Sesshomaru's Flower.
A/N: I've released this story before and it did well, but many years later I've re-vamped it and so I'm excited to re-release it. This can be portrayed easier if you have seen "InuYasha Final Act". Sesshomaru's character is a little more active, and his emotions for Rin seem a little more pronounced. We start this off when she's about 11-ish, and will slowly progress through the remainder of her life. So if there's something in here that seems weird to you, you might want to watch the Final Act! Just a heads up, there will be lots of lemon in future chapters! Enjoy!
Disclaimer: The characters and original InuYasha story belong to Rumiko Takahashi.
"InuYasha! It doesn't matter what you think right now, the folks in the next village need me!" Kagome scolded to InuYasha, "I have to send a couple of people to the next world in peace, and they don't need you there terrorizing everyone."
"FINE. LEAVE. WHO NEEDS YOU." InuYasha yelled back, jealous and sad that she would be leaving for a few days.
Sango piped up, her twins following behind her, "If that's the case, I'll go with Kagome, there's a beautiful field out in that village that the girls would adore."
"Ah…splendid idea." Miroku proposed. "I'll hold onto the young boy I presume?" he suggested, holding onto their third child on his back, just a baby.
"Miroku! You're not helping." InuYasha said through his teeth. He stood with his back facing them, and crossed his arm…his pathetic pouting look.
"Bye Bye Kagome! BYE SANGO!" Shippou yelled at them, as they disappeared out of site.
Miroku smiled to himself, "Well InuYasha. What do you propose we do while they're gone? Personally…I wouldn't mind taking a nice hot spring bath."
"Feh. Do what you want." InuYasha said again, turning around to them.
"C'mon InuYasha. Lighten up! It's not like we were doing anything anyway." Shippou told him.
"Listen…If I hear a peep from you about Kagome gone…you'll wish you never met me." InuYasha held his fist up.
"And Sango?" Shippou dared to say.
"Yea...her too." InuYasha stood blankly.
"Shall we get going then?" Miroku asked casually.
"Fine…" InuYasha pouted and followed.
"Lord Sesshomaru…I'm hungry." Rin said quietly as she rubbed her tummy looking down, "May I go off to find food?"
Jaken gave her a distinguished look. "Why on earth should my Lord bother stopping-" Jaken, as per usual, bumped into the back of Sesshomaru's leg.
Sesshomaru turned his head ever so slightly, enough so he wouldn't show effort. "We will stop up ahead. You can get your food then." He turned his head back around, and continued walking.
"Thanks lord Sesshomaru!" Rin smiled happily, and continued. She was riding Ah-Un, sitting back and thinking happy thoughts. Jaken made his predictable 'humph' sound, and gave her a dirty look that she didn't notice.
A few moments later, they arrived at the river, and Rin hopped off of Ah-Un, ran into the river, rolling her kimono up, so she didn't get it wet. Jaken, however, followed Sesshomaru. Sesshomaru sat down under a shady tree close to Rin. Jaken stood next to him, piping up, "Lord Sesshomaru, where are we heading to now? You know…that InuYasha has been a pestering one lately. Some villager's say he has recently passed by which means we are probably not too far off from his clan." He paused, and there was a long delay. Sesshomaru didn't answer, so he followed up, "Lord Sesshomaru? What's on your mind?"
Sesshomaru continued to ignore him, but decided to indulge Jaken's usual curiosity. "InuYasha has his own business and we have our own." Sesshomaru said bluntly. "Go to Rin."
Jaken looked up at him. "O.h.h…okay." he stuttered, placed down the staff of two heads, then ran to Rin, who was splashing herself happily, in attempt to get the fish.
Sesshomaru caught himself staring off at her in the distance, looking carefully at her childish and yet happy face in a sense of admiration and protection. He had noticed that recently he had become tender towards Rin, going out of his way to make sure she was happy and safe. I do not understand this feeling I have for her. She is only a companion, and a child, no less. It would be inappropriate to have any other feeling for her. I am not the man my father was… falling for human women.He thought and glanced off to the side with a brief expression of preposterousness.
