Summary: This is a letter/poem Teyla wrote to John about a week after she told him she was pregnant.
Heads Up! Italics is the letter, thoughts and flashbacks from John.
John Shepperd walked down the hall to his quarters, humming Valentine's Day by Linkin Park to himself. He had only recently taken interest in the song, he himself was unsure why. He knew it was greatly written... but it wasn't really his style. But as he hummed, he brushed that thought away. John walked into his quarters still humming, only to find a letter on his bed. He stopped and picked it up, giving it the twice over look. He recognized the outside handwriting and thought, Teyla... He opened the letter carefully, not wanting to shred any of its contents.
Dear John,
I am unsure if it is the wrong or right time to face the mistakes I have made.
Please forgive me,
I had not wanted this to happen.
You must believe me,
I didn't mean to hurt you,
But when I saw your face that day,
I couldn't help but see,
The feelings of anger, betray and saddness
In your eyes.
It is me who has faltered,
I have imperfections, flaws.
But he was before you.
Before I knew you cared.
Before I knew I cared.
Before I cried for my mistake.
Please forgive me John...
You slipped away,
Nothing will be the same.
Always,
Teyla
John read the letter over again, then again. He sat down on his bed and wasn't sure whether to laugh or cry. He remembered the day Teyla had told him she was pregnant.
"You're what?"
"I'm pregnant, John."
In the event he had yelled at her on how many missions she had gone on, but that was only to cover up the worry, sadness and betray he had felt. He had always known Teyla had the gift of reading people from the inside and out. He was lost at sea now...Kanaan had taken the place he had wished to be at from the very beginning. He couldn't let her go...but couldn't fight for her either. Damn it, he thought. It was his last thought before he fell into a deep sleep...filled with dreams of what should have been.