Authour note
love thirteen reasons why and fell in love with the book way before the tv show. I'm also new to fanfiction so would love your thoughts and tips. Warning there may be trigger warnings within this story so take care.
Chapter 1
After the tapes and everyones confessions. The small town turned gohstly in shock. While everyone else was living their own twisted lives carelesly. Clay couldn't help but live in the pain that hannah left him in. He knew now of her pain and everything that happend. His only wish was to have her back. It was impossible he knew that.
Just then a knock hit his door it was as light as a feather. "come in" he mumbled still filled with thoughts of hannah Tony walked in with his feet gliding the floor like a bird. "hey Clay you coming school today?" Tony's voice was filled with concern for his best friend. Tony also saw Clay lost in his thoughts of the one girl clay ever truly loved.
"Not going today Tony" Clay said sadly laying back on to his bed as the world passed poorly by. Tony was begining to feel annoyed with Clay. For spending all his time locked in his bedroom with lights off. Which made feeling the burning scars of what hannah left behined much easier to feel.
"you can't spend your whole life locked inside your own thoughts Clay" Clay replied with nothing but a deep breath of silence. This left Tony empty and alone. Trailing out of the room while leaving footsteps behined Tony left with a few more hollowed words of advice. "You can't exsist in your thoughts,but you can live out of them" With those words Tony left. Leaving clay to step out of bed for the first time in ages.
Each foot touched the floor like rocks crumbling down a broken bulding. his lips reamained cracked with dryness. From not drinking as his tummy made a noise of hunger. Throwing on clothes and a pair of navy blue trainers he dared to leave his prison. Only takeing his bag and wallet.
Starting to feel more alive he drank coffee,munched on cereal and walked out of the silent home. Both of Clay's parents were on holiday so he had a house to himself. They said they needed time alone and Trusted Clay to not throw partys or get in trouble. Which after everything felt like a miraclal to Clay himself.
With all of the courage and bravery he allowed himself to breath. Grabbing the keys and turning off the lights he left to walk out of the house for the first time in what felt like ages. Although the sky looked grey and no birds were singing. Clay decided to smile for hannah and for his life.
Suprisingly Tony didn't leave Clay's car park. Beeping the horn Clay jumped seeing the mustang in perfect condition. Jumping in next to Tony he said "How did yo know I would come" his voice filled with curiosty. "Beacuse I know who you are Clay" with those words Tony started the engine and drove towards school.
Walking through the halls felt wierd to Clay. Everyone knew who he was now. He didn't like the stares of other people burnig the back of his neck. Clay saw faces he wish he would never see again.
Bryce was against his locker still looking smug. Somehow he escaped going into jail. Which left his skin crawling all over the place. Skye was there walking towards him. They were now back to being close friends.
"Hey Clay" Skye said wrapping them both in a hug. "why isn't Bryce in jail" Clay's voice shiverd in fear. "The tapes couldn't be used as evidence and other law stuff". Clay's hands formed into fists trying to hold on to his anger as much as possible. Skye made him carry on walking. "Clay alot has changed,it's helathy to move on from this all of it" Sky's voice ratteld violently in Clay's mind. How could she say that after everything that happend. This was not like skye and maybe things have changed. But the fact still remained hannah was still dead beacuse of the people on the tapes.