I like spending my sundays by the riverbank. It feels nice having the river breeze flow through my hair and watching the sun reflect off the water. It gives me time to think, time to realize what i want out of life here; living in Inaba. There really isn't anything to do; work at Junes while my dad yells at me, go to school where King Moron yells at me, go into the tv where everyone yells at me, or hates my jokes or whatever. I threw a pebble and it skipped on the water, causing ripples to fade in and out. I wonder if Yu-senpai does this to relax. He seems like the quiet type, or rather is the quiet type. He doesn't let anything bother him, he's a great leader, he can use multiple personas, theres nothing not to like about him.
Ever sense Yu came around life here has gotten better for me. Chie has stopped annoying me as much (and fallen for him), Yukiko has become more talktative and less introverted (and fallen for him), Rise has grown used to living without the fame (and fallen for him), and Naoto is accepting herself (while falling for him). Kanji has toned down considerablly and less reckless (cause of him), and Teddy is feeling less empty (cause of him). Everything good happenes cause of Yu I guess.
I walked into the shopping district on my way home. The sun began to fade as shops closed early. The bright orange on the horizon was beautiful, giving the usually dead district some life. My footsteps became less heavy, proably because I wasn't thinking of how useless I am...
I mean, face it; no one in my family wants me, no one in school wants me. No one at Junes wants me unless I solve there shit, cause i'm the owners son. My friends don't want me, no one here in Inaba wants me...I mean, maybe someone...
I stop by the shrine. The up-keep here has been amazing; they re-did the paint and gave it a new offering table. It really looks beautiful. I saw the fox hiding in the shadows. Maybe if I was Yu he'd come out and talk, but I'm not. I'm Yosuke. I'm nothing like Yu. I'm not as good of a leader, i'm not a good team mate, i'm not good at anything...I left a small offering before leaving.
It got dark quickly as i walked slowly to the beat of my heart. One step to one beat, another step to the next beat. Only street lights were on now, and the faint light given by the incoming stars. I told my parents i'd be out till dark, so they shouldn't have a problem with me being out this late. I mean, my mom is out of town, and dad already left for business. I'm usually home alone, but tonight it seemed different. It seemed like the tone and atmosphere was deeper, like i was really alone...like no one wanted me. These thoughts clouded my head till i reached my front door and opened to an even darker home.
No lights were on, like my parents forgot someone else besides them lived here. I went immediately upstairs to my room, a little bed in the corner, a TV, and open space. I saw that my mom left dinner ready but it was cold, so I left it alone. I fell onto my bed, the sheets sucking me in. I wanted to sleep but i felt my phone ring. I saw that it was a text...from Yu. I didn't panic but i felt shocked he would even text me. I mean, the investigation was over, he didn't need to anymore.
"wanna hang out?"
I replied,
"when"
Almost immediately i saw he replied with
"now"
I toke a look at the clock above my Tv to see it was about 9:30.
"you sure?"
"yeah, dojima took nanako out on a mini vacation to spend time with her alone. they wont be back till Tuesday."
I didn't know what to respond back with, i felt a rush of anxiety. What should i do? I never felt this way when texting or even talking to him.
"how bout I come over?"
I toke a second look at the text. Could he come over? I mean, i don't mind, but why would he ask? My fingers started to type, and sent
"sure"
What did I just do? Why does he want to hang with me this late at night? What business could he possibly have with-
"great :) ill be there at like 10"
He sent a smile...why do I feel my heart race? It's just an emoticon, maybe he just wanted to send it. You know, to be friendly. I mean, he was always nice to me...and i always liked it when we hung out at Junes to solve the murders. He doesn't have to do that anymore though...he doesn't have to be there for me...or even with me.
I restlessly looked at the clock. With each passing minute i felt my heart beat quicker, and sweat starting to form. It wasn't hot but the thought of being alone with Yu was...what? I don't want to be alone with Yu no! He's just a friend I thought. A really amazing friend...someone i don't want to let go off...someone who makes living here less like hell and more like heaven...
I toke a moment to breath and then...it was 10.
"im here :)"
There's that emoticon again...maybe he really is bored. Maybe he just wants to watch a movie..yeah thats it! Walking down the stairs i kept saying that to myself, and also wondered why he knew where I lived. I remembered he came over one time for a project King Moron assiagned and then made it due the next day. But, that project was back like months ago...how could he remember? I mean...how can anyone remember anything I do...
I forgot to turn on a light downstairs so i was welcomed to a dark abyss of what i'm supposed to call home. I turned on the dinning room light just to give the floor itself some life. I walked to open the front door and I see Yu standing there, and I freeze. He did come over...he does want to spend time with me...why?...
"Hey Yosuke! Can I come in?"
"Sure..." I said, my words trailing off as i let Yu enter, and hesitantly walked him up to my room; shutting the dinning room light off, leaving the first floor in the darkness i was used to.