Never Gonna End
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"So I did the unforgivable but just this once can't you just forgive me?" he said crying on his knees begging, pleading needing forgiveness
"No I can't all the promises, all the lies, no I can't" she replied
"Tell me what I need to do to fix this, please just tell me?" he asked
"There's nothing to do we've been broken, you broke us we'll never be the same again" she said crying back at him "Please just leave me alone for a while, just leave"
"I refuse to go, please don't make me go"
"Now" she shouted with her back to him
"No please just look at me I'm sorry I really am, forgive me" he pleaded
"My mother was right about you she's always been right about you, you're a dog Puckerman a fucking Dog" she screamed at him "Now get the fuck out before I kick you out myself"
"You know I tried my best to change for you, I can do better, just one more chance please Quinn please"
Puck had thought that when Quinn went away on a week long holiday with Satan, Tina, Rachel, Mercy, Sugar and Kurt that it would be a great bonding week for the lads but, it turned out they'd picked that week because their hubbies were busy and except for one night, when Sam and Artie came round to see him on the cuff they were either out of town or busy. His idol hands soon found work to do after studio hours when he went to the local bar and started getting himself into trouble with the ladies, Puck saw it as fun at first but once he had a few drinks in him the lines blurred. It started out as an only playing ladies I'm a married man comment to, when the wife's away and a touch on the nose, to a mega I'm a free agent come and get me, just his luck that he got the girl more than once during the week, it got out of control, when she turned up at their house, two weeks later, demanding he see her. He wasn't in at the time but Quinn invited her in made her a drink had a chat and established who she was, and what she wanted, before Puck came walking through the door, his face drained of blood as he stood in shock at seeing the two women sitting drinking tea in their home. His heart broke at that very moment when he looked at Quinn's face and knew she knew he'd slept with this woman, of course he went through all the how dare you come here, you're a one night thing, get out stuff but still Quinn had found him out and now he was left begging for mercy and for his marriage.
"Noah I'm too tired for this will you just go for tonight and we'll pick this back up tomorrow, I just need you out of my sight"
"I'll sleep in the den or the study but I'm not leaving the house Q" he said, as she walked off leaving him to make that choice himself going upstairs to their bedroom getting her phone out as she went
"Sam I just found out Puck slept with someone else I need you to come over, I'm so angry I could use a friend right now"
"I'm sorry about that Quinn, and before you ask no I didn't know but, I can't come over Mercy's had to go straight to the studio, she's still there, Corbin's in bed and Jada's not settling just yet you can come over but if I'm honest I'd prefer if you spoke to Mercy"
"Why?" Quinn asked affronted
"Because we have history and, I'm not in the habit of pissing my wife off if you must know, and if I'm honest, I'd prefer you chose another damn day she's been away for two weeks and I haven't seen her yet"
"God Sam that was so 15 years ago, if she's got trust issues that's her problem surely?" Quinn spat out
"It's our problem actually Quinn and no she hasn't but I don't want her to have, we need to trust each other totally with our jobs being what they are, actually I insist you wait for Mercy or call the Unholy Trinity" Sam said sharply
"Fine" Quinn said putting the phone down
"Ok" Sam said to the now dead phone before putting it back on the coffee table in front of him just seconds before it buzzed again
"Sam its Puck I need your support" Puck said
"You've slept out on Quinn and you need some tips on how to get her back, never done it bro, never planning on doing it, got no idea" Sam said ready to put the phone down
"No Dude that's not it but I'm kind of pissed that she got to you before I did and by your attitude I'm assuming you said no to the support?" he commented
"Yep I did"
"Well dude I'm asking you to help her, or help me help her because I need her to get into a frame of mind to take up my reasoning and I need you to get her there in that frame of mind I mean"
"Puck I'm not playing any games with you two I have history with Quinn you have history with Mercy it's not happening Dude you need to ask Joe or someone else that's not in a relationship to help I'm not doing it"
"I thought you were a bro?" Puck asked
"I am Dude but I'm a Husband and Father first" Sam said shutting Puck up
"Ok Dude you got Joe's number?" Puck asked, Sam gave it to him before clicking off his phone and getting back to getting Jada settled. Sam didn't know when he fell asleep but when he woke up Mercy was taking Jada out of his arms and bringing her upstairs
"Babe I'll be back down in a bit" she said as he stirred
Sam was disturbed minutes later by the door knocking, went to open it, to be faced with an angry looking Quinn "Quinn what are you doing here?" he asked as she invited herself in
"Where's the baby then" she said "I thought she was playing up?"
"We fell asleep and then .."
"So why didn't you call me back once you'd got her to sleep" she asked before he could finish
"I wasn't aware that I'd made arrangements to call you back and Quinn don't just walk into our house like that you haven't even said hello" he got out before Quinn came back at him
"The one time since school I ask you to support me in anything and you bring Mercedes to the table, I've never asked you to be there for me never and you say no, why's she a priority?"
