Behind Enemy Lines
Why am I doing this?
The question surprised me for I had always been sure of why I had to do this. James was murdered by these people. I had to teach them a lesson. That worthless, pathetic human had to die. It was the only way. James was everything good in this world. He was kind and sweet but also strong and brave. He was everything I needed him to be. He was my everything.
She had taken that away from me. She had lost me everything. They had lost me everything. After all, she was just a human, a toy. Why did they kill James, one of their own, just so that she, a mere mortal, could live for a little longer? She would die at some point anyway, she wouldn't live forever unless changed and that was clearly not their intention. I was merely speeding up the inevitable.
Laurent had been killed as well, not by them but still because of her. She'd brought on the death of two immortals and been the reason behind countless arguments. If anyone deserved to die, she did. So why was I suddenly questioning my motives? Why wasn't I sure that I wanted to continue? Why was this world so confusing? Why did they have to die? Why did he have to die?
I shook my head. I was overanalyzing things. It was really, very simple. She had to die. That was the only fact that really mattered at all. Everything came to an end and that was all I wanted: closure.
I deserved closure, James deserved closure, Laurent deserved closure. We deserved closure. Didn't we? I wasn't as sure as I once was. But didn't everyone deserve some closure? Maybe I was just over-thinking again. Or maybe I did deserve an ending but just not this way.
Ugh, I slammed my fist into the nearest tree, succeeding in splitting it in half. The top half flew through the air before crashing into another tree and falling to mossy ground. I glared angrily at the offensive plants.
I had been around for a while now. I had watched as everything I knew changed and disappeared. I could hardly remember my human life. I had never tried to. After all, humans are pointless and stupid; therefore my human life had been pointless and stupid. Now I wish I had tried harder to remember. But I hadn't in so long that now; when I tried to recall my past life I came up blank. It angered me that I couldn't win this fight against my own mind.
I almost wanted to stop all of this now. To just go home and try to move on with my life. I could never do that now though. It was too late. I was in too deep.
A certain smell brought me out of my thoughts. I inhaled deeply. I was sure now; it was her and her mate. I was out of time to think, which might have been a good thing. Either way, it was now or never. I quickly decided now and ran impossibly fast towards the distinctive scent.
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