Author`s note: So, finally! My very first try to write a SS/HG fanfic. I hope you`ll enjoy and I`d love to have a lot of reviews so that there`s something that keeps me going. Since english is not my first language I excuse myself right away for the mistakes I might have done and will do. Thanks a lot to LuSa for beta-reading and I recommend to you strongly to read her fic "The heir of ice" which is a Draco/Ginny one but there might be some SS/HG in the later chapters…..
Disclaimer: Hey, it`s kind of strange to write NOT Paramount, cause up to now I only wrote Star Trek Fanfic, so this is new. Of course everything belongs to the wonderful J.K. Rowling and though I hope the characters are not too much OOC, it`s all my imagination!!!
Almost lost
By TheonewhoseducesSnape
Prologue:
Once again the pain began to rise in his chest, but he did not feel it any longer. Though he could remember a time where it still had hurt…he longed to have that time back. He lay there on his back, very far from being comfortable. Always the sarcastic one, aren`t you? He smirked although there was really nothing which one would consider amusing… no, it was far away from that. The Smirk only caused that the dark lord was getting even more angry with him and once again Snape could here the all too familiar word "Crutio!". At times he thought that the curse was made especially for him as a punishment. A punishment for all the mistakes he had made in his life and while there where several ones there was only one he could never forgive to himself. Letting her die, for she was all the hope that was left in him. Now she was gone. Life was meaningless and it would never make sense again without her. Coming to this relization he closed his eyes and then the unbelievable thing happen. There was a tear, one single tear , escaping out of those incredible dark eyes, dark eyes who once were so special to her.It was roling down his face and suddenly dissapeared and the moment was gone as fast as it came. It is too late! A voice within him whispered, this won` t bring her back to life either. In a short moment he started to reflect on his past. No, there really wasn`t anything he could be proud of, only maybe the thing that he had had the chance to love this woman, though he was not worth it one second. He ruined her. If it wasn`t for him she would have been married by now, probably to this Weasley boy. What did he care for? But there it was the slight mistake, he did care. With her it was different than with his brief relationships before. Infact it was only a small difference, but that made all the world: He loved her. Oh yes, Severus Snape, the cruel, unscrupulous, sarcastic, former Death Eater….he could go on like this forever but it would not make any difference, he had loved her. And he still did. Gosh, he would love her forever. He could not forgive himself for letting himself love her and moreover be loved in return.
Suddenly he could see her, there she was running towards him. Great, now he even has started to halluzinate. A sudden darkness embraced him and then there was nothing. Absolutly nothing.