Until Angels Close My Eyes
One Shot
Where am I? What's going on? I know where I am, but how did I get here? I see someone. It's me. There I am, in grade 7. I am ranting about the environment. My blonde hair is pulled into pigtails and I am waving a small piece of paper. I am yelling at my first love's brother. How I remember that day. I close my eyes and turn around.
"Hey Em, I—Oh my God!" Sean cried. He saw his true love laying on the floor, lifeless surrounded by empty pill bottles. What has she done?
There I am. On my first date, watching as he digs through the garbage. He is searching for my wallet. I found it in my pocket. I was so embarrassed. My date didn't mind. He said it was okay as he laughed lightly. I wish I could go back to that day. I close my eyes as I turn away.
"Em, wake up! Can you hear me?" I hear my once found love call out in terror. "Help!"
I open my eyes to find myself outside. There I am again with my first date. My hair is a mess. I am kissing him under a tree. I touch my lips as I remember how that kiss felt. I close my eyes as I turn around.
"Sean, call an ambulance. Now!" Spike shouted as she rushed to her daughters side.
There I am. In about grade 9. My hair has grown longer and my skin is tanned. I am beautiful. I see myself sitting in class, looking back at my first love as he makes out with another girl. How much I hated him, yet I wish so hard that I was that girl. I notice that Chris Sharpe was staring at me from across the room. I wish I could change my actions that I know are soon to follow. I close my eyes and turn away.
"Emma, please wake up." Sean pleaded, "I came back here to tell you that I love you." Sean caressed the cold skin of his only love.
I open them. There I am, but I am different. My braces are gone and my tanned skin has lost all color. I am so pale. Beside me is my good friend, Toby. He has the same look of terror on his face. On my other side is my first love. We are in the deserted halls of DCS, staring down the barrel of a gun. I am petrified. I know that this is the end. I see my love, my hero, step in front of me protectively. He didn't have to. He saved my life. I watch one of my classmates die, right before me. I close my eyes. I don't want to go any further.
"I am so sorry, Em. I never should have left. Please, wake up."
I open my eyes again. I am in the ravine, and I know it all too well. I have the most vacant and lost look on my face. All of the life and spirit I once had is gone. I am nothing. What happened to me? I climb in to an old van with a boy that I despise. Yet, he made me feel special. I felt wanted. I see a flicker of life come back into my eyes. I close them once again.
"Im so sorry, she's gone," the Doctor said gently, " There is nothing left for us to do." Sean stormed out of the hospital. She can't be dead. He hops in his car and speeds to the highway. Tears blur his vision and he doesn't see the headlights coming. Until its too late. "I'll see you soon, Em. I love you."
I open my eyes and look around. I see a girl laying on a hospital bed. She is lifeless. Her lips are purple and her face is pale blue. She's dead. I take a closer look. That girl is me. I see my mom and my stepdad. I walk over to them. They are crying. I touch my mother's cheek. She gently touches the place where my hand was. I touch my stepdad's shoulder. I whisper, " Everything's alright. I'm better now." I know my mom hears me, as a tiny smile appears on her face. She looks up and then back at the girl. She knows it isn't me. I look at then one more time. I close my eyes and this time, everything will be better.
"Goodbye Em." Spike whispers.
I open my eyes and see Sean standing there welcoming me. I run to him as he holds me in his arms again. I knew this time everything would be alright.