Well I guess it was bound to happen: if you hang out with vampires you either end up dead or like them.
But I never thought it would really happen. I never wanted to be a vampire.
I hate it. I hate it when I crave blood.
I'm lucky though. Stefan is always around hovering and being far too good. It's a relief. Damon has been avoiding me. I guess he knows that I know.
It's sad because knowing him before Stefan doesn't change a single thing.
It will always be Stefan.
I'm getting adjusted to the vampire routine but there are strange things happening in my mind. I don't share them with anyone. But deep down I know I should talk to someone about them. I've never heard Caroline or any other vampire talking about a voice in their head.
Well maybe you shouldn't. You wouldn't want to end up in the nut house.
There.
I just stand still and stare at my reflection in the mirror. But the whisper fades away and I'm left with the same face I shall encounter till the end of my damned life.
Forever young…
Don't we all die for that?
I never wanted that. I wanted to have babies, to grow old… To live.
I can hear the brothers arguing downstairs and I quickly wipe my silly tears away.
Maybe you should turn it all off.
Shut up.
What a bliss it would be to get rid of this stupid humanity.
Shut up.
Just a switch away...
I'd rather listen to Stefan and Damon. It's funny how often they forget I can hear them.
-… Really Damon? She's gone, let's just be happy about that.
- See, that's why you always end up in shitty situations.
Little Petrova, eavesdropping is bad.
Aren't you supposed to be the good one?
- Damon, we have enough in our plate with Elena and the Mystic Fall vampire hunt. You know Katherine. She's never really gone and always pops up when we least want to see her. If she's really dead then let's celebrate that by not talking about her.
That was unkind Stefan.
I cannot believe it…
Not only I'm cursed to be a vampire but I'm also possessed or whatever by… Katherine of all people.
Finally! I was beginning to think you were slow witted or plain stupid.
Welcome to my world: We are going to have such fun.
You're dead so stay dead.
- Elena! You up there?
Uho. Stefan was the last person I needed around with my case of growing Petrova schizophrenia.
Mhh… Can't wait to kiss him again. What about Matt? Are you still sweet on him?
And there he was my knight in shining armor. He had that delicious smile that made me all…
Oh just shut up Katherine. Shut up.
Stefan is staring at me. I checked my reflection in the mirror I do look pale and … possessed?
Poor little Elena looking a ghost of herself. Oh wait. You're dead, aren't you?
- Elena are you alright?
- Just a little headache, it must be some leftover from the transition. I think I should see Bonnie.
Liar, liar, pants on fire.
Well of course, Stefan wouldn't ever let me go without a quick kiss. I tried to forget the hum inside my mind. But Katherine is the best when it comes to messing with your head.
You got that right bitch.
I'm rather glad to be back. Being in your head does have its perks.
Yummy.
But you've got to do something to this awful wardrobe.
I'm not listening.
Really, between us Petrovas, let me tell you that Stefan did kiss better as a human. I do wonder what he thinks about you: maybe now that you're a vampire, he feels like he's kissing me.
Fun.
I just walk straight to my car and let the music blast around me.
One cannot escape one's mind.
Bonnie will have to help me. She can forget about her issues.
I've got worst: I've got the lady of hell in direct communication in my head.
Awww! That was sweet to call me a lady.
This plot bunny was jumping around in my head (just like Kitty Kath in Elena's head) but I'm not sure it deserves a full fledge story. Let me know if you want more.