Rated: T

Summary: What if we could do it all over again? Would we change anything? I don't think I would though. ONE-SHOT, FeMC POV, Archer x FeMC

Disclaimer: I do not own the Fate franchise, or any of its characters.

Would I do anything different?

Rin asked me the question as we were eating lunch together in the classroom. We had grown to be good friends after I saved her but she still insults me a little, that's to be expected though.

"Why would you ask that?" I say curiously and Rin looks out the window.

"It's something Lancer would ask me. I thought it was lunacy on his part but it's been stick in my head since, you know." She means when he sacrificed himself to save us from Rani's kamikaze explosion.

"Well would you?" I ask her and she turns her gaze back to me.

"No I wouldn't. But what about you?" Her gaze increases and I struggle to find an appropriate answer.

"Well…"

"Well what?" she interrupts "Would you change things. Entering the war, summoning your servant, saving me, would you change any of it?"

"No." I say without hesitation and her mouth hangs slightly open.

"If I didn't enter the war then I would probably become just a mindless NPC, not ever knowing true life or friendship. If I had never saved you then I would be in serious trouble but also I would have missed out on making a good friend. And without Archer…"

I think of Archer's sarcastic smirk looking down at me, or his determined face whenever we face an enemy in the arena, and even warm smile I've only seen on one (maybe two) occasions.

"…without Archer, I wouldn't be alive. I'd be a shell or a data ghost of what I used to be. But being with Archer gave me determination to better myself and become a master he would be proud of."

"You love him." Rin shoots out with a half smirk and I almost fall out of my chair the same way Archer almost did.

"No! I-I-I care, yeah, he is my servant and I do care about what he thinks about me." I stutter out and my cheeks start rising in temperature.

"Sure, I can tell these things though. You've fallen for him hard." Rin smirks fully now and I even hear her giggle.

"No way, besides he…"

Even if I did it wouldn't make a difference. Archer's been eyeing Rin since I first saved her and I can tell that if he could choose anyone, it would be her. And I can't compete with Rin.

"…he doesn't see me that way." Tears threaten to show themselves but I've mastered holding my tears back long ago.

"That's because he doesn't know!" Rin stated "Men are clueless; you need to right out and say something for them to understand."

"But even so," I stand up and walk towards the door, I still have to go the Commissary and meet with Archer on a few things "I like the way things are now. And even if I said anything I know Archer, he'd probably laugh in my face or flat out reject me. And I don't want us to drift apart at all so I'll be content and fight alongside him."

"You really are an idiot. But I can't say what you're doing is idiotic. Masters and servant were never meant to be together at all so even if something did happen you two would just be separated anyhow."

Rin points out and I inwardly cringe, she's right.

"Well Rin, the food was delicious and I had a great time, thank you." And with that I try to leave but she surprises me by suddenly standing by me and halting my movements and putting her hand on my shoulder.

"While his disappearance is inevitable…" she tries to look for the right words to say "I regret a lot of things, but right now I just wish I could tell Lancer a few things. I don't want you to hold on to this feeling that I have." She smiles and I nod my head.

Chapter 2 now! 8D

(So what if I'm a Rin x Lancer shipper :3 They're just too cute in Fate/Extra)