A/N: Chapter started 27/12/12 and finished two hours into 29/12/12 (UK time)
So Skins has been my area but I will never not love Victorious and lately I can't stop listening to the soundtracks, Ari or Liz.. there aren't loads of Cade fics up so I thought I'd try add something to the nice little collection, hope I don't disappoint!
If you haven't read all the little summary, it's kinda important for the start so here it is again..
When my parents divorced eight months ago I dumped Beck and cut everyone out, yet she never gave up trying to help me through it all. Never. Now, as I sat in her disgustingly pink room enduring a painful conversation on crushes, she asked the question I was dreading. I could see the look of realisation on her face and knew I was about to start falling apart all over again.
"Jade, is it me?"
I looked away from her and rose from where I was seated at the end of her bed. It's over. I felt a tear slide down my face.
"I'm sorry, Cat. This wasn't meant to happen."
I turned and bolted out of her room before she could react. This is why I don't let people in. I heard her shout after me when I reached the front door but I refused to let myself acknowledge her. I ran down her drive and jumped into my beat up old pickup truck. My mum can't know, she'll kick me out. I'll be the one avoiding everyone else from now on. I'll be a laughingstock. I shook my head. I can't do this.
I pulled over and sighed. You fucking idiot. I hadn't been driving for long but I had reached the end of a secluded dirt track that forked off one of the quiet avenues not far from Cat's house. The dark autumn night didn't faze me as I climbed out of my truck or when I began to make my way through the wooded area that swallowed up the track. I have stronger feelings for her than I did for Beck, how did I let this happen? Thoughts flooded my mind and I took my scissors from their place in my back pocket to distract myself.
It only took a short period of time before I found myself in a small clearing that held possibly the most beautiful scene I have ever seen, there was a little lake that seemed to glow silver under the moonlight surrounded by a wall of trees casting shadows that made the stars appear brighter than I thought possible and the clear ground I stood on was actually a rock that had been eroded to form a small crescent that hugged the edge of the lake. Christ. I frowned at myself for allowing my eyes to bulge in wonder. No, you don't do kid-in-a-sweet-shop reactions. I took a couple of steps so I was standing at the edge of the water and looked at my reflection. Another sigh escaped my lips and I shook my head before sitting down on the dusty surface of the rock with my legs crossed. She'll never feel the same way. Puppet-nut likes her and she doesn't exactly give off any signals that suggest she doesn't like him back, plus she's always confident around boys.
"Urgh!" I growled at the open space before me and put my head in my hands, flinching a little when the cold of the scissors hit my forehead but finding the cool metal soothing a moment later. If I had run from my problems the first time none of this would have happened, now I can't even take the easy way out because I can't hurt her. FUCK. I glared into my lap and brought my knees up to my face. You just had to let her in didn't you? Stupid, stupid, stupid. I ran my hands through my hair and lay back, hoping for some sort of sign from above like in one of those sappy rom-coms I never watch to the end. Come on, surely I've done something that makes me deserving of one little sign that I haven't completely messed up, anything! I rolled my eyes at my inner monologue. As if anything good will happen to me. I shifted onto my right side and put my scissors down beside me. I'll stay here for a while, when I've cleared my head I can decide on my next move.
I felt a warm weight becoming more prominent across my abdomen and opened my eyes with a grunt.
"What the-"
It was still dark and I scowled as I shuffled onto my back to see what, or rather who, was clinging to me. I felt my breath catch when I saw Cat's luminous red hair under the moonlight, her cheeks were stained by tears and her eyebrows were furrowed which made her look like she was in pain.
"C-Cat?" I mumbled, unsure of how she had found me and worried by the state she was in. I shook the arm that was still draped across me. She whimpered almost inaudibly and tightened her grip.
"Cat? Cat talk to me." I moved onto my other side to face her. Her lip quivered and she opened her eyes. They glistened with fresh tears as she stared straight into my eyes. I could feel my heart thumping inside my chest as guilt washed over me. She sniffled and broke her gaze. What have you done? I wrapped my arm around her and pulled her as close to me as I could, hugging someone felt strange but I couldn't bring myself to let go.
"I'm so sorry Cat. I never wanted to hurt you." She sniffed and pulled away a little. Those big brown eyes met mine again with the same pained expression.
"You.. you left me. W-why would you leave me? I shouted and you didn't wait. I ran for so long and I didn't know where I was going," her voice cracked as she started to sob, "I couldn't f-find you, I just kept running, I was.. I was so scared.. I thought you'd left me forever!"
I'll never do that.
" Then I saw your truck and.. and you weren't in it. It's so dark, Jadey.. you could've been kidnapped! I didn't stop until.. not until I found you. And I did! You were here and, and.. I had to.. I couldn't let you go again!"
Please don't.
"I need you. I-I.. Jade.." I could feel her trembling against me as she whispered those three words. "I love you."
A/N: So my stories and their chapters tend to be song names, so this story is Salvation by Carolina Liar and this chapter is Keeping Me Alive by Fireflight.
Well that was fun to write, I tried to link it to some events that happened in my life as a template then altered it to fit the characters better, hopefully I did an okay job! I'd love to hear from you, I'll try to take suggestions on for future chapters though it may take me a while to update as I have A level work to be doing and I started this purely on impulse and I wasn't planning on finishing it let alone uploading it. That's me though, plans always change! Shout at me if there are grammar mistakes and I'll fix it, I really hate boobing when I'm you for reading and maybe I'll see you next time - Becky x
Little End Note: The lake is from Skins (yes, Naomily still made it into this fic in a way), I shall leave a link to the best picture I can find here if you wish to see roughly what I was going for and may use again, any links will need spaces removing as they won't paste normally.. 24. media. tumblr tumblr_ m7kw2rtfel1rblw6so1_ 500. jpg There are other pictures on Tumblr too so feel free to go search ^^