"Lord Se~ssho~ma~ru!" Rin sang, while running to Sesshomaru, soaking wet, and holding 2 fish in her hands. Sesshomaru looked blank back at her. "Would you like some?" She smiled, and held out one. Jaken was directly behind her, keeping his distance.
"No thank you." He turned away bashfully, as if he were a prepubescent boy. He instantly became disgusted with himself.
"Okay!" She exclaimed, ignoring his shyness, and then sat down next to him. "Master Jaken? Can you cook this for me?"
"WHY SHOULD I?!" Jaken yelled at her.
Rin stopped, and looked very sad for a moment of disappointment. "Please Master Jaken? I'm really hungry."
"You should have thought of that before you caught them." Jaken stared, and then looked at Sesshomaru who started to turn his head slightly.
Jaken, presuming the reaction he was about to get, became alarmed, and shouted "OK!" as if he genuinely wanted to.
Rin laid both of her fish on the ground. He walked over to his staff of two heads, and fried them both, "Oh master Jaken you're the greatest!" Rin smiled, as she picked up her fish, and started munching on one of them. When she finished them, she spoke. "Oh! Lord Sesshomaru! There is a field of flowers! Can I go off for a few minutes? I'll be right back!" She announced.
"Fine." Sesshomaru said quietly without moving. Rin ran off in a hurry and while at the field looked for the prettiest flowers she could find.
Mean while, Sesshomaru continued to sit under the tree, staring into the distance of Rin, and Jaken sat beside him. "Mi lord, are you alright? You don't seem yourself lately."
"That's enough Jaken."
Jaken stopped, and looked more then serious. "Lord Sesshomaru I know this might seem bold to ask," he paused with great hesitation (and instant regret), "but…do you love Rin?"
Sesshomaru snapped out of his staring, and glared at Jaken. Jaken had the instant thought that he was about to see his demise. Sesshomaru reached over to his Bakusaiga, and slowly began to take it out. He wouldn't really kill Jaken…
"AHHHHHH!" Jaken yelped for help. "Lord Sesshomaru! IM SORRYYYY…I TAKE IT BACK."
Sesshomaru let go of his Bakusaiga, waiting for him to say that. Jaken lied on the ground, huffing and puffing; still feeling regret.
"Oh Master Jaken, Lord Sesshomaru. I heard the scream…I came over as fast as I co-!" Rin announced, holding her flowers. Though while running over, she tripped over a rock and fell into Sesshomaru's lap, spilling the flowers all over him. Sesshomaru had always tried to keep calm, but thanks to his latest thoughts of her he became stunned. He didn't have the slightest idea what to do. There she was… the first girl he would have possibly ever cared for, face planted on his lap, and her gentle face looking up, with a terribly sorry face on her. She cared for him, he knew that much. He knew that even while in his demon form, she accepted him for all that he is. While he sat stunned, it was then when Rin's hand accidentally pushed lightly on Sesshomaru's member while attempting to stand back up. Naturally he growled as any man would know they are very sensitive down there. Quickly realizing she touched something she shouldn't have and quickly fumbled to get up, feeling disgraced.
"Oh...I'm sorry Lord Sesshomaru. I tripped…" She said quietly with her head down. "Lord Sesshomaru…what is that… between your legs? I felt it…moving…" Sesshomaru swore he could feel him self die right there. Not only that, but in a shameful moment he felt like her being in his lap obviously made him happy, and in his head, he was trying to deny that. He blushed furiously, as he stood up quickly. Jaken…on the other hand was rolling on the ground laughing hysterically.
"Something you don't have." Sesshomaru said smoothly.
Rin became interested. "Like?"
Sesshomaru started walking away, but she followed behind him. He looked calm and collected on the exterior as he always did, but he never thought he would find himself having to explain to young girl things her mother should be. It was reasons like this that he left her with Kaede, and was upset that she missed something like this.
"Jaken." He turned around. Jaken looked up at him, and started to get up calming himself down. But to Sesshomaru's inconvenience (and bad luck), with Rin was walking very close to him already, she ended up walking right into him…her face smothered between his legs. Jaken witnessing this, burst out laughing again, and was once again on the floor.
