Wow so it's been possibly years since I've posted on here but I found a incomplete story on my laptop recently and I just started writing it again. The beginning is a bit sketchy and has the usual cliches of overally descriptive examples of what characters are wearing which annoys me a bit now. But I have started writing it again so in about 5 chapters time I am hoping that the writing will improve a bit. But give this story a chance as I really like the idea of Sirius screwing up and fighting to fix it, but the overall story is actually from the girls POV. As always reviews would be appreciated and I am particularly stuck for storylines at the moment so any ideas would be great (and obviously credit will be given if I use them.)

I hope you enjoy. Many thanks xx

Chapter One : Heart Break

Flashback:

She sat alone, huddled in the centre of the quidditch pitch, she was crouched so small someone could easily miss the shape of a small woman sobbing uncontrollably. But he saw her; he spotted her in the middle of the large stadium. His body shook from the cold of the rain hitting his body. She must be freezing, he thought. He watched as her shoulders shook, from a terrible mix of cold and he knew from something else as well. Her clothes were soaking wet, her hair covered her face as she had her knees tucked up to her body in the foetal position. She sat, wanting to disappear, wanting her life to be over.

He took a step, shaking now from his own sadness, fear, grief. He didn't know why he felt grief, who he had lost, why he had lost them, was entirely his own fault. He knew he had to somehow talk to her though, so he moved a bit further until he was at a distance at which he could call to her.

"Ally," he called out, his voice shaking. Her bodily shaking stopped as she froze completely as if her shaking may make her invisible.

"Ally please come inside, you'll freeze to death out here," he called again. She looked up slightly to the direction at which he stood.

"Ally... please. I'm sorry. Please just come inside." He said desperately. She let out a chest shuddering sob, and then shakily stood up. Her clothes were covered in wet mud, she looked a mess, yet, she still looked beautiful to him which made his heart ache uncontrollably.

"You..." She said looking at him. She could barely get any words out.

"Ally please, forgive me. I was so stupid. It meant nothing. I don't know... I wasn't thinking! Please... "He released his first sob, "Please forgive me. I... I love you Ally. I love you so much. Please don't leave me." His words had the adverse effect on her than both he and she thought. Instead of crying uncontrollably, or running to his side and forgiving him she instead stood up a bit straighter. She pushed her hair off her face. She took a step forward.

"I don't need to hear this Sirius. I don't need it!" Ally cried loudly above the sound of the now crashing down rain. She put her face in her hands then looked straight at him.

"What you did... what I saw... I will never forgive you. Never come near me, never talk to me, don't ever look at me. I don't need you. I don't love you. How dare you say you love me! If you loved me you wouldn't treat me like this. Like... it didn't matter if you went and slept with that SLUT! I just... I am disappointed more than anything. I am so disappointed in myself for believing you could change and you Sirius because I thought we were beyond this." Then Ally began walking, she walked straight off the pitch and into the castle leaving Sirius Black, notorious marauder, players and bad boy, crying over his self inflicted broken heart.

Normal Time:

Five years on Lily Evans dressed in a smart suit which she generally wore for job interviews to look impressive; she buttoned the black pencil skirt, put on her favourite lined tights, buttoned her black silk shirt and put on her matching black suit jacket then slipped on her killer, not so comfortable but great looking black leather stilettos. She was ready, a quick lashing of mascara, a squirt of perfume and she was dressed to impress. What self respecting home owner wouldn't want a sensible, tidy, well dressed person such as her living with them? At least that's what she was hoping. She had taken a day off her job as a healer to devote her time into finding a new apartment. Her old one, a lovely little two bedroom in a really nice area of London was now occupied by her newly engaged friend Alice and her fiancée Frank. Although she was happy for her friend she more than a little annoyed that she had to find new living quarters. But she figured it was good to experience new things and finding a new apartment was one of hers this week.

She had four apartments lined up. She had specifically looked for apartment owners that wanted a roommate, she couldn't handle renting all by herself, and she also did her looking through a wizard real estate agent so not to end up with a muggle being very surprised at how she levitated her dishes into the sink in the morning.

Her first one was a three bedroom apartment overlooking the canal, walking up the staircase it seemed nice enough with a clean corridor and with an alright area. Though she could hear shouting from an apartment, it sounded like a man shouting at his wife, she looked at her scrap of paper and read the number, "apartment 4B" there it was, sadly next door to shouting man. She knocked politely on the door and waited for an answer, she had an appointment so knew someone would be there.

The door opened and a young woman in an overly large tshirt and jogging bottoms and a cigarette perched in her mouth answered the door with a swing. The woman looked her up and down and gave her a squinty smile.

"Hello I'm Lily Evans," Lily said smiling and holding out her hand to shake the woman's slightly gnarled and dirty hand. The woman just grunted and ushered her inside. Lily walked in taking in her surroundings. There was a pile of dirty laundry on the sofa which the woman quickly shoved to the floor and offered Lily a seat. Lily sat down wincing inside at all the germs that were probably infested in the apartment.

"So do you want to see my résumé?" Lily asked handing her a neat sheet of paper. "I have a reference from my last roommate and from my boss." The woman just glanced at the résumé briefly then threw it on the counter of the kitchen which was part of the living room. The apartment was smaller than Lily had imagined. The woman got her wand out which she had had wedged in the pocket of her jogging bottoms and waved it over to a kitchen cupboard and hovered over some crisps. With a mouth full of food she waved her hand over to doors around the room.

