Ignoring Those Feelings
I know what I did hurt you
I know I should have just told you what I felt
Went along with the cards I was dealt
But instead I went with my head
Ignoring my heart
Right from the start
It hurt you terribly
Made you bitter towards love
I know it's my fault
I should have brought it to a halt
But even if I couldn't admit I loved you
I need the friendship you gave me
Don't you see
That even though I ignored my feelings
I couldn't truly hide them
Then when I broke down and told you
I turned around and said they weren't true
I knew
I Had hurt you
You wouldn't admit it
Your too stubborn to admit it
I can read it in your eyes
You can try to cover it with your little lies
But I knew how you felt and how much pain I had caused
I want to make it up to you
And take away the pain I've put you through
But how
I don't know where you are now
We lost touch
You didn't seem to mind if much
Please forgive me
This is how it has to be
How cold the metal is in my hand
I know that I shouldn't do this
But how can I live another day
Knowing that I cannot say
How I feel
Come on lets be real
I take the gun within my hand
Up against my head
Maybe instead
I should try to tell you
But I did and it just hurt you more
Please forgive me all I want is to end the pain I've put you through
As I slip my finger around the trigger
My thoughts are of you and only you
Your shining blue eye and soft blonde hair
How I wish I didn't care
With in seconds the brunette lay dead
Puddle of blood around his head
At that same moment a certain young blonde boy
Picked up what he thought was a toy
And in the acts of pretending to shoot himself
It was discovered that the toy had been real
And now two boys who had shared so much pain
Met again without the stain
Of blood
In heaven
Where they could always be together