Hey! This is my First Oc Fiction. I've Always been a true fan of The Marissa/Ryan Ship always! So I thought I'd write a fiction in memory of the O.c! Tear! I'll always miss it! So tell me what you guys think, hopefully you like it and if you do I'll continue.
Summary: What if Marissa hadn't been killed in the car accident? What if Ryan had another chance to show her what she meant to him? What if she couldn't remember him?
Chapter 1. Fallen Tears.
He let a silent tear fall down his face as he held her lifeless body in his arms, coaxing her gently to wake up, yet there was no movement.
It had been one year since Marissa's accident, and since then Ryan had come to this very same ward as he watched Marissa's thin face become even thinner, her face still holding the same reflection of death that most of the time he felt.
Her family had disagreed when the doctor suggested turning the life support off, shocked at the doctor's idea to kill such a young girl. But Ryan knew that meant there was little hope for Marissa; if not little, none.
Ryan had always been a pessimistic, but as the days went on, he had become a shadow of his former self. Even when he had to deal with the isolation from his own mother he had dealt with it, but when it came to the unknown of Marissa's future, their future he found it harder to deal with each day.
He contemplated if she had died would he have felt as much pain as he did now, and if there was a God, why wouldn't he take her to Paradise? Maybe he could take Ryan too.
A year ago Ryan sat at this bedside, with all the hope he had ever felt, now he sat at the same bedside with no hope, just fear of what would come next.
At first he wanted to kill Volchuck, but as days passed he realised Volchuck was probably already dead inside with the guilt, so he let him go.
He held her hand and kissed her cheek promising he would return tomorrow hoping she would hear him, still she made no movement.
He returned to the pool house and lay on his bed, a knock on the door made him wince, he didn't want company.
"Dude?"
He looked up; It was Seth, Ryan couldn't help but grin.
"What you been up to my man?" Seth asked although he already knew the answer.
Ryan shrugged "How's college going?"
Seth nodded "It's cool," he stopped and studied Ryan's face "You gotta let her go Man."
Ryan shook his head "If it was Summer."
"I'd let her go." Seth tapped Ryan's back signalling the end of the conversation "Let it go, Live your life."
Ryan was already in a temper, he snapped so easily lately.
"Never." Ryan's face turned red "You don't get it Seth." He hissed "You didn't even have a life before I came."
Seth looked shocked he raised his hands in defeat "Yeah.. Well.. Whatever dude."
And he left Ryan alone again in his pool house. Alone again.
He entered the ward that he become so familiar with he could see everything with his eye's shut, the green walls, the white tiles, so that's just what he did he shut his eyes.
He sat down on the brown chair beside her bedside, and opened his eyes, something had changed yet he couldn't tell, the floors and wall were the same, the old flowers, the bed sheets were still the plain white ones.
Then he realised, Marissa's expression had changed.
He jumped up in shock knocking the lily's beside him to the floor.
"Hello?" the sweet voice asked, the voice he had almost forgotten. "Hello?" the voice came again he pinched himself.
It definitely wasn't a dream.
"I'm here." he answered and Marissa's blue eyes opened, they were bigger now in contrast to her small face, and they glittered less.
"Where's Luke?" She asked with an expression of confusion, he didn't care she was confused all he cared was that she was there; awake.
"She's awake." He cried out the open the door, but nobody came rushing. He pressed the nurse button and seconds later one appeared in the doorway "What's wrong?" she asked.
"She's awake!" Ryan called his face beamed in pure happiness.
"I know." the nurse shook her head in amazement "She's been awake for a while now, Ryan. Nobody told you?"
Ryan shook his head, the nurse bit her lip "Come?" she asked him, he shook his head, He couldn't leave Marissa now, what if she fell back asleep, what if something worse happened.
"She's okay, I promise." The nurse assured knowing Ryan's desperate state.
He followed her out the room she shook her head "I don't know if I'm the one who should be telling you this, but , she woke up last night."
"And?" Ran asked wondering where she was going this remembering Marissa's sweet voice asking him where Luke was; Luke.
"She has a mild case of Amnesia."
"Amnesia?" Ryan asked trying to understand the full impact of the word.
"The last thing she remembers is the day she first met you."
"Me?" Ryan asked in shock.
The nurse nodded "I guess that was a special day."
She turned and left him standing there "For both of you." She smiled sympathetically.
He returned to the room where Julie sat holding her daughter's hands in her own.
She didn't hear him enter, he coughed deliberately. She turned and faced him tears welling in her eyes.
"Can you believe it Ryan?"
He shook his head, a smile splattered across his face.
"Here, sit." Julie got up and motioned to the chair, her dislike for Ryan had changed when she watched his commitment to her daughter.
Ryan shook his head "No, you stay I'll come back later."
He had to think.
That night he sat in his bed, Marissa forgot everything. Her father's bankruptcy, Oliver, Volchuck, Johnny everyone.
But maybe it was for the best, maybe she didn't have to relive it all, maybe they could start over.
Tell me if you want me to go on okay?