If I die young
What's up my peoples! This is my second fanfic but my first fic for TVD, my other one is for Book VD it's Bamon of course. And to the people who read 'Three years ago today' I'll try to update that soon! My inspiration for this song is 'If I die young' by The Band Perry I advise you to listen to the song when the lyrics come up. Thank you in advance for reading I might make this into a full blown story if y'all want!
Sometimes Bonnie wondered what it'd be like when she dies. She never thought much about death until she found out she was a witch, until she had a sneaking suspicion that she'd die young. It scared her at first so she never thought much about it… until now. Now Bonnie was expected to die in only a day and it scared her, she knew in her mind that this was the right thing to do. But her heart and soul screamed 'run as fast as you can! You're too young to die!'
It hurt a lot that the only person who's been over to see her for personal reasons was Jeremy, everyone else came to talk about battle strategies and the spells they needed done. When he wasn't here she only had her internet and I-pod, and now she was on youtube singing to a certain song that seemed to fit well with her situation.
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a, bed of roses
Sink me in the river, at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
Uh oh, uh oh
Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother The sharp knife of a short life, well The sharp knife of a short life, well And I'll be wearing white, when I come into your kingdom The sharp knife of a short life, well, So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls If I die young, bury me in satin Uh oh (uh, oh) The sharp knife of a short life, well So put on your best boys and I'll wear my pearls
She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby
I've had just enough time
If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
I've had just enough time
I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger,
I've never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand,
There's a boy here in town who says he'll love me forever,
Who would have thought forever could be severed by
I've had just enough time
What I never did is done
A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell them for a dollar
They're worth so much more after I'm a goner
And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin'
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin'
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
The ballad of a dove (uh, oh)
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket
Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh
I've had just enough time
Yea, she wanted her death to be something like that, but instead she'd die painfully; with blood leaking out of her nose and mentally begging to die. Then they'd have a small funeral for her because no one could know about her death. A few years' later people around town would ask 'were that quite Bennett girl went'. They'd shrug there shoulders and get on with life, the end.
Bonnie sung that song until she knew the words, until the more Bonnie thought about it the more depressed she got. "Why do I have to die? Why couldn't I have been a normal girl with a normal life and marry a normal guy and have normal kids and die old?" Bonnie asked to her self, although she got a few response from the witches, they felt sympathy for her but most noticeably was Emily, the house was shaking with her anger.
Bonnie sighed as she started to sing the song again and Bonnie wished she had had just enough time to live, she also wondered if she should put on white too. That's when Bonnie decided to change the song as she wiped the tears off her face. Bonnie didn't know that Damon had been there for the past half hour, listening to her thoughts, listening to her sad cracking voice, and watching her cry.
He didn't hate Bonnie, and he only liked her a little, but apparently that was enough for him to care about her, if only a little. Now she was singing some Katy Perry song about getting drunk and not remembering anything. Damon was sure that was suppose to be lighthearted but when she sung it she sounded sad. She didn't seem to notice that Mystic Falls was having one of the worst storms they've ever seen in a decade, or that the flames from the candles where high enough to set fire to the ceiling
Suddenly the door he was standing behind flew open and Bonnie whirled around whipping her face –thanks Emily!-. "Damon? What are you doing here?" Damon frowned after hearing her thoughts about how they only ever stop by was for spells, he knew he couldn't ask her to do another one –which was the reason he was over here-. "I just wanted to see how you were holding up."
When he sat down next to Bonnie, she frowned and scooted away from him. "And why do you care?" It sounded harsh and Bonnie sighed and ran a hand throw her hair. "I'm sure it's hard huh? Being expected to die for your best friend." Bonnie's frown deepened. Her mind was screaming 'of course not, this is the right thing to do' but her heart and soul was screaming 'finally someone who understands how hard it is'.
Damon realized she was different from the girl who faked her death last week, last week she was putting it all on the line for Elena. But it seemed like now that she had time to think she was hesitating, like thought of dieing young and painfully was finally scaring some sense into her. Damon could see the inner battle going on inside her head. One voice was screaming this was the right thing to do, and the other voice was screaming at her to back out while she still can and if the others don't agree then screw them.
This was the first time Damon pitied her, this was also the first time that Damon realized that on the inside Bonnie wasn't the tough, powerful, righteous woman she acted like. On the inside she was just a scared, lonely little girl who was going to die before she even turned 18. Before she even got to experience life yet, she realized that she was going to die for a girl who hadn't stopped by not once, for a girl who didn't even bother to call or text her and it scared the hell out of her.
"Do you want to die?" His question shocked her and she stared at him with wide green eyes and parted pink lips. "Ummm I have to die." Damon shook his head and stared her in the eyes. "Tell me if you want to die, if you're ready for this?" Bonnie turned away and stared at the candles, when Damon looked her in the eye and asked her that question it made Bonnie want to do something stupid.
It made her want to burst into tears, it made her want to curl up into a ball and disappear until the sacrifice ritual is over. She took a deep breath and tried to call on tough powerful righteous Bonnie who could say 'yea I'm ready for this. Bonnie wasn't going to admit the truth and then beg him to find another way –one that didn't evolve her dieing thank you-, but she wasn't going to lie and tell him she was ready. All she did was bite her lip to stop it from trembling, but to Damon it was like she was screaming 'no'.
"There's another way Bonnie." Damon said as he got up and began to pace, while Bonnie let out a hysterical laugh that only the really crazy people could do. "There is no other way Damon, what did you think I was doing in this room 24/7, playing video games?" Bonnie spent countless nights getting no sleep at all looking for other ways to come out of this alive. As far as she knew the only was she could come back after the fight was vampire style.
"Elijah said if you could weaken Klaus enough then he could finish him off himself." Bonnie frowned and leaned away from Damon with a disgusted look on her face. "Do you believe that?" Bonnie asked, why the hell would they trust someone who tried to kill them all? "Yes." Bonnie frowned as she mulled it over in her head.
She didn't know that Damon had just lied through his teeth but he had too. Looking at the small fragile girl in front of him who was one small push away from rocking her self like a lunatic, he realized that he didn't believe Elijah, but that didn't mean he didn't want to believe him.
"Soooo… I'll live?" She stared up at him with big wide hopeful green eyes and parted pink lips -Damon could tell that look was going to get her anything she wanted from him- He gulped and nodded. "Yup, Judegy your gonna be o.k., I'll make sure of it."
Bonnie smiled and sighed in relief, she didn't know why Damon out of all people was here with her, and she didn't know why Damon off all people was trying to comfort her. But he was here with her and he seemed to wash away all her doubts. Pretty soon she fell asleep on the inflatable mattress Jeremy had brought over, and pretty soon after that she was having sweet dreams about a blue eyed vampire kisses.
"Was it wise to lie to her Damon?" Damon frowned and turned around to face Emily. "No, but I meant that last part, I'll make sure that she'll be o.k.." Emily stared at him long and hard before a amused smirk appeared on her face and a mischievous glint appeared in her eyes. "I'll hold you to that Damon take care… and don't let the werewolves bite."
Damon frowned and walked towards the door –what the hell was with that bit about werewolves- he stopped and turned around to face Bonnie, who turned over moaning something about more. He smirked, she didn't look like tough, powerful, righteous Bonnie, she looked like sweet, happy, carefree Bonnie, the Bonnie he hadn't seen sense he first arrived in town.
The end! Please review and tell me what ya think! I couldn't help but make Emily give Damon a hint there with the wolf bite, it seemed like something she would do to repay the debt sense Damon was trying to comfort Bonnie and keep her safe! Well peace, love, and gap! XD