"Are you for real? have you knocked your fucking head or something? who the fuck is going to be my priority if not my wife and children, I resent you even asking me that question, I got over you the day before we split up in Junior year. It's not my fault that the guy you decided to shack up with done that to you and, I am sorry about that but, I'm seriously not here for you, I asked you to speak to Mercy because she'd deal with this better than me and, I know how you are, show an inch of attention and you're on it like a fucking rash, I'm not about to be that rash for you Quinn ever"
"I didn't say leave Mercy"
"You wouldn't be telling me that anyway, seriously, who do you think you are? he asked gasping for breath with disbelief
"I'm your first love, I'm special that's what you said back in the day" she said innocently
"Quinn I thought I'd said this loud enough at school, the fact that I kept going back for her, at our engagement party on our wedding day every anniversary since Mercy was my first love and she's my last, Quinn truly" Sam said sitting down and signalling for her to sit too "I love my wife I'm in love with my wife I always have been to me your Puck's wife Quinn a friend of ours, our Daughter's Godmother and that's it anything else you read into this is in your head"
"But you gave me a promise ring"
"I did, well technically you took it, and you made trash of those promises when you kissed Finn behind my back and made me a laughing stock, and that's fine you were in love with Finn but, you need only to have said that, I was in love with Mercy I wouldn't have minded I'd have understood"
"So this everlasting romance I have going on is in my head"
"Britt would say sorry, not sorry" he said making the two of them laugh "I'll always be your friend Quinn you're Mercy's sister from another set of parents and part of our GF but we'll never be anything else my heart and everything about me belongs to Mercy"
"Hey Quinn" Mercy came down the stairs saying, going over to hug into her sister "What's up" she said as she went over to Sam who was sitting on the sofa still looking on
"Long story with Puck and his dick again" she said smiling
"Babe" Mercy said diving on the sofa and into Sam's arms "I so missed you it's been a long two weeks" she said kissing him, giggling when he took it deeper
"Ohh but that Black dress again" he said eyeing her up with a smile on his face as they came out of their kiss
"So what's going on?" she asked ignoring Sam's undertones
"Puck's been sleeping out on me I met her today she turned up at my house" Quinn informed her, sounding angry
"OMG Quinn I'm so sorry" Mercy said picking her phone up "Puck get your ass here now" she said and put the phone down as she got up to hug Quinn, Sam sat listening to Mercy and Quinn talk about the detail of what happened until the door knocked, he got up to answer it finding Puck there
"Dude your Lady summoned me" Puck said
"I know Dude I was there and they are good and riled up and this isn't the end of it" Sam said man hugging him and following him into the lounge where Mercy and Quinn were. Mercy walked up to Puck and slapped him hard across the face on both sides
"That's what I promised you if you ever hurt my girl" she said as Sam stood watching in horror "Now get the fuck out my house" she said as Puck turned to walk out
"Hold up" Sam said "there's more to this story that everyone needs to hear, I don't keep secrets from my wife" he said offering Puck a seat while Quinn looked on suspiciously. Sam went on to talk about his communication with Quinn that evening and how uncomfortable the situation was for him that Quinn has issues she needs to deal with and that Puck was on a slippery road downhill. Quinn was crying with shame, Mercy was boiling with anger, Puck was pissed off and Sam felt relief having got it all out without Mercy kicking off at him about blame.
"I think it all came out because of the rejection from Noah I just run to the first person I could think of"
"You thought of sleeping with someone to get back at Puck and you run to Sam?" Mercy asked puzzled
"I thought we talked about this and you were over Sam" Puck asked hurt
"I am over Sam I said it was just instinctive" Quinn said defending herself
"Sam's my husband Quinn you're the godmother of our daughter what the fuck?" Mercy asked
"Mercy I'm sorry, that's all I can think of to say" Quinn said crying
"Well here's my truth" Sam said "Puck you wanted to do it and done it, it's come back to bite you on the butt and you need to deal with that maybe learn from it. Quinn you've wanted to do it since forever, you've gone into a serious relationship knowing you wanted to do it, you just haven't had the opportunity who's worse?
"Discuss" Mercy said and nobody leaves till a decision is made, she added before Sam and her left the room
Puck & Quinn's Conversation
"So how do I compete with your Sam feelings, now I know the reason why you're so distant all the time and never want to encourage romance it's because it's not there isn't it?"
"It's there Noah just not in droves, I think I've always known I was never going to be enough, so I've expected this even maybe pushed you into doing it just to tell myself I told you so"
"So you don't love me then our relationship is a sham"
"Noah you know I love you I always will I guess when we were told I couldn't have any more children I sort of felt tied to you, because of Beth, we both know what that feels like you know being parents but, the rejection thing has always been too much for me"
"So you're with me because you don't think I'll say anything about you not being able to have children?" Noah asked puzzled
"No; because I know you love me regardless of the no baby thing because of Beth, I'm sounding shallow now I love you Noah I really do I just struggle sometimes to like you"
"So now you don't like me" Puck said sitting down heavily on the sofa as Quinn stood the other side of the coffee table looking at the near broken man
"It's not a regular occurrence it's like you've been caught sleeping around and I don't like you right now but I still love you above all that otherwise it wouldn't hurt would it?
"So where does Sam come into all this?"
"He doesn't I think it's more jealousy than him coming into anything it's about what could have been for me you know I had him first and if I'd have just kept my lips to myself I might still be with him getting treated like Mercedes gets treated you know like a Lady all the while. That's how I should be treated I deserve to be treated with respect like that I think I'm worth it yes I was damaged goods when we got together but you damaged me Puck you did that to me and now you want to disrespect me in every way possible, I felt ashamed of myself that I couldn't keep a man and I just wanted someone to respect me"
"So you run to a married man, the husband of your best friend for respect?"
