Alright... so This is my first attempt at Blue Exorcist fic. By seeing the anime and checking out some Japanese eps, I found myself obsessed with the character of Nemu(Takara). He's just beautifully dark and misunderstood sometimes.

Just a little something for my favorite character so sad how they don't show him often and

I think I'll just call this a sad oneshot maybe more in the future sorry if it's bad I'm not used to writing. just let me know what you think I

was feeling pretty down so I decided to write this story well enough of my rambling enjoy the story thing. Cut me slack wolfies first story.

The following isn't part of the story but it kinda set the mood for me

"I love you, and because I love you, I would sooner have you hate me for telling you the truth than adore me for telling you lies."-

Pietro Aretino

Love.

My heart, it burns. My mind, it burns. Here to love, there to love.

I've said it-I've said, "I love you"- and I've lied. I do not love. I can't.

Not now.

Though I have come close to that glorious emotion.

But not now.

I want to, but they stand in the way. Three things are in the way.

Obsession- So dark, so consuming, and fear it brings forth. Doubt- Why me? It is a lie. Open your eyes, mind! Open your eyes, and guard your heart. Guard your heart again, again. Hate- So close to love. What separates the two? What is the difference, tell me! I hate because I fear, I fear because I doubt. I hate to fear because my own inadequacy as an emotional creature.

I feel- I feel so much- but I can't show it. I know that I can never show it.

I fear because I long for love and acceptance and I am afraid of the possibility of losing something I won't ever have. And in inaction I have to live all my fears and miss the chance of getting the very thing that motivates me to act the way I do.

Damn life!

Damn love!

Forever the pain. Forever the hope of something better than this. Forever the dreams, the confusion, and the nightmares with bottled emotion. This Forever Eternity.

Damn it all...

Did ya like it let me know what you think.I'm new so no flames I think *sigh* wolfie out.