Hello once again people. [Happy Thanksgiving btw. GOBBLE GOBBLE GOBBLE.]

I want to take a moment to thank " Percy'sFosterKid " & " misaai ." And when I mean thanks, I mean thank you with my dear life.

You guys are truly the best, may God bless yourself, I can actually say that for once, people actually cared for me. However, I want everyone to know that I didn't post that AN for pity nor reviews.

I mean't EVERY single word that went onto the page, I poured my heart and soul into it and I just wanted to say that on this fine day of celebrating thanks , I want to thank God for Percy'sFosterKid & misaai , my family and finally the person who uploaded Divergent so I can re-read it again for free.

Ilysfm you guys.

Now onto the story !

I honestly thought I did escape depression when he left, everything was fine.

I thought I was going to have a splendid time with my father, with my only family member, without my foster family everything was just going to be peachy keen.

I finally cracked a smile, I wanted to run outside for miles and miles and not stop, jumping, twirling like I was finally free, I had earned my wings.

And then she broke it to me.

"You do realize, that you'll grow up, and leave. You won't be with your father anymore, everyone finds someone and leaves. My mom is getting old, and she can't spend the rest of her days by herself, you have to think about her, too. She's not the perfect person in everyone eyes, he finds something special in her." She whispered, glaring at me.

That's when the smiles stop cracking, and my heart started hurting and everything fell down on me like a stack of books.

Because that minute, I let my guard down, thinking I was finally going to get a happy ending, the world collapsed on my head, like the happiness I had felt was some kind of false hope I was holding on.

Probably because it was. Deep in my heart I did acknowledge that the cycle would repeat, that she would come back, 'supposedly' being on his knees begging for her, and she would let him back in, and she would make my live even more miserable this time.

And I had no say in this, I was just 13 and at the time he was living in here, I was counting down the remaining days of the 5 years until I was 18, so I could leave already.

Most people say they want to grow up, and when they DO grow up they wish they wouldn't have grown up.

That wasn't like me. I sure as hell wanted to grow up, move out and maybe spend the rest of my days in a happy environment, and I probably wouldn't trust anyone for a couple of years due to the brokerage and shattered pieces of my childhood. Because anyone with my life, WOULD want to grow up, and not go back.

And I just stayed quiet, because I knew she would be back, the rest of the five years would be hell and I honestly didn't know if I could make it out alive, or if I would've chosen suicide.

Because lately when she was here, that's all I had been thinking about. She took all her anger out on me, and I had nothing to say because if I did it was probably going to be worst.

I hated her physiological tricks on my father because he fell so easy for them. He would promise me, the next time he wouldn't fall for it but I knew that was a broken promise, I should not count on.

And she wanted to lecture me on manipulation? Because honestly, I meant every single word I had told my father.

I had no intentions on staying either, because I couldn't tolerate my step-mother nor my step-sister any longer, my mother had quit on me just like the rest, and truthfully I could be better all on my own.

I was just tired. Tired of everything and anything. Because happiness was too much to ever ask for, and apparently I wasn't getting it any time soon.

And in the God, that's all I could ever ask for. Happiness. Because honestly I could care less where I was living at, I just wanted to run away find my own happiness far away from everyone and everything. I just wanted to by happy.

And I wasn't.

And that's what I'm going to apparently intent to do, because home ISN'T where the heart is, it's where my demons hide, it's all dark inside.

What's a better way to find happiness, then running away from your parents'?

Because in the end, I would only miss my step-father, because they SO cared about me.

And as I heard the familiar sound of my alarm coming from the iPhone, I had ever so gladly purchased myself, I sat up groggily, with my very head pounding.

There was loud and obnoxious knocks on my hazel wooden door, too.

I didn't dare mutter a peep, maybe the person could return later to make my life miserable?

But she barged right through my door, with a huge half- wolfish grin plastered all over her fake Barbie face.

She leaned her head back and did a little laugh, which some found attractive but I personally always thought sounded more like a mix of coyote and hyena.

I shrugged my shoulders back at Charlotte, my step- sister and raised an eyebrow as her face drew confusion.

She snapped her fingers attentively at me, half expecting me to jump up, half expecting me to bow down to her like some kind of low peasant.

" Helloooo? Where's my breakfast?!" She snapped at me.

And as usual I woke up with me ' I want you all dead ' expression.

I put on my cozy, fuzzy rilakkuma slippers and walked over to the large window located in the middle of my bedroom and shut it closed.

I sighed as I made my way down stairs, ready to begin one more day full of commands and obligations.

If you been reading this before the AN was posted props to you c:.

Because then you would know this wasn't the original first chapter posted hehehe.

However, I do like how I wrote the new story beginning, and how I've changed the story plot.

Please review if you liked the story, this first Chapter was really short, and to make up for it Chapter 3, will be really long, I just needed this one to be short other-wise I wouldn't be able to do what I've been planning out so-far.

You are probably asking yourselves why can't Chapter two be twice as long, and you'll find out soon enough, why.

In the mean time, tell me what you think in the review section and follow me on tumblr so we can chat 24/7, listen to music and fangirl together, I'll follow you back.

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~MSH.

QOTD :

What is your current reads or re-reads?

I'm currently re-reading " Divergent " and I've been wanting to read " The Fault In Our Stars. " I think I'll go to B & N tomorrow to pick up a copy.