"So you run to some two bit hooker in a bar for some attention?" she spat
"Okay I can see how that might happen but Quinn we need to figure out where we go from here" he said
"What are the options?" she asked
"Back to square one with a solid promise as well as lessons learned or divorce courts there's no in between because we couldn't live with this being thrown in each other's faces everyday" Puck said
"I agree but I'm not there yet Noah I need time, we can make your promises when I get to where I need to be with this"
"I'll take that" Puck said "What are you going to say to Sam and Mercedes?" Puck asked
"Never mind Sam and Mercy how are we going to sort ourselves out?" Quinn asked sitting down beside Noah to have a good cry before broaching that subject
Sam & Mercy's Conversation
"I know you know I'm pissed at her I could spit in her eye I really could but then I look at you and what's not to love, is it wrong that I get so turned on by other women's lust for you?" Mercy said walking towards the door and locking it before turning the music on
"It's right that I get their punishment if I know what's coming" Sam said laughing as she came towards him and he sat on the bed "Marvin" he said when the music started "But babe didn't you say you'd had a long day today?" he asked teasingly
"I did and I expect a short night in that I wanted a hot drink and bed, with you but then I get fucking Quinn all over my shit giving me a freakin headache that makes me want to kick her head in and there it is again that ooze"
"Oh you have an ooze?" Sam asked moving one eye brow upwards and presenting his lop sided grin "That sounds like it has a nice flow I wonder what it looks like when one oozes?" he asked himself aloud
"I've heard a cold shower usually sorts these oozes out but I'd settle for a warm shower and some company" Mercy said grabbing his hand to pull him up to follow her to the bathroom, turning on the shower and stripping naked as did he
"I don't want to kill the mood or anything babe but what are we going to do about Quinn" Sam asked as he stood under the water in the shower
"Nothing I'm happy with what you did I love you we trust each other and I don't think any of us would allow anything or anyone to come between what we have am I wrong?" she asked
"No never" Sam replied
"So can this Diva put her mood back on and get her divo country music singing husbands hands, mouth and dick all over this ass?" she said as Sam got to business, he loved the feel, touch, smells of his wife and he could go for hours on her bed talk even though they both had game in those departments. 90 minutes later they were interrupted by Jada crying
"Let the Nanny get her babe" Sam said not wanting to let go of Mercy as they sat wrapped up drinking their glass of wine
"Babe it's been over 2 weeks since I saw her, I need to" Mercy said in his ear and he let her go to go hold their baby girl. 30 minutes later he was standing at the nursery door just watching Mother and Daughter together thinking how perfect life was, suddenly 5 year old Corbin was standing next to him hugging his legs until he saw his Mommy sitting with baby Jada and he left his Dad and went to her. "Corbin" she said hugging him in too, Sam stood quietly at the door thinking 'this is what I live for, these moments'. He went into the nursery and picked Corbin up and sat next to Mercy and Jada with Corbin on his lap singing until Jada fell asleep again and soon after Corbin fell asleep, they took him back to his room and put him to bed
"Do you think they've had enough time?" he asked two and a half hours after leaving Puck and Quinn alone
"We're calling time I've got work tomorrow" she said
"Oh I need to speak to you it's kind of eminent" he said looking at his hands
"Where to and how long for?"
"China for a month minimum" he said
"When do you go?"
"Monday, as in Tomorrow, 2 pm" he said
"Okay" she said taking her phone out to look at her diary "It's Mid Term holidays the third week so we could come make a holiday of it and some us time if you want"
"If I want? That would be great babe you know how I get" he said getting excited about the whole thing for the first time since he'd been told "I hate these lone trips I liked it before the children came when we both went everywhere I want them back" he said hugging her in
Sam had stumbled into stardom because of his constant touring with Mercy who had her big break singing opening act for Beyonce's world tour back in 2015 she'd been a huge success and won Grammy's that first year and every year since, she was in demand by such names as Mary J Blige, Ne Yo, R Kelly, Brandy, Diana Ross and Patti LaBelle and within months she was on stage, screen and live shows number one's every month and life was busy. Sam started appearing on stage to give her a rest as her opening act and once while telling his story he let slip that he was a country singing boy himself, the audience put him to the test, liked him, there was demand for his music and it just grew from there; he wrote songs for the likes of Josh Turner, Cassie and Ed Sheeran and became good friends with most but mainly Nick Jonas. When the two powerhouses got married it would have seemed like it was at the request of the fans but, Sam and Mercy knew different and their 'naturalness' as it was called by the tabloids, made everyone fall in love with them. Over the years there had been a few ambitious fans that had made their way past the guards and knocked their door, brought drinks, left numbers and even found out mobile numbers for both of them but they had stayed true to each other because that was important to them.
"I know Puck's at the top of his game in the music business but he's such a dick in his personal life, I'd advise Quinn to leave him but I don't want him round all the while and I don't need her fan girling on me"
"Oh they so deserve each other" Mercy said laughing with Sam "Remember she was no angel at school so she needs to stop pretending to be the victim in all this, she was seriously squeezing on my man" Mercy said pushing out her bottom lip "I should slap the bitch but she's my girl and I stopped doing that stuff years ago"
"Would you forgive me that easy?"
