a/n hey! Here's another fanfiction from muah! I am going to continue my other one! Never fear, if you are even a reader of my other one! Well, I hope you enjoy this fic.!

Author: Queen of Weird

Disclaimer: Now really, if I owned ANYTHING on the Gilmore Girls do you REALLY think UI'd be writing a FAN FIC?

Summary: What if Rory hadn't let Jess just walk away in 4th season's episode: 'Nag Himmandi is Where They Found the Gnastic Gospel'? This is my version of what would happen

Chapter One

It was weird, how much pain the heart could bring. Wasn't it supposed to be a tool of love? Wasn't it supposed to bring people together, not isolate them?

I stared, in shock, watching him walk towards his car. I remember the car so well. A rusty orange piece of junk. But he took pride in it-a little anyway. He made the money, all by himself. He worked at WalMart. Een made employee of the month once.

"Jess-wait!" I croaked out, staring at him in desperation. Tears threatened to spill over my eyes. I felt my heart scrunch up into a tiny ball, then expand again.

Jess stared at me, waiting for me to say something more. I also waited. No words would go past my throat though, so I stood like a fool in the cold night air. People all around were being happy, but Jess and I were having a staring match of a sort.

"You going to talk or are we just going to continue staring at each other?" Jess asked. His voice was back to its sarcastic tone.

I took a swallow, then wiped my eyes with my white, fragile hands. I covered my mouth, thinking. I knew it, but I wasn't sure if he should know it.

"Jess. Please don't run away again," I began slowly, not looking him in the eye any longer. "Please, stay in Stars Hollow a little longer. I...I-"

"You what, RorY? You what?" he pushed, trying to get it out of me. His vocie now sounded a little annoyed. Could I blame him? I looked up at him, trying to read his expression, trying to tell how he felt.

Jess's strong face looked anxious, eager, annoyed. I furrowed my eyebrows, looking down at my feet. I glanced up. He was watching me, curious.

"I want to talk to you! I...I don't want you toleave again. It hurt so much thefirst time, maybe it would take away the pain for the second time...but maybe it will just be more painful. And I don't wnat to have to find out..." I wiped my eyes again, and looked around nervously.

"Rory-" Jess began, his voice full of...something that his voice was never full of. Could it be concern?

"No. No. I'm sorry Jess. Just, do what you want! I have to go!" The tears spille dout and rolled down my cheeks. I tried to run, but found I couldn't anymore. So I pulled off my shoes and ran.

I didn't know if Jess was going to come after me, but it didn't matter. He had no idea how I felt about him, and it was going to stay that way for a long time...I hoped.

I found it really unfair how he could tell me he loved me after what he did to me last year. It really wa sunfair. After all the pain he put me through, how could he just add that other truck load onto me?

I gave a sniffle, and slowe dmy running to a walk. I looked back. Jess's car was still there. From where I stood, it looked like a Hotwheels car. I smiled, giving a half-hearted chuckle and walked backwards back to my house.

Today certianly had been eventful. I droppe dmy purse next to the purse and walked into my room, dropping down on my bed and grabbing the book I was reading. A light paperback. I opened it up to read, but found I couldn't concentrate.

Annoyed with myself, I put it back down on my sidetable, and curled myself into a ball, burying my face into my pillow, and I cried, and cried, until I was fast alseep.

a/n not a very exciting chapter, is it? Nope. And it is short. But it has to be I guess. Well, I hope you enjoyed, and please review!

-Queen of Weird