Rin took a step backwards, getting out from his legs. "I am...so...sorry Lord Sesshomaru. I really should watch where I'm walking."
Sesshomaru gave her a blank look and then looked up to Jaken. "JAKEN." He said loudly and sternly. Life was obviously testing him today.
Jaken stopped laughing (Well, on the outside anyway), and ran over with Ah-Un. "Yes mi lord?" he said with an occasional chuckle.
"Come here, I need to tell you something." Sesshomaru said naturally. Jaken's eyes flashed happily (stars in his eyes!) hearing that Sesshomaru wanted to tell him…Jaken…something important. "Rin stay here."
"Ok…" Rin felt terrible, as if they were planning her death. She had fallen onto Sesshomaru twice within the same hour, and with that thought, she sat down to the ground, and started crying. Ah-Un made a grunting noise behind her, put their faces close to hers, in hopes to comfort her, and she gently petted them.
Sesshomaru and Jaken walked off a bit in the distance. "Yes Lord Sesshomaru?"
"Jaken. Have you ever been given…the talk, before?" He asked, not looking at him.
"The talk?" Jaken asked. "My lord, what are you talking about?"
Sesshomaru bit his tongue "About…sex."
Jaken stopped and looked at him. "No…I haven't my lord.
"Ok." Sesshomaru stopped. With Jaken not given the talk, that leaves me to. Father, why did you have to tell me? I don't recall InuYasha ever given the talk…again, father…you've disappointed me, with you letting InuYasha getting away with everything. Now I'm forced to give a little girl a talk about sex. Wait… "Jaken. You said that InuYasha was up ahead?"
Jaken looked at him suspiciously. "..ye..s.s…"
"InuYasha's companions are females. They can explain to her." Sesshomaru said out loud, with a stroke of genius.
"Mi lord, you surly aren't acting yourself today." Jaken said, slightly terrified.
Sesshomaru didn't dignify Jaken with an answer, and walked back to Rin. "OH my LORD! Please don't kill me!" Rin cried on Ah-Un, still sitting on the ground and looking up at him.
Sesshomaru raised his eyebrow. Jaken ran in front of him, "Silly child. Lord Sesshomaru isn't going to kill you."
Rin looked slightly relieved, patting her eyes. "Oh…thank you."
Sesshomaru took a step forward before Jaken said anything else. "Rin, I'd like you and Ah-Un to stay here. We will be back before sundown."
"Ok!" Rin said, feeling a bit better.
Sesshomaru turned around, and started walking, and Jaken followed. "Jaken. Do you know where InuYasha is?"
"No mi lord. He was in that direction though." Jaken stuck his finger out, and pointed east.
"Right." Sesshomaru said, Jaken hopped onto his fluff and they flew in a hurry.
"Lord Sesshomaru? Are we almost there?" Jaken asked, a while later.
Sesshomaru said nothing, but the answer spoke for itself when InuYasha, Miroku and Shippou were easily visible from the sky, sitting around in a village not their own. "Sesshomaru! Why the hell are you here?" InuYasha said as they got closer, getting defensive.
"InuYasha. Sheath your sword. I have not come to fight." Sesshomaru said as they landed and approached them.
InuYasha continued to hover his hand over his sword, "What do you want then?"
Sesshomaru looked around to see no females. "Where is the priestess and the slayer?" He asked.
"What?" InuYasha stood blankly then made a mad face. "What the hell do you want with Kagome and Sango?"
"I…" Sesshomaru clinched his neck and closed his eyes, his fist were clenched tightly. With doubt that he never knew that he would ever had to have said… "I…need their help."
InuYasha, Miroku and Shippou's eyes widened, and they all burst out laughing hysterically. Jaken became defensive for his master, "This is not a laughing matter!"
InuYasha looked up from laughing. "You? Need help? With what? Tying your hair in those…ponytail things?" InuYasha stood straight and released his grasp on the Tetsusaiga.