"Babe we swore we would never under any circumstances hurt each other so what am I forgiving?" she asked puzzled making him smile
"You're always on the ball you" he said tickling her sides making her laugh
"On your balls" she said as they got to the bottom of the stairs and went towards the living room to find Quinn and Puck
Back Together Again
"So what have you two.." Mercy said walking around the sofa to find the two of them cuddled up sleeping "They're sleeping" she said to Sam and they went to walk away
"I'm not" Puck said opening his eyes "I'm thinking how the fuck I got us into the damn mess I'm a dick and if I was anyone else I'd be encouraging her to leave me but I really do love her you know I just drink too much sometimes. If I'm honest I've never gotten used to Quinn going away, she freaks out more now than she did when we found out we couldn't have children, it just fucking hurts that she doesn't feel she can come to me you know, I mean I'm there for everything else except her real feelings and it hurts"
"I'm sorry about that babe and I'll try to do better" she answered
"But you've said that every time it's come up, yet we still find ourselves back to this place, I'm the worst person on earth, you go on your jolly and I'm left wondering what the fuck and are you coming back" he said wiping his face of tears "I'm an emotional wreck because of the way I feel you use me, I stay because I'd rather be treated badly by you than to be treated any way by anybody else, I know that you know that fucking bitch was a cry for affection Quinn, sometimes I need you so bad you don't even understand" he said wiping more tears from his face
Sam and Mercy stood watching this story unfold not saying a word
"I hated myself for loving you for so long Noah I started to believe it at one point, I threw myself into Finn that was false actually, I don't know what that was, trying to be what I'm not I suppose, some princess of the manor or something. When I realised that I needed to stop pressing my self-destruct button, was the day I sat up and realised I actually loved you above all others and maybe I had for some time. I asked myself why, as a virgin, I'd have a boyfriend that I wouldn't let touch me under my clothes but then, just jump into bed with you and without question give myself to you. I think I was ashamed of being caught out that way you know being pregnant, although Beth's the best thing that ever happened to me, you gave me her and again I love you for that too. I guess what I'm trying to say is I love you for so many different reasons and none of them are for sleeping out on me"
"So why do you treat me the way you do?" he asked
"If I'm honest, I think I treat myself that way, sometimes it overwhelms me you know, I've never seen myself as someone to love, maybe because of the rejection from my mother as a child, just because I was a Daddy's girl and then my father when I got pregnant but, I don't see myself as everyone else sees to. Mercy calls me her Angel and how the fuck am I an angel? I knew she fancied Sam the minute he walked into the choir room, but I still went there, I knew that Rachel really loved Finn but I still went there, I knew you were out of bounds but I still went there, where's the fucking angel in that. You see me as some kind of, I don't know, princess or something and I'm not I got pregnant at 16, lost my virginity at 16, set the piano on fire, smoked drugs with the rough girls, gave my fucking baby away, I'm nobodies friend and sometimes I just don't deserve to be around the people that love me" she said and started crying again into Puck's lap
"Your also the girl who fought hard core to get her baby girl back, who against all odds got good grades at school and went to Yale, gave me that master class kiss that got me graduated, took a chance on Puck the saw; bad choice, sorry, and wrote the most amazing trilogy of books any of us GF's have ever read you did all that Quinn your fierce like Really fierce" Puck said
Mercy looked at Sam with tears in her eyes her friend was hurting and she wanted to do something about that but her husband was there for that and Sam held onto Mercy to make sure she didn't intervene
"I am?" Quinn asked
"You are" Puck said before carrying on to say "Should we get some help with this sweetheart?"
"Will you come with me babe I really don't want to be alone in this" she said
"I'm here Quinn I'm always here" he said hugging her
"I need to go home babe, we need to go home, I'll call Mercy in the morning, if she'll answer the phone to me" Quinn said as they got up and walked out the living room and in turn left the house, Puck waving bye as they left.
"Let's go to bed babe" Sam said, not wanting to discuss any of what they had just seen "We don't get many of these let's just forget them yeah?" he asked "We've only got tonight"
"Your turn to sing our song for the day" she said as they mounted the stairs back to their bedroom
"I had that planned before the drama and this right here is all about us so I'm still going to sing it" he said grabbing for his guitar as he started singing his version of 'Die a happy Man' by Thomas Rhett as Mercy sat in her usual chair in their bedroom closed her eyes and let Sam's voice take her there, at the end of the song she got up took his hand and led him to bed
"Great welcome home" she said "Goodnight babe I love you"
"Great to have you home" he replied "Goodnight I love you more babe"
Two Weeks Later
Mercy got a call from Blaine "Girl you need to come talk to your girl because if I have to we are going to divorce courts stat"
"Hello Blaine, nice to hear from you, what's Kurt done now?" Mercy replied rolling her eyes
"And don't think I didn't just see you roll your eyes for me talking about your person like that, but he has gotten on my very last nerve and he needs to be taken in hand and when I need a Diva intervention you are always it"
"Diva, Me?" Mercy said jokingly
"I called Sam for a Bro intervention but he's out of town I hear, nice to be in the loop by the way, anyway it's back to you what are you going to do?" Blaine asked
"What's happened Blaine?"
