Hey so this is my first fanfic, if this reminds you of 'I miss you' by iloveelifromdehgrassi, that's OK...the first chapter is somewhat like it, but I promise the others won't be, so special thanks to you iloveelifromdehgrassi for letting me do this one :)

Disclaimer: I do not own degrassi, if I did there would be way more eclare, emma n sean would be the ones who got married, holly j n declan would be together, and tprobablyrwouldn'tuldnt be as much drama.

* Flashback *

As I stood there, in my bedroom, looking at that little pink plus sign I knew I had to tell Eli, but how could I his life was finally going well, and that's when I realizes what I had to do...

-Later that day-

I was so scared, I knew that one day he would eventually leave me if he knew, It would just be to much for him, and I knew I couldn't let him do that...so I had to. Just then he walked into 'The Dot' with is perfect emerald eyes searching the crowd for me,then they met my gaze, I could have died right then.

"Hey blue-eyes" he said while walking towards me.

"Hey" I said in a weak voice, he immediately knew something was wrong.

"What's wrong" he asked sounding concerned.

"I...I.." I hesitated, thinking if this was the right thing to do or not. Of cores it was...Right?

"What?" he said with worry in his voice and eyes. It hurt so so bad to see him like that.

"I can't do this!" I blurted out

"What do you mean? Do what?"

"This, us" I said as my vision started to blur.

"What, I don't understand" he said in a small, sad voice.

"I have to go" I said and started running, with tears pouring down my face. I herd him get up out of his chair and he yelled

"Wait!...Clare!" But I kept running, when I got home I was out of breath, I told my mom how it all went and with that we moved. Not far, about an hour, but the only person besides our family to know where we were was Alli and I trusted her not to tell.

* End Flashback *

Now here I am over 5 years later and I am still thinking about Eli every day, not that its easy to forget him when our son Ryesse looks and acts exactly like him, his favorite color is black, he has dark brown hair and gorgeous emerald eyes, and he had that same little smirk just like his father. I had just dropped

Ryesse off at school, I was walking into my office and my secretary said that I had a story to look at and the writer would be in soon and that we were going to have a meeting. I said okay and entered my office. I sat down and saw the copy of the book on my desk and started to read, "Her eyes like two endless oceans, I got lost in them whenever I looked at them, they were one of the first things I noticed about her." I smiled while reading. Then I herd a knock on my door and Tracy walked in.

"Miss Edwards, he is here" she said

"Okay, let him in" I said while still looking at the reading in front of me, It took me a moment to look up, but when I did I was a man in all black, dark brown hair, emerald eyes, with a small smirk on his face looking at me. I was wide eyed with my mouth hanging open, we just looked at each other for a few minutes until he broke the silence

"Hey Clare" he said in a nervous but happy voice, and I just continued to stare at him, then my boss came in braking me away from my gaze. We all sat down and I still haven't said anything to Eli. My boss was talking to Eli for awhile and then turned to me.

"So, did you get a chance to read it?" he questioned. But I was still out of it until he tapped me. I snapped back and said

"What?" then he asked me again and I said

"Oh, I didn't get to read much"

"Well what did you think so far"

"Its ummm"

"Awkwardly constructed, filled with hyperbole, and generally sloppy." Eli said with a smirk, mocking me from my youth. I smiled and said

"No, I was going to say good, really really good"

My boss just looked at me then Eli a few times, shrugged and continued to talk. I had no clue what he was talking about because I couldn't think of anything but Eli. Before I knew it it was 3. I look at my watch and said

"Crap!" then my boss said

"What?" that was immediately followed with an "Oh...cant he just take the bus or something"

"No he's only..." then I looked at Eli who was completely confused. "He's only 5" I said in a quiet voice. I look over at Eli who was stilled confused and then I saw his eyes widen at the realization.

Thanks for reading! oh and the name Ryesse is just the way I spell Reese,,,idk y...i just do and yes he is in kinder-garden. So review or not. Hope you liked it.