"InuYasha. I would have just killed you now if I wasn't so…desperate." Sesshomaru paused. "Now. Tell me. Where is the priestess?" Sesshomaru bit his lip, almost so much that it was practically bleeding.
"PFFT. She left to go do a funeral." He glared at Miroku, who had by then stopped laughing, and was just making small comments to himself about Sesshomaru needing help.
Sesshomaru grew angry. "What about the other woman?"
"She went with her, she's got the twins," Shippou piped up.
"Why the hell do you need them anyway?" InuYasha asked.
"A…human female problem." Sesshomaru said muttered, as he wanted to punch something.
Miroku stood interested. "Can I help perhaps?"
"Miroku you ass…Rin's just a kid." Glared InuYasha.
"Idiot." Shippou said glaring too.
"Enough with this pathetic chat. I need someone to explain to Rin about…sex." Sesshomaru said quietly.
InuYasha burst out laughing, louder and harder then before. Sesshomaru's patience wore thin enough that it resulted in picking up InuYasha's collar with one hand and threatening, "InuYasha. I will not have you laugh any longer. I will kill you."
"Finally. Then why don't you?" InuYasha said in a testing attitude, still being held up by his brother, but slowly releasing the Tetsusaiga.
"When will they be back?" Sesshomaru asked, dropping his collar. InuYasha adjusted himself as he landed back on the ground.
InuYasha responded casually, "Meh…sometime tomorrow I guess. But those fricken girls like to take forever for whatever they do…"
"Forget it. Jaken let's go." Sesshomaru and Jaken started walking off, and they disappeared.
"Wow. That was…" Miroku paused to think of the perfect word. "Hysterical?" He snorted.
"Yeah really. Who would figure…Sesshomaru of all people would have to give a girl the talk."
Sesshomaru and Jaken got back to the River, to see Ah-Un, but not Rin. "Stupid girl…went off." Jaken spouted rudely, "ungrateful."
Ah-Un made a grunt, and then walked off. Sesshomaru followed them, and Jaken trailed along. They were led to a hot spring nearby. Sesshomaru and Jaken stood somewhat a distance from the hot springs to distantly see Rin stand up in the spring, smiling to her self, not noticing that Jaken and Sesshomaru were there, and Sesshomaru was forced to see her newly developed breasts. Jaken, stupidly walked closer to the hot spring, when Rin noticed them and flopped herself into the water so they couldn't see her body. Sesshomaru stood slightly baffled, and much like earlier, became slightly aroused.
"Rin! Why didn't you tell us that you were here?" Jaken yelled at her.
Rin looked semi-upset. "I'm sorry master Jaken. I got bored, and I came across this hot spring. I couldn't help but jump in. Ah-Un greeted you though?"
"Yes they did…" Jaken said, not knowing what to say next, while trying to think of a good come-back.
Rin looked past Jaken to see Sesshomaru. "Lord Sesshomaru! Why don't you come in? The water's great!" She said happily, though unaware of co-ed baths, and why it can be unorthodox for a child to bathe with a (very old) man. Sesshomaru turned around quickly. Rin took it as a 'no', and wondered why.
"I'll join you Rin." Jaken offered. Rin looked back at Jaken, and made a small, unfortunate, smile. Jaken started taking his kimono off, when a rock was thrown at him, and he was thrown into the water with his clothes on. Jaken and Rin had been able to swim together before, but she was getting older and he felt it was inappropriate, even if Jaken was a different species. Rin giggled, and noticed Sesshomaru placing his hand on his forehead, and leaning against a tree. She became instantly concerned as he looked upset with conflicted.
Rin got up out of the hot spring, naked still, picked up her kimono, threw it on, but didn't bother to tie it up. She ran over to Sesshomaru, with her kimono flapping open as she ran in the wind, she pulled on Sesshomaru's sleeve.
She turned Sesshomaru slightly, and saw his face. "Lord Sesshomaru…You're…" She started to see his eyes shaking. "…Scared." She stood still, eyes peeled wide open.
Sesshomaru tying to avoid looking down at her breasts and fixed his eyes elsewhere. "I'm never scared."