"Some jock he met one Christmas at college or something, reckons we were split up, anyway he's turned up talking about some S&M session they had that he's never mentioned to me and I flipped in the middle of his acceptance dinner, well a bitch is going to flip at something like that don't you think. Anyway I'm in the wrong now because apparently the jock is sleeping with his boss and I've let the cat out the bag with my behaviour."
"He should have told you about that Blaine I agree with you"
"Thank you God, someone with sense"
"But could you not have left the drama until you got home?"
"Now that's my man's argument but I don't see why I should he didn't mind that jock blowing it all up in my face, why should I allow myself to be treated like that I'm not his yes man I'm his husband and he needs to treat me as such"
"I agree but what do you need to get out of my conversation with Kurt Blaine?"
"I want him to respect my feelings and acknowledge the hurt I felt, having that jock blow him up like that and, me not even being armed with the information in the first place. I had to tell chapter and verse about that idiot I went with when he was in NYADA and he told me nothing or that's what it feels like"
"So communication is what you want from this and you want me to tell him that yeah?"
"I think I can communicate that Mercy if I'm honest I'm just not this far ahead with our conversation right now"
"So are you telling me you got this?" she asked
"I am, thanks for listening and letting me get my think on Mercy you're a real gem but, your girl is still messed up and she's going to hear it" Blaine finished
"Bye Blaine" Mercy said rolling her eyes
"I'm rolling them right back at you love you girl bye" Blaine said laughing
Twenty minutes later her phone rang again this time it was Kurt "Diva I am so pissed at Blaine right now I need to vent before I walk the hell out of here and ruin my life" he said
"Hi Kurt vent" Mercy replied 'Because I've got nothing better to do' she thought
"Blaine, I don't know how I say his name so freaking calm, blew me up at my acceptance dinner the other night I've been giving him the silent treatment for a day and now I just want to slap the shit out of him, verbally of course, but if I do that I don't know where that will leave our relationship and as you know I'm big on respect so advice please how do I tell him stop disrespecting and start loving"
"At a guess I would have said tell him the truth in the first place and then you wouldn't have any of this would you?"
"Wait up; how do you know what we're arguing about?"
"Because your husband is in the same place you are right now and he's just talked himself down and I guess you will too. Curious much, what guy was this and how did that S&M session go down Kurt?"
"Only Satan and Rachel know really they were there we done a Christmas show at the local Mall in New York and while we were there we met Fake Santa Clause who got us all drunk tied me up and robbed us of everything and we vowed to never mention it again" Kurt said in one sentence "No questions please I'm still so embarrassed and if I'm honest that's half of it with Blaine I don't want to tell him that"
"It might be hard Kurt but relationships that last are built on honesty and if that's the kind of relationship you want you're going to have to come out of that comfort zone and tell him"
"I know your right Mercy but this is a very bitter pill, that taste is going to last forever, Blaine will see me differently and I like his current perception of me"
"So what perception do you think he has of you right now?"
"Lier, cheat, slut do I need to carry on"
"Well yeah if you think that ones better than telling him the truth" she said rolling her eyes at the phone
"So I don't, I think I know what I need to do but I need a drink or several before I open that particular old chapter of my life" he said like a spoilt child "And stop rolling your eyes at me" he said before they both started laughing
"But it's funny yeah a fake Santa tied you up and robbed the house" she said laughing hard now
"Diva; stop it was mega scary" he said before he too started laughing
"Try telling Britt Santana was scared Kurt she'd laugh too" Mercy said through her laugh
"How's Sam doing in China?" he asked
"He's missing us and we're missing him but we fly out next week so I'm looking forward" she said sounding happy
"Say hello from us won't you when you get there and thanks Diva love you bye"
"Love you Kurt take care won't you bye" Mercy said closing the call down 'those two can't live without drama' she thought with a smile on her face as she visualised Kurt being tied up by Santa
Kurt & Blaine's conversation
"Blaine we need to have this conversation it's going to be hard for me but I need to tell you this because our relationship, I feel, is built on trust and honesty, I've asked for that in agreement with you and so I need to live by it" Kurt said looking around the room "Will you sit down and please don't comment until I've got it all out"
"Okay" Blaine said sitting down
Kurt went about telling Blaine the story of that uneventful Christmas, when not only did they not get paid for the week of elfing but lost all their presents too "Are you laughing?" Kurt asked when he saw Blaine's shoulders moving
"I'm sorry Kurt, your story just conjures up a picture of you all as elves firstly, and then I'm seeing you all dancing around having taken helium, singing no less. I don't know how he kept a straight face long enough to rob the place" Blaine said finally laughing out loud
"So the fact that I was tied up doesn't merit a concern?"
"Well yeah but you like it, don't you?"
"Us is different Blaine, its safe"
"You mean he rap…" Blaine said getting serious about the conversation
"No no, that didn't happen" Kurt hurried to say
"Oohh" Blaine said taking a deep breath as he held his chest "So I guess what I want to say is sorry for spoiling your night and if I could rewind I would, because you know it's never been my intention to sabotage anything you do" he finished grabbing hold of Kurt's hand as he spoke
"And I'm sorry for not telling you about that but, I was so ashamed that I let that happen to me. Truth is I was pissed that you'd gone off with someone and I was just marking up a notch you know getting you back, I really just wanted to drop it in a conversation the next time I saw you all casual like" Kurt said bashfully
"Are we gonna get past this?"
