Catch me if you can!

by NeKo-NaI

he wanted her. she wanted nothing to do with him. so he chased her.he would chase her to the ends of the earth if he had to,and she would run out of his reach every time.it was a game of cat and mouse, a dangerous one at that.Can hate turn to love?ItaXOc

He ruined me. My life. Everything about me. All of my dreams were torn to shreds the day that I met him. He was like a drug. Once I got the first hit, I was stuck. Addicted. I was completely confused as to why he was all I could think about. He killed my best friend. Attacked me multiple times, trying to take my life, but failing in each attempt. Every turn I would take in life, he was there. Waiting in the shadows for me to come to him. Unknowingly I did come to him. Every single time. And in the end of all the torture, I fell.

Where did this fall take me? To heaven or hell? It felt like my own personal torture. Never able to leave his side, not even to shower. He was there. I wished death upon him everyday that I knew of him. That the devil himself would come to take him. I would scream, oh so loudly, I would scream. Yet, none of them knew what misery I was in. I don't understand how they didn't know how I was feeling. I thought that it was obvious I didn't want to be there. I should have been free.

He ruined me. He took me the first chance that he got. It hurt. it stung me to my core. I was a mess afterwords. There was only one possible way for it to become worse, and with the way that my life works, it happened. I was pregnant.

I do not regret my child, no matter how she came to be. She is my life. I live for her and her only. I may love him now, but he is still evil. There is no way to change that. For the rest of my life I am going to be tainted by him, but I will never let her believe that she is. She doesn't have a clue as to how I feel about her father, but I think that one day I will have to tell her what has happened to me in my life. I don't look forward to it. Not one bit. But of course it must be done.

So this is my story. Its sole purpose is to bring my daughter to light about who her mother and father really are. Her father may think of the situation in a completely different way, but this is how I see it. I still see it this way.

I may not be completely happy with the way my life turned out, but I don't regret it either.