Losing it.

Disclaimer: I own nothing. These wonderful characters and all that goes with them belong to the wonderful Stephenie Meyer.

Quick Author's Note: This is my first FanFiction. Please Read and Critique. And if you like it let me know! If you don't... let me know! If you think you might want to beta for me... pllleeeeaaassee let me know. Oh yea… this prologue is really tedious but I urge you to wait for the actual first chapter before you make up your mind about it. I just needed to get some of the background info out of the way before I start the actual story. Okay... that's all for now folks.

Prologue:

Forks, Washington…

Forks is the quintessential small town. There are no stoplights, exactly three stores, one of which sells nothing but camping gear, one gas station with four pumps, and home of Forks High, which holds approximately 350 students at any given time. It's one of those towns where everyone knows everyone and nothing is EVER as private as some things probably should be. For example, once Lauren Mallory had a 'pregnancy' scare and all of Forks High was in the know before she could get any urine on the stick in the girl's bathroom... and well… Eric Yorkie had never been more scared in his entire life.

I suppose there is a certain sense of security in a town as small as Forks. It is a lot like the TV sitcom Cheers, "the place where everyone knows your name." But not only do they know your name, they know everything about you from the day you were born to the day you leave and/or die. It all becomes a bit much. Forks has become this blanket that is being pulled over my head, slowly suffocating the life out of me.

The only redeeming qualities Forks really has are my friends, my dad and my brother, and my best friend… Edward Anthony Masen-Cullen. We've been friends since the day his father died and he became Carlisle and Esme Cullen's ward. Edward's mother was Carlisle's sister, Elizabeth. She married young and moved to Chicago to live with the love of her life, Edward Masen. She died in childbirth and her husband shortly followed her when he got in the crossfire during a convenience store robbery. Some call it fate, other say it was just a matter of being in the wrong place at the wrong time. And I, well I am just wonderfully blessed that I got the chance to have Edward in my life.

Edward was three months old when Carlisle and his very pregnant wife Esme adopted him into their blossoming family. He and his sister Alice make my life interesting to say the very least. Then there are the Hale twins, Jasper and Rosalie. Alice and Jasper are madly in love and Rosalie... well; she and my step-brother Emmett certainly have a thing for one another and have been happily dating since middle school.

Emmett McCarty-Swan is the by-product of my father's late second wife's first marriage. Emmett's father passed away when he was three in a fatal car accident. My father, Charlie, chief of Police in Forks was a first responder in said accident, and that is how he met Jillian McCarty. Charlie was smitten, and constantly checked up on Jill and Emmett for a year following Richard McCarty's death. Romance followed friendship and resulted in marriage. Jill was an awesome step-mom and Emmett is the best big brother a kid could ask for.

Unfortunately Jill passed away some years ago. She had a weak heart and eventually… it just gave out. It was a hard year for all of us in the Swan household. I was 13 and Emmett had just turned 15. So that leaves me, Em, and Charlie. We make up the Swan household. My mother remarried recently to a semi-professional baseball player named Phil Dwyer. They live in Arizona. She really hated Forks and could never really stomach the rain. She took me to Arizona but it soon became clear that I simply could not live without Edward, or at least that's what we like to think. So I came back to Forks and I've been here ever since. However, I do visit Renee and Phil twice a year… well I should say Edward and I visit Renee and Phil twice a year. We were inseparable as children and I guess it just sort of stuck.

It stuck through elementary school, middle school, high-school, and even college. Being the tight circle of friends and family that we are, we all attended Washington State University. Rosalie, Emmett and Jasper were all a year ahead of Alice, Edward and myself, and graduated last May. College was a definite reprieve from Forks, but we were all headed back to that same god-forsaken town. Edward was headed back to Forks to do clinicals in Forks General Hospital for the summer. Alice was headed back to be with Jasper, naturally, and to wreck havoc on the mall in Olympia. And I was headed back to spend one last carefree summer in Forks before heading off to New York to attend Graduate school at NYU. Whether or not I would make through the summer, I do not know.

This is my last summer of security so to speak and I want to be prepared for the world that is out there. I have a mission this summer that my brother knows nothing about. I intend to become more 'worldly' so to speak. I want—no I need to lose my virginity. Not for the sake of losing itself, although it is tempting. I have grander reasoning behind shedding my innocence. I want to get rid of it on my own terms and I fear that in a city as big as New York I might get played. That and I don't want to be weak and inexperienced when it comes to sex.

I live in the real world and I realize that by the ripe age of 22 I should not still be a virgin. I'm not horrendous looking and I'm certain that I've had many offers. However, this is where Em comes into play. Between him, Edward, and Jasper I never stood a chance really. So here I am, practically an old maid because of my overbearing, overprotective, sometimes insufferable, but always loving brother. Well this is one problem I intend to fix as soon as humanly possible. The only problem that remains is finding a suitable candidate to help me obtain my objective for the summer.

Forks watch out! Bella Swan is on the hunt… this poor town may never be the same again…