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The Fear Within

"Hey how was your trip?" A cheerful voice asked as Lt. Col. John Sheppard and his team came through the stargate.

"It was productive." he said as he put an arm around the small shoulders of the woman that greeted him every time he went on a mission. He was the only one that she truly trusted here. She had came over with Caldwell's group, but he'd known her since she was a teenager. Jessica Landry. About 5'4 petite frame. Long wavy brown hair that stopped mid ways down her back. Bright green eyes that sparkled when she smiled a sincere smile.

"Col. Caldwell thinks that we're sleeping together." her blunt words surprised him and he stopped as they reached the infirmary and looked at her as she smiled up into his face sweetly.

"Did he say something to you?" he asked curiously as she pointed at an examine table for him to sit on.

"Remove your shirt please." she said getting to the matter at hand." Not to me directly, but I heard him talking to Col. Mitchell back home before we came back over here." her voice was soft as she checked him over throughly.

"Oh, did your dad say anything?" he questioned as he felt the coldness of the stethoscope on his skin.

"He didn't hear it, but I'm sure Col. Mitchell will say something about it." she moved away from him as she finished up." You' re good to go."

"Thanks. " he put his shirt back on." So, you thought anymore about what I asked you earlier?"

"Um, I haven't really had time to actually think about anything." she avoided answering him truth be told she was scared considering everything that happened to them all.

"Yeah, and now you can think about it tell me what you've decided." he persisted knowing she was a little scared still. She had been through a lot since coming to Atlantis. Her father even wanted her to go back to Earth, but she refused saying she wanted to face her fears. She hadn't been off world in almost three months. He wanted to help her through this.

"I don't know I have not been off world in what three monthsand to go on a mission with your team I'd have to worry about coming back every time we leave." she admitted honestly as her eyes met John's protective look.

"True, but I can use you out there on the field." he said trying to change her mind" You need to get your life back. Bad things are going to happen all the time. I'm sorry you had to go through all that stuff."

"Give me a little more time." she said softly starting to seriously considering what he was offering.

"I'll give you until tomorrow morning." he said as he kissed her forehead and left her to finish up working.

The last time she was off world with him and his team she almost died. She shook her head as she pushed the painful memories back down inside of mind where she couldn't get to them. John was right though she had to get over and regain control of her life. Besides she'd actually get to be close to Ronon Dex. Since the day he came here she'd been wanting to get close enough to him that they could talk. She wanted to know what kind of a life he had aside from being a runner. She felt drawn to him for some reason and now John was putting her chance right in front of her.

"Hey John, Col. Sheppard wait a sec." she called as she followed him down the corridor.

He was still a little ways a head of her so she ran. Dodging people as she made her way to him. Then suddenly she slammed right into Ronon Dex. He instinctively reached out to steady her.

"Are you okay?" he asked as he looked down at her face. He felt her flinch away from him and he let her go. He saw the fear in her eyes.

"Where the hell did you come from?" was her only response. Her heart was pounding in her chest so hard she could hardly breath. Get a hold of yourself he's not going to hurt you. She scolded her self as she regained control of her breathing.

Ronon looked at her then John came up to them.

"Ronon stop molesting my girl here." he teased as he looked at Jessica. Jessica smiled up at Ronon almost apologetically.

"Don't mind John here he tends to speak before he thinks." she said smoothly" I'm Dr. Jessica Landry."

"Specialist Ronon Dex." he took her outstretched hand as he introduced his self. He took in her appearance with a very approved look in his eyes. He still couldn't forget the brief flash of fear. Something bad happened to her once.

"It's nice to actually meet you." she said as she flashed him a smile not missing John's cough.

"Jessica here is going to be joining our team." John informed Ronon as Jessica looked up at John.

"Then I'm sure we'll see a lot more of each other." Ronon said as he walked off from the two of them.

"I can't believe you did that." Jessica smacked John's arms lightly

"What you did agree right?" he questioned as he flashed her his boyish smile

"Yes, I did." she confirmed " Just for future reference don't make my choices known without my consent. It's rude."

"Just don't flirt with Ronon he's not the right guy for you." John said as he looked at her

"I'm interested in him because he's different not because I want to jump his bones." she said " He's quite and that intrigues me." she paused as her eyes met John's" Besides trust me when I say the last thing I need is to get involved with a guy like him. I'll stick with guys like Dr. McKay..."

"McKay?" John questioned her strangely

"... and Dr. Zelenka you know the safe none scary guys." she finished as she tried not to smile.

"Zelenka he's okay, but not McKay." he said as he gave her a smile" I'd rather you be with Ronon."

"My point is I'm not going to be with anyone." She sighed and took a deep breath" I have a lot to work out."

"That's why I want you to get back out there." he said as he kissed her forehead and walked off.

" Careful flyboy I might start to think you care." she yelled to him at the hall.

John was the one person in this place that could really make her doing anything he wanted without giving her an order. She had a thing for him, but she would never say it out loud. Now Ronon Dex she wanted to get inside his head and know this guy. He intrigued her. She was in the infirmary when Dr. Beckett came in with Ronon. He didn't look at her, but she got a gimps of the cut across his upper shoulder. Her doctor instincts kicked in.

"Jessica I need you over here." Dr. Beckett said as Ronon sat on the gurney.

"I'm here." she said as she got what she needed to clean and patch him up." It's gonna hurt."

"I can take it." Ronon said. No wonder Sheppard was protective of her. She was beautiful, and had a great personality. Ronon thought as her hands gently smooth the bandage over his wound.

"There you go all better." she told him as she walked away from him.

"She's a little people shy." Carson said to him

He said nothing just looked at Jessica until she was out of his sight. He wanted to know what happened to her. To make her so cautious.