"I hope so I'd say never mention it again but, that's what got us here in the first place" he half smiled
"Another one for our rocking chair moment then?"
"No, if your laughing that hard when we're in our rocking chairs you might just keel over" Kurt said as they both laughed
Sam & Mercy's Conversation
Later that evening Sam called to speak to his family and catch up on what was happening "Babe I've got like literally 20 minutes to lift off, how's things?"
"Hectic and that's just our friends I've been dealing with the Klaine situation earlier this afternoon"
"Yeah he called me but I was in rehearsals, is everything okay there I miss you all so much?"
"Everything is sorted for next week so we'll be there, I can't wait" she said excitedly "This past year's just been hectic I feel like we've been in the same place for maybe 2 full weeks this year"
"Exaggeration babe, we've been together 7 weeks this year and about 6 weekends"
"I hear you babe, holiday we'll speak to Agents and get some serious time booked yeah?"
"I like the sound of that, but babe I need some serious us time in there somewhere"
"That's what I'm talking about"
"I love you" he said as someone in the background echoed his conversation "Do you mind I'm talking to my wife" he told them
"I'm sorry I didn't know you were married" the female voice came back
"Well there's no real reason for you to know is there?" he asked, turning back to his phone "Babe sorry about that kiss the children for me and what's my song?"
"Eerrm maybe 'For The Love Of You' by Whitney Houston my favourite artist of all time, for my man, what time are you finished?
"About 9 p.m. I'm guessing your time, why?" he asked
"I'll call you and sing it then I need something, I love you babe"
"I love you more babe" he said "Sorry to rush you on but they're calling me, speak at 3 then yeah, well 9 for you? Bye"
"Bye babe" she said blowing him a kiss before closing the call down
Back Together Again
"Mercy, thank you so much Diva for your advice I told him and if anything it's made us stronger" Kurt said down the phone "You always know the right thing to do and I love you for that" he carried on
"Kurt I was just the listening ear you two did that yourselves" she said "Sweet I got to go I'm getting another call, bye"
"Bye Diva speak to you soon" Kurt said with a kiss through the phone
Mercy clicked the phone to receive the next call "Hello Blaine, I know, it's all sorted and you're in love again"
"He did not tell you we've been in bed all afternoon?" Blaine said through the phone
"No you did" she said laughing "But I guessed from the tone in his voice, no shame in loving Blaine"
"Yeah I know you and Sam have no problem with PDA" he said laughing "Anyway I just called to say thank you, I think you should get paid for your skills girl never ending" he said
"When I decide a fee I'll get back to you on that" Mercy said laughing "Glad to hear the world of Klaine is once again tingay (Truth)" she said through her laugh
"You two and that speak, does it turn him on or something?" Blaine asked
"I tell you things like that and I leave us wide open Klaine, I'll never tell" she said laughing "Bye" she said alerting him to the end of the conversation
"Bye Diva and thanks again" he said before putting the phone down
As promised Sam called Mercy after the show, she sung her song to him, followed by a rather x-rated phone conversation and both fell asleep satisfied
The Next Day
"Egg on my fucking face and all you find to do is laugh bringing me right back to that car park back in Lima and somehow I see that your just as evil now as you were then" Rachel shouted at Jessie as she threw her belongings in her suitcase
"You know it wasn't meant like that hon, come on unpack, you have a show to do tonight" Jessie said
"Really? you think I'm going back up there after that, it's not going to happen Jess, I told you it was a crap script but no, you wanted to see me with egg on my face, you did, but you'll never see that on me again" Rachel said dragging her case off the bed out the room and down the stairs as Jessie watched
He was in shock when she actually walked through the front door and shut it. He stood for a while waiting for her to come back but, after a minute she didn't and when he went to the door to check where she was he saw the dust from her car on the drive "Where the fuck has she gone?" he asked himself with a smile on his face disbelieving what just happened. 2 Hours later and he'd started to think maybe he should take this serious he called Kurt "dude is Rachel at yours?" he asked Kurt
"Jess we're in Lima just having a few days out you know only decided today, making up like, why don't you know where your wife is?" Kurt asked
"You know how she gets when she gets that proverbial bee in her bonnet"
"Well I know how she gets when her husband fucks her off" Kurt said "What did you do?"
"Technically I did nothing, she got egged during the show"
"Oh so you beat someone up and she left you for that?" Kurt asked "Let her go, fuck that" he carried on to say laughing "Rachel with egg on again, that must have been hilarious" Kurt finished
"Well she didn't think so"
"Jess; tell me you didn't laugh right there in front of her face with all this going on"
"You couldn't help it" Jessie said laughing
"But I wasn't in her face Jess and, I'm not her husband you know the one who supports her no matter what?" Kurt said still laughing "Sorry I can't help with this, it's got to come from you" he said through his laugh before saying his goodbyes and shutting the call down.
