Confused

Do you love me? Do you wish
We could be together and still
In love forever.

Do you ever just wonder just
Wonder exactly how I feel about
You.

5 years we've been together. And
Never, I mean never was there a
moment I've felt that you were
Not the one . The one that I'd
Always love and care for.

But Today I saw you in her arms
With this look on your face as if
You love her. Like she made you feel
A way how no one else has. How I
haven't.

Why? Why every time I come close to
You .You just push me away like I don't
Matter .Why can't you just let me love you?
Why! I'm screaming in my loud in my head
But my lips won't move.

It's raining now hopefully the rain well cleanse
Me but it doesn't .Here standing in the rain I Just feel
drained and …. CONFUSED.