SO MUCH A LIKE
Don't how to show what is going on in my world of chaos to never to
know how to handle it. Don't know how to show my feeling to you, how I really feel. Leaving me to feel alone in the darkness of your words. Too a fear to show myself that is so deep inside to be shatter… You neglect me in so ways I hurt inside all the time …That's a reason I put a front to show that I won't deal with anything that you throw at me. Try so hard to defend myself from hateful words that shatter my heart to piece... Never knowing when anything happens, till it destroys everything that was dear, to only be slam back down to the ground and get step over again by your doing. To only feel love for about a minute, to be broken by the very person you trust and give your heart within those seconds, to crash it in front of my very eyes…I wonder over and over in my mind of disbelieve 'So, is this really me? The hopeless and the lonely that will take no risk to feel so I would not get broken by the very one nears to me'… You damn me to eternity with you the Killer, the Breaker, the Backstabber... Like the master and slave...
So the facts are true there is no happiness for me in the end…
The slave...