"But my lord…you…" She broke out. "NO! LORD SESSHOMARU! DON'T HATE ME!" She yelled. "Aww…. First he wanted to kill me…now he just hates me…" She muttered to herself. She held her hands under her chin and started to feel bad for herself.
Sesshomaru looked back to Rin. "Rin…cover yourself." He finally said. Rin blushed, and looked down to see that her kimono was wide open. She made a nervous laugh, and tied her kimono.
"But…When we saw Kagura once…she was naked. You never said anything then." Rin brought up the memory of when Kagura came to ask for Sesshomaru's help, but wasn't wearing a top.
"She was in battle…and she didn't have much to cover up with." He semi-lied.
Rin looked around. "Her arms?"
Sesshomaru stood speechless. "Enough. Finish your bath. We need to have a…talk." he told her, walking away slowly.
"Okay." Rin said, as she tore off her kimono, and did a cannon ball into the hot water.
"My lord?" Jaken asked quietly walking over to Sesshomaru. "You're going to give her the talk?"
"Unless you'd like to?" Sesshomaru looked at Jaken with almost the greatest gratitude.
Jaken got slightly scared with Sesshomaru's face. "Mi lord, I would die for you, but I do not know the human's anatomy well enough to tell her about it!"
"Fine, but when I'm talking to her, you will not interfere." Sesshomaru said.
"Yes sir!" Jaken told him, as that's what he was going to do anyway.
A little while later, Rin came out, this time fully dressed, although her hair was really wet. "My lord…what would you like to talk about?" She asked.
Sesshomaru was sitting against the same tree as he was earlier, legs semi- spread out, and his arm leaned against his knee. She came and sat on her knees in front of him. Jaken took his leave with Ah-Un and went for a walk. He, the all mighty lord Sesshomaru, was by himself…with a girl.
"Your curious on what…this is right?" He said, as he pointed to the area between his legs, without moving his arm.
Rin blushed. "Well…yes…"
"Okay." Sesshomaru closed his eyes to think about what to say next. "This is something that men have…as women have other parts."
"Oh I see now!" Rin smiled. "So…if you have that, is that why I have breasts?"
Sesshomaru sat still. "Not exactly. A lot of the reason why we have these things…is for reproducing."
"Reproducing?"
"Having children."
she got excited, "Oh!"
"Remember Kagura? Soon, that's what your chest will develop to be. You need those for feeding a baby. Now, what you pressed your hand on earlier between my legs, is called a penis," he said with extreme difficulty, "All men have one, and it's used for going to the bathroom, and…for helping the woman have children, that's called sexual intercourse. It can be for both pleasure, or for reproduction." Sesshomaru closed his eyes.
"How does peeing help?" She asked, confused.
"No…It does two different things. It can go pee. And, when the man and the woman are having sex, the man inserts his penis into the woman's' vagina-"
"What's a vagina?"
Sesshomaru held his breath, "Where you pee, there's a big hole there, that's for the penis to go in. It's also where the baby comes out."
"It comes out that tiny hole? I thought babies were bigger then that when they are born…" Rin said to herself.
Sesshomaru's left eye twitched. "No…the hole gets bigger when the baby comes out, the vagina is normally stretched."
Rin held herself tight. "AHHHH! That would hurt!" She pushed her two hands into her lap tightly. "Why did your penis hurt?"
"We are very sensitive. When a penis is sexually aroused it grows in size so they can easily insert themselves into the woman. The only way for women to have children is when the male ejaculates special stuff that's made inside him, then it gets mixed inside her, and the baby is made. Then as you may know, the baby grows in the mother's stomach for nine months."
"Wow! Lord Sesshomaru! You're so smart! How do you know all of this?!" Rin said happily.
"My father told me."
Rin looked impressed, "How does your father know?"
"Well…his father probably told him. And…he has had children, so he would know." Sesshomaru pressed through his teeth. Instead of 'Children' he was dying to say child, to not count InuYasha as his brother, but couldn't deny it.
"Wow…that was good to know" Rin smiled. "But, my lord… why will you never take baths with me?"
