Ok. so I just randomly decided to to an 'Ipod shuffle' But its Taylor Swift style. Its the first 10 Taylor Swift songs that came up when I shuffled my Ipod (I have like 30 of her songs on there, like all of her 3 albums so its a lot), each song is a different chapter, I'm having a bit of a writers block for my next chapter of 'And then you came back' so help me if you can, Now its time to read!
Disclaimer- I do not own Degrassi or any of Taylor Swifts songs
Back to December-Taylor Swift
I'm so glad you made time to see me
how's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
you've been good, busier than ever
small talk, work and the weather
your guard is up and I know why
because the last time you saw me is still burned in the back of your mind
you gave me roses, and I left them there to die
So this is me swallowing my pride
standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
and I go back to December all the time
turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time
These days I haven't been sleeping
staying up playing back myself leaving
when you birthday past and I didn't call
and I think about summer all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
realized I loved you in the fall
then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
you gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye
So this is me swallowing my pride
standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
and I go back to December all the time
turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
how you held me in your arms that September night
the first time you ever saw me cry
maybe this was wishful thinking
probably mindless dreaming
if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right
I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
so if the chain is on your door, I understand
But this is me swallowing my pride
standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
and I go back to December
turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
all the time
Me and Eli were so in love, I remember everything we ever did, all the great times we had. But I left, I started to get scared of it all, so I left. But today was the day I am going to try and change that, because all I can ever think about is that December night, I wish I could change what happened.
There I was, standing in front of his, its been 3 years, I am now 21, hoping I can get him back. He answers the door and in a few short seconds realizes its me, I see his eyes widen. He looks the same as when I left, long dark hair, mostly black cloths, and those amazing green eyes.
"Hey" I say sort of quite, he stars at me for a few seconds more and asks
"Umm, hey, would you like to come in?" I nod and smile so he opens the door a bit more for me to enter, I go in and sit on the couch, as dose he, but he makes sure to keep his distance. We sit for a few minutes in silence, I am the first to break it.
"So how are you?" I ask
"Ok. I guess, I'm just finishing up collage" he answers, we continue to make small about things like our families, work, and the weather. But I can tell he's holding somethings back, trying not to get to in depth, and of course I know its because of what I did. I knew it was time now to tell him why I came here.
"Eli, the reason I came here today is I wanted to tell you something" he looked a little confused but nodded so I continued
"I'm sorry, for everything that happened that December night, for leaving you, All I can think about is that night, and I just want to got back and do it over, but I can't. I got scared when I realized how much I really loved you, You gave me all of your love, and I just gave that up and said goodbye, Eli, I miss everything about you, and I wish I would have realized what I had when you were mine, but maybe this is just wishful thinking, mindless dreaming that you will take me back but, if you did I'd love you right, but if the chain is on your door, and you don't wanna let me in I understand" I said very quickly, and I felt a tear fall down my cheek, he just looked at me for a few seconds and finally said
"Clare, when you left I was so hurt, I tried to think of my life without you and I couldn't, it was hard for me to live without you, I loved you so much" he paused and I got scared and my eyes started to blur due to the tears that were threatening to spill over, he noticed and continued
"But I think I understand, I love you so much, we have something amazing and I'm not just gonna let that go, but please don't leave me again, Ok" I nodded as fast as I could with a big smile on my face, he leaned forward and our lips meant a second later, I missed kissing him so much, this kiss was filled with passion and longing and it felt so right, we pulled away in need of air. We put or foreheads together.
" I love you so much, Clare" he said still breathing heavy
"I love you too" I answered, we smiled at each other and then kissed again, when we were done we were done he put a movie in and we snuggled on the couch, we feel asleep when we were a little over halfway through, I loved being with him, and I will never ever leave him again.
So did you like it, I hope so...Review! and like I said, help me with some ideas for my next chapter of 'And then you came back', until next time My Loves