The next part to 'Seasons in the Sun'
"I looked back on everything that had happened, and then I wondered what I would do without it. But how can I trust anyone, if everything is falling down behind me?'
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Her whole life, she had discovered that she had a talent and a knack for understanding everybody else, even when she felt like no one else knew anything about her. The broken past she had run away from was scarcely noticed so she didn't have to think about it, but at times like these everything came back to her.
Perhaps it was all those times where she never felt like she fit in; there was no problem with her in school. Mostly she kept to herself, definitely had a best friend—one guy that she had thought she had loved, but he had moved when they had been juniors in high school.
He perhaps was the only one she had ever trusted with her feelings, her emotions. But before him, had been her very own mother. She could tell her anything, although she had died when Megan was seven which left her with her three sisters, and a very stern father who hardly had any time for her in the first place.
That's when the façade she could hide around began, but now years later she knew she couldn't hold it that much longer. Everyone close around her was vanishing. Nothing had been the same; she hadn't been the same, and there was nothing that she could do.
Thank goodness for the leave that had accumulated for all the times she had felt like she hadn't needed it. After watching Colby and Dwayne get taken into their custody, and being dropped back at the office she had taken off in a moments notice, not stopping to the concern of David or Don. They should have known, even though they had all been quiet on the way back.
Don rode his SVU back alone, while Megan rode back with David. They had been the first back to the office, and as soon as they had made it back into the parking lot, she got out with David calling right behind her, but she didn't stop for anything, not even when she heard another door opening, and Don asked David quickly what she was doing, They both watched as she made her way further into the parking garage without stopping.
It was late, they were all exhausted, but that couldn't help but bring concern. Everything was breaking. His team was falling apart. After the Janus list had been discovered, he had meant to talk to the team, especially Megan. He wanted a straight answer to why she had just left after she had told him that this job was not for her. Sure the Department of Justice was nothing exactly that any of them could relate to, so whatever happened had changed her.
She had turned her phone off when had gotten home, didn't feel like talking about the current situation. There had been that moment where she saw the expression on his face when he knocked on her window and asked if she was going to be all right, and for the first time she didn't know.