Jessie didn't know what else to do he put out a sapp call for his wife to the family 'Where is my wife?' it simply said
'Is this a joke?' came back from Mike
'Nearest shopping mall' came back from Santana
'At home' came back from Artie making a joke about the fact she's never there
'Teaching the Glee Club at McKinley' Quinn wrote
'Who was right?' Sam asked
'Me silly, she's on stage in some NYC theatre production' Blaine wrote
'Stop all your crap she's doing another sit com, you know she never surfaces until disaster has hits' Tina wrote
'She's at the gym wasting away some more' Brittany wrote
'Don't know' Mercy wrote 'You all ain't right, the man is worried'
'Thanks for the comments NOT, except Mrs Evans thank you really, sapp me if you see her' Jessie wrote
The next evening Mercy had a knock at the door on opening it she saw Rachel standing there obviously crying but holding it in as best she could, with bags and a suitcase. "Rachel" she said more in sympathy than anything else
"He laughed at me when they egged me again and that was just the very last straw for me" she said dropping the bags and hugging into Mercy at the door. Mercy said nothing just held her while she cried wondering when she had become the agony aunt for the GF,
"It's definitely a week for family feuds" she said as she slowly moved Rachel off her to move towards the living room to sit down "The children are still up so I'm going to have to settle them before we can get into anything" she told Rachel before going back into the living room
"Can I come with you it might help?"
"Yeah if you think so but the first sign of cracking and I want you out, the children don't need to go to sleep on that" Mercy warned
"Fine" Rachel said following her up the stairs and into the children's rooms
Corbin was a song and a book straight forward really and Rachel got into the singing thing real easy "I'll tell you the story about the Wiz shall I?" Rachel asked to a nodding Corbin with a smile on his face and once asleep Mercy went in and kissed him goodnight.
Jada was a slow burner always needed to know what was going on around her and why, so there were no moving toys or book activities for her everything had to come from Mommy or Daddy's mouth along with the secure hold and she loved her songs so you needed a good stock of them for her bedtime ritual.
By 11pm Rachel and Mercy were sitting having had dinner, with a glass of wine and ready to talk "So what happened?" Mercy asked, before sitting listening to Rachel tell her about the whole embarrassing incident with the new play and how she felt, what Jessie did and how she ran away. When she finished Mercy asked "So you refuse to have fun in your relationship anymore then?"
"What do you mean fun he made me a laughing stock"
"If that had happened to anyone else you'd have been laughing you head off girl and don't tell me different"
"Yeah I might have, but it was me and I felt, I don't know, vulnerable"
"So why is it alright to take out on Jessie the way you felt about yourself at the time?"
"It's not I guess, I overreacted is that what I'm hearing?"
"Is that what you're thinking?" Mercy asked taking her phone out
"I think I need to go back home"
'She's here but she'll be on her way back home tomorrow after our talk' Mercy wrote on the chat and sent it out
'Thank you for whatever you said' Jessie sapped back
"Rachel your husband is going crazy looking for you, contact him"
"Yeah I guess he would be, I saw his sapp earlier but didn't want to give him the satisfaction"
"And that's the making of a healthy relationship?" Mercy asked as her phone pinged
Sam: 'poor baby' he sapped making her smile
"No it's a don't fuck with me response, and I know you know what those are you've given me enough of those over the years" she said laughing
"Seriously Rachel are you happy I mean truly happy with Jessie?"
"I guess I am yeah"
"There's uncertainty in there and you need to figure out why girl and be true to yourself otherwise, you're always going to be looking for ways out"
"It's not a way out I know I want to be with him, it's just Finn creeps in sometimes and I know he's gone and everything but sometimes it doesn't stop me measuring Jessie up to him you know"
"I get some of that but girl Finn wasn't the perfect person you paint him to be and you know that, that was some game he played with Quinn and you at the beginning and I loved him but girl he had his flaws just like Jessie has his, you can't be blaming him for not being what you've thought up in your head what Finn would be, had he been here today" Mercy said pausing to catch breath "All I'm saying is Jessie's a cool guy, see him for who he is and not who you want him to be" she said stopping to think "I swear I sung a song with those words in at School" she laughed
"I know your right Mercedes but, it's going to take time" Rachel replied
"Girl it's going to take a conversation first, with your husband, he needs to know you've got all this going on it's not fair if you don't tell him"
"I know your right it's just a can of worms I'm not sure I'm ready to open"
"Girl it's already open and affecting your life with your husband sort it out quick"
"Yeah I'll have tonight then first thing tomorrow I'll call me a cab before I lose my nerve" Rachel said getting her phone out to book the two hour flight back to New York to speak to her husband
Jessie & Rachel Conversation
Rachel got off the plane in New York and took a deep breath she was about to enter unchartered territory with Jessie, they had spoken about Finn before many times but as someone that was significant in her past, not someone she'd brought along as a third party to their marriage and she was very unsure of how he'd react. She was even more shocked to see Jessie standing waiting for her at the exit once she cleared customs.
"What are you doing here?" she asked
"Mercy called and told me which flight you were on I thought we could talk somewhere neutral" he said grabbing her bags "I'm really sorry by the way the very last thing I want to do is offend you" he said as they walked to her car "Are you okay to drive or shall I?" he asked as he loaded the bags in the boot
"Drive if you want, I'll talk" she said "You won't be able to react then" she laughed nervously
"Let's stop over there" he said pointing to a hotel attached to the airport "We can eat too" he smiled as he got in the car and took the short journey to the hotel, where he booked a table and got seated before any of them even thought about making small talk.
