and took him in his hands. "Left you all alone…"
Wufei felt tears on his cheeks, it had been so hard not to go get Duo and take him to, he had realized how much he loved Duo only a week before that mission, it had been really hard not to tell him he loved him during the mission the countless times they almost died.
"I'm so sorry Duo…" Wufei picked Duo up and cradled him in his lap, Duo snuggled closed to him, leaning against his chest and snuggling his head under his the other boy's chin.
"They locked me up for interrogation Fei, they tortured me an… and" Duo trailed off and Wufei let out the breath that he had been holding. "They raped me…Fei" Wufei clutched the crying boy close.
He had come home after that rescue and looked sick, they all assumed he had been tortured, and they knew Quatre would go up to his room and talk to him later like he had done for all of the pilots when he could.
Duo hadn't answered Quatre, Duo had looked so broken so they let him stalk in and go to his room and shower, then sleep. Wufei had been the only one up when he woke up and showered again, and again and again…
Wufei had been there when he stalked downstairs to drown himself in a bottle of Quatre's expensive wine, and had joined him thinking misery loved company.
"Who do I kill?" Wufei asked the hurt boy in his arms.