Dear Mai,
Just wanted to say that I miss you.
Ever since I left, I've been searching for something larger: something bigger than what I had to make everything worth it. But the truth is, I haven't found that, not yet. I've just been making this complete fool out of myself, trying to strive to be something more than I think I'm capable. The only reason why I'm out here trying is because of you and how much you changed me. I'm trying to be better, stronger, and bigger in the views of worldly concerns than I was before, and in the terms of the way I see myself. I'm having trouble. Some of that strange confidence that came when I was with you, for that small period time where everything was calm and I was able to breathe, feel, and think without worrying about any resentment, has left me. I lay in bed at night thinking about when everything was bad- when I was bad- and how you always were supporting me through the turmoil and failure. I miss that, that feeling of being wanted and cared for. I don't know if anyone will give me that sort of attention here. I miss that feeling a lot, but I miss you more. I don't think I can deal with my new problems without you anymore, but I also think I have to.
I left you for a reason. It was hard- almost unthinkable- and I want to come back. I really do. But I can't. Because, here, I have made a small start into something that may become the answer to everything that I ever wanted. To make the problems I felt before and the problems that I feel now disappear and all this fear and self-doubt will be filled an honor that comes from things I want and not what other people think. I'm searching for that chance in this crazy place I've been trying to call home. Its not warm like it was when I was with you. It's not warm at all. Its freezy over here, and its hard to get people to trust you and to get people to care. I wish you could come here and just stay here, but I understand that you can't. You never wanted this life that I want, at least not so soon, so you'll have to stay in the warmth, and I'll come and visit soon. Until then I'll have to find new people who will lean their hands on my shoulder- I've gotten a little closer but am still failing miserably at the idea of other real friendship- but until then, I just want, for very selfish reasons, to know that you'll be there to put a hand on my shoulder, even though I'm so far away. Even though I'm putting myself through something that may not even have a good outcome or get me any farther in what I want for myself and the world than if I just stayed and played it safe living it up at home. I don't know what to do, or what to think, all I know is that I really want you to be there for me. I understand that you might not want to, of course, and I can accept that. You might not even relate to what the heck I'm talking about... I also just want to let you know that I will always always always, no matter how much changes, be there for you. I'm not asking for anything more than a friend. Heck, I'm just sending this letter to know that your still alive and doing well...
I MISS YOU!!!
-Zuko
A/N: Sorry for the typos. The sentence structure is really odd- I'll fix it later. The whole thing is cheesy, but I think its okay because I doubt it will get that many hits anyway. I'll probably just delete it soon.... This is something I think that Zuko really wanted to say to Mai when he was out talking to the frogs and stuff in WAT.