"So can I go first" Jessie said once they'd ordered their food
"Sure" Rachel said making Jessie take a breath this was definitely a first
"Okay" Jessie said as their starters arrived, and they thanked the waiter "So I really didn't think, I just reacted and if I'm honest I was more nervous than anything, I really didn't mean to laugh at you I was laughing at the situation it just so happened it was you that was in it, and to be fair any other time you would have been laughing too" he said stopping to gage her reaction when he saw nothing he carried on "Anyway I really need to say I'm sorry from the heart, I really didn't mean to make you feel the way you felt and if it's any consolation I feel like crap"
"I would have found it funny at any other time Jess your right so I need to say sorry too" she replied "My truth is a bit more complicated, even I didn't imagine this until Mercedes helped me look into myself"
"I know I'm ready for this, I've been expecting it for a while"
"For what?" Rachel asked "have you spoken to Mercedes?"
"No but I know there's been something holding you back for a while now, if you've found out what that is we can start to deal with it" Jessie explained as their main courses turned up
"This place is fast" Rachel said looking up at the waiter "Well yeah I know what it is but I don't think you're going to like it" she said once the waiter walked away "Finn" she said as Jessie rolled his eyes, more in relief than disgust "I think I just keep measuring you against him and I've put him on this freaking imaginary pedestal and I need to deal with shit and get my life back on track. The one thing I'm sure of in all of this is that I love you, and I mean you Jessie St James not some made up Finn version of you. This is learnt behaviour and if I learned it I can unlearn it all I ask is that you have patience with me and keep reminding me when I do it to stop" she said looking up from her food, of which she had eaten nothing.
"Rachel honesty; I measure myself against the man sometimes too, you told me a long time ago you loved him more, you've never told me you didn't love me, I hold on to that and I'm comfortable in the fact that you've only ever loved two men Finn and me. Don't get me twisted I know if he were still around I'd be history, but I also know that had it been the other way round and it was me that wasn't here you'd be sitting there measuring him up against a rose coloured version of me" he said smiling "Believe me Finn talks to me every day; treat her right, he's always saying and God knows I'd be doing the same to him if it were me"
"So where do we go from here?" she asked
"All over the place according to our man Finn" Jessie said laughing making Rachel laugh too "Finn was a really cool guy I really don't mind being measured against him it's a high bar but I strive to keep up to it, it means where your concerned, it keeps me on my toes"
Sam & Mercy's Conversation
"She's gone then?" Sam asked as soon as Mercy answered the phone
"Yeah she's gone back to Jessie"
"You sound tired babe are you all packed ready for lift off today?"
"Yeah but I think the first thing I need to do is sleep I've had a bitch of a day at the studio, then getting the children off to sleep last night was extra-long because Rachel asked to help, she was alright before you start, then the Stberry drama and no love from my husband" she said with a sulk
"Hey you know that shit is never ending don't go there" he said laughing "So what was Rachel's beef?"
"Thinking about Finn instead of Jessie I guess, wanting Jess to measure up to Finn all the time, but I think she's nailed it now"
"Babe I'll call you back in a bit got this meeting to see to, give me like an hour yeah?"
"Okay an hour, you call me"
"Yeah I will Bye Babe love you"
"Bye babe love you more" Mercy said before putting the phone down
Back Together Again
7pm Mercy got a call "Mercedes thank you so much for that, I've been wanting to broach that subject with Rachel for some time now only because I felt Finn was a major player in both our lives. She's trying to get me to live up to her expectations of him and I'm trying to live up to his expectations where she's concerned it's in the open now so thank you"
"Jess as long as you're in a good place that's all I'm concerned about and I'm glad you two finally talked maybe Sam and I can stop being the middle men now" she laughed
"Wait up Rachel wants a word and thanks again Merc bye"
"Bye Jess"
"Mercedes thank you so much for listening to me I mean, with our history it might have been just the right time for you to turn me away and everything but, you didn't you were a true friend and I love you for that"
"No problem girl just keep being a true friend to Jessie and everything will be alright" Mercy said laughing
"You're flying out yourself later yeah?"
"Yeah, me and the children going to meet up with Sam"
"Safe journey and I'll let you get off you'll need some sleep; bye"
"Bye Rachel" Mercy said and put the phone down smiling about the events of the day
An hour later Sam called as he'd promised "Are you charging for all this counselling stuff babe?" Sam asked when she picked up
"Not yet but I'm definitely charging you for all these nights I sleep alone lover" she said with a cheeky laugh in her voice
"I'm fully charged babe, just being patient and that sleep you talked about you need to go get a nap tonight, not guaranteed for tomorrow babe" he said not laughing
"I hear that, is it your song babe?"
"Yep I've got a little gem from back in the day for you 'Baby Be My Love Song' by Easton Corbin" he laughed as he started singing
"I'll be whatever song you want me to be babe you know that" Mercy said laughing, when he finished
"I was more keyed into you being my all night long, you'll be here in the morning singing those notes I love to hear you sing, you know the ones babe" he said excited
"Tomorrow" Mercy said excitedly "Don't babe I'll get no sleep on the flight, I'm travelling with our children later with just one Nanny so no rest for me"
"Okay truce" he said laughing
"As soon as I get there we send the sapp out yeah?"
"Yep you got that don't even have to remind me" Sam said laughing "babe get some sleep on the flight, I'm on in fifteen but, I need you to be okay for tomorrow so go, goodnight and I love you and our children"
"I love you more babe, goodnight" she said putting the phone down