Who I really am
Do you know who I am?
No you don't…
No one knows who I really am
I stay alone
To not get hurt
I don't talk
To not make bonds
I don't ask for help
To not rely on anyone
A wall was made long ago
Between me and the rest of this world
Throwing away my carefree self
I thought that being cold hearted was better then getting hurt
I turned my back to people I called friends
They barely showed that they cared
And called me hypocrite as I walked away
This is why they don't know me
This is why I choose to stay away
They couldn't see tears I held back
They couldn't see the pain in my eyes
They couldn't see the real feelings I held behind this emotionless mask
I pushed you away as well
Thinking you were just the same
I thought you would leave me as soon as you came
I told you I hated you
I told you to get away
But no matter how many times I repeated those words
You pretended like you didn't hear them
Five years it has been
Since I became like this
I finally couldn't hold back
I broke down in my empty room
I didn't see you coming in
Until you saw everything
I expected you to laugh
And tell me I deserved it
But those words that I expected never came
You offered me your hand
And called me your friend
Those simple words you said to me
Meant so much to me
The smiles you thought went unnoticed
Meant everything to me
No one really knows who I really am
But you were the only one who tried to figure it out
I still can't smile
I still can't say anything kind back
But slowly I'm taking steps to that wall…
…After all… every wall has to have a door…
You can guess who Kanda is talking about