ah, emo Edward is emo. I had forgotten I even wrote this. This was written months ago in a bit of a depression episode.

This takes place during New Moon while Edward was off trying out is mad tracking skillz.

Enjoy! RR

I ran uncaringly past the semibarren landscape, jumping over fences as they got in my way. Even running couldn't lift my subterranean spirits. The air was warmer and drier than were I wanted to be, but I pushed that out of my mind. I needed to do this, I felt my lip pull up over my teeth and a growl start in my chest as I thought her name. Victoria. I had only one purpose in my life; to keep my love, my Bella, safe. Even thought that means that I couldn't be with her. Victoria had to pay for her part in endangering her life nearly a year ago now.

The sight of pink on the horizon made me stop in my tracks. Morning again. Great. I had to find somewhere to hid during the day. If I had been farther away from any cities or towns I might not have bothered, but I couldn't risk running down these farm and market roads in full sunlight, and there were no trees around to offer any real cover. Grrr. Why would she come here? The last place a vampire would want to be is in this dry, cloudy-for-only-ten-days-out-of-the-year, west Texas. Sure there are a far few around, but having to stay locked up during the day for so many years has effected them in ways that their northern cousins weren't.

I laughed bitterly to myself. When I get close enough to hear her reasoning behind why she came here, I won't care. I will be too busy making sure she never hurt anyone again.

Luck it seemed be on my side, even if it was only to mock me. Is it really lucky to find somewhere were you can go to pieces for a few hours? I looked at the old burned out shell of a barn that happened to be in the same field that I had just walked into. My breathing was ragged, thought of course the run hadn't tired me at all. This was going to be a particularly bad day. I could feel it in the way the emptiness in my chest started to spread fiercely.

I would have to wait until dusk to resume my searching. Until then all I could do was sit here and accept what was in store for me. I pulled my leg up to myself and rested my head on my knees. Trying to prepare myself for what I knew was to come. There was no preparation I could make, though. The familiarity of the pain did not lessen it's affect. It shook through me, making my breath come in gasps.

"Oh, Bella. I pray I am doing the right thing for you." I moaned into my knees before my body grew perfectly still and I surrendered to dark waves that would drown me in my own head…

Wasn't that fun? I have another version of this where it goes into his mind durring the day. If I get reviews asking for it I'll post it as a second chapter.