"That's my bedroom," She said motioning to the first door, "That's second one which I use for keeping junk in, and that third one, pointing the a smaller door with paint peeling off it. "That'd be your room." Lily walked forward and opened the door, which took a bit of a pull as it stuck a little, and looked inside; it was no more than a closet in reality, not even a window. Lily came back out and the woman was sitting on the sofa scratching herself and eating crisps.

"Thanks I think I have seen enough," The Lily walked quickly to the door just as the woman let out a loud belch and said,

"Suit yourself," then Lily walked out of the apartment quickly. She sighed once outside the building and hoped the next three apartments were going to be better.

She was wrong, the next was a gorgeous apartment overlooking a pretty garden, however, the roommate was an elderly woman with five cats, the minute Lily walked in the woman installed the strict rules of how Lily would have a curfew of nine o'clock on week days and ten o'clock on weekends if she lived there and how Lily would have to do all the cleaning and how the cats are allowed in Lily's room as the lady felt it was too 'mean' to shut them out even though Lily insisted that she was allergic to cats. After sneezing and coughing for the hundredth time Lily escaped the apartment with watering eyes covered in cat hair on her nice suit. The apartment after was not much better as it turned out to be a mistake and was a man instead of a woman which Lily had requested of the estate agent. The man was middle age and in leather pants and kept referring to Lily as "Lil's" and touching her shoulder whilst showing her the apartment. He kept saying things like "I am a single guy Lily, so you will have to learn my 'sock on the door' policy if you know what i mean" which made Lily want to actually physically vomit.

After that apartment she felt harassed, annoyed and still slightly puffy from all the cats. She sighed as she walked down the street to the last apartment praying to Merlin that this would be alright. She read the apartment buildings signs until she reached "Crescent Oak Apartments" a door man opened the door for her and then buzzed up to ask the apartment owner if they were expecting Lily. A pleasant voice came on and said send her up. Lily then went over to the lift, which Lily sighed in relief at as her feet were killing after all the walking she had been doing. She pressed floor three, as the apartment number was 301. The lift stopped with a ping and the doors opened onto a lovely light corridor. There were two doors in the corridor which meant no next door neighbours as the only neighbour would be across from you. The door to 301 was open so she poked her head round and called out.

"Hello?" Lily called loudly. She didn't want to intrude.

"Hi, come in!" A voice from inside said. Lily walked in shutting the door behind her. A woman came out in jeans and a t-shirt around Lily's age. She had long brown hair and a pretty face.

"Hi, I am Ally nice to meet you." She said extending her hand to shake Lily's. Lily shook it and smiled.

"I'm Lily," she replied smiling. She inwardly sighed, Ally seemed nice, normal and she had an amazing apartment from what Lily could see. Ally ushered Lily into the kitchen, which had a sort of opening/breakfast bar that looked out onto the living room area. The kitchen was fairly large and Ally offered Lily a glass of wine as they chatted. They got to know each other a bit better, they realise they were only a year apart in school, Ally being a year younger and had been in Ravenclaw. They chatted of school, though Ally seemed less eager to speak of her time there. They then discussed work, Ally was a writer of wizarding fiction novels and Lily told Ally of her work at St. Mungoes as a heeler.

Once they had talked for a while Ally moved onto the tour.

"There are only two bedrooms but both are pretty much the same size and both have awesome views. This is my room," Ally said opening a door into a spacious room with a large double bed and a dresser and wardrobe and also a window seat that looked out onto a large park behind the apartment building. Lily sighed and thought how beautiful it was.

"Your room, if you choose to take it obviously, if pretty much the same." Ally said opening a door slightly further down the corridor of the apartment. The room was practically the same as Ally's and equally nice.

"Where do those two doors lead?" Lily asked.

"Well ones the closet," Ally said opening it and showing Lily the spacious closet. "And this one if the ensuite." Lily gasped, the bathroom was great with a large bathrom/shower and sink and toilet. "mine has one too, its great it means that we don't have to share." Ally said smiling nicely. They walked back into the living room with had a large comfy looking sofa in it and a big tv which Lily was happy to see because she knew going for wizarding apartments might mean not having a tv.

"So how come you don't have a roommate?" Lily asked. "This place is awesome."

"Thanks. Well I did have a roommate, but she was an auror and got tranferred to France to work for their ministry. So she decided to sell me her half of the flat and I need a roommate to pay the bills." Ally said plainly. Lily nodded.

"So do you want to see my résumé?" Lily asked holding out another copy.

"Sure, but here's a secret Lily you're the best one so far. I have had so many weirdo's come and try to rent the room. You're the first normal person!" Lily grinned and they went on to talk for ages about their experiences. Ally laughed when she heard about the cat lady and then went on to tell Lily of the woman who wanted to move in who seemed to believe in aliens and asked Ally what her opinions would be if an alien came and shared the apartment with them. Obviously Ally didn't think much of it as all she could do was laugh at the memory.

At the end of the afternoon Ally shook Lily's hand again and they agreed on rents terms and conditions and it seemed Lily had a flat. Lily said she would move in within the next few days and Ally promised that the room would be ready by then.

Lily left the flat sighing in relief that she wasn't almost homeless as she had been that morning.