"Men and women should not be naked together unless they are mates." Sesshomaru told her straightly. "Also because you are still a child.
Rin started to understand. "Oh! I'm sorry my lord, I didn't mean to upset you!" She told him.
"Yes, well…You are only a child and I am much older then you are. It would seem strange."
"Why would you care about what others think?"
He didn't look at her, "I don't. It's just wrong."
"Do you think we're mates?" She asked cocking her head sideways.
Sesshomaru's eyes widened, and hesitated his answer, "Of course not."
"What if we were to be?"
"I wouldn't count on it." He told her suddenly. He didn't mean to say it so negatively, and part of him thought it was untrue.
But Rin already felt insulted. "Oh…ok." She said, standing up and starting to walk off, disappointed. Seeing this, Sesshomaru realized he had just hurt her feelings and how she felt for him and felt guilty. Rin walked to the field of flowers and sat in a random spot. She brought her knees to her chin, and wrapped her arms around her legs. Tears streamed down her face.
Why won't Lord Sesshomaru…I guess…I really am…just a companion. I just slow him down…I'm annoying, I'm clumsy. Why would I even think that Lord Sesshomaru and I could be anything? Why would I even think that I could ever keep Sesshomaru happy…or make him smile for once?
The sun was going down and a shadow cast over her. It was in a bodily shape, and so she flipped around quickly.
"Rin. We're going." Sesshomaru told her.
Rin didn't move, and just turned around again. She was mad at him and he needed to be sure of his mistake. She didn't care…okay…she would care…but she was ready to protest. Rin found a random flower, yanked it out, and threw it with anger.
"Rin. We are going." Sesshomaru repeated solidly.
"No."
Sesshomaru crouched down, he felt her anger. But, he just looked at her angry face. They stared at each other. With most people he felt fear, he would kill…but…Rin was his. His flower. His sunshine. His only star in the night sky. What he wakes up to. He couldn't deny it! He never knew that a little girl like…like HER…could ever want a demon that lives to kill, and to even take over the world. He truly was lucky to have such a dedicated and loyal female companion who would do anything to get him to notice her.
Sesshomaru bit the inside of his lip. "I'm sorry." He said. Rin couldn't take it any longer. She burst out crying, and leapt onto Sesshomaru, wrapping her arms around Sesshomaru's neck.
"No lord Sesshomaru…I'm sorry. You've done more than enough for me…I just wished I could be more than a companion to you." She wrapped herself around him tightly.
Sesshomaru, right at that moment felt some emotion swimming through him. He didn't show it, but he knew that he had never shown an emotion like that before, and he too, felt like he wanted to cry. But, being the great demon he was, of course he wouldn't. Instead of saying anything, he had an incredibly unusual day, so instead of dismissing her, he lifted her off the ground with his right arm, and so at that point she wrapped her legs around his waist. She continued to cry, in hopes that one day they truly could be mates, as she would never had ever found anyone else rather than her lord Sesshomaru that she would want to be mates with.
Sesshomaru walked out of the field, as Jaken and Ah-Un stood there.
"Mi lord, what was going on?" Jaken asked loudly, as they all started walking.
Sesshomaru stopped, and prompted his left foot up, and kicked Jaken in the head. Jaken at that walked around in circles from dizziness.
As it was getting dark, Rin fell asleep on Sesshomaru. She had dry tears down her face, and her eyes were still semi-red. Jaken had fallen asleep on Ah-Un, and so Sesshomaru stopped. He did his best to keep a straight face but he couldn't restrain the deep feelings he had inside. Being demon, and coming from his past, he could never believe he would even ever consider keeping Rin after all that had happened that day. But, it was what any normal person would feel. Sesshomaru himself felt slightly exhausted from the day, so he stopped in a forest. Ah- Un followed, and Sesshomaru found a large tree. He continued to carry Rin around him, and so as he sat down, he placed her so she was sitting in his lap, her face and body curled into his armor, which he placed a bit of his fluff there, so it was more comfortable for her.
For once...he felt peaceful.