~Zoe's POV~
"Hey there." I smile.
"Stop looking at me like that." Wade says playfully.
"What?" I ask, feigning innocence, "I'm just glad that you're staying"
"ok, good", he says mockingly.
"I know that you believe that we don't have a future together, but Wade Kinsella you are so wrong! And I'm going to prove it, as long as it takes. I'm not giving up." I smile knowingly as I walk out, knowing he's watching me go, pondering my words.
~ Zoe's POV~
Zoe spent the first few hours at the clinic doing a checkup with Wanda about her baby. Both Wanda and AB had been giving me a talking to about not making a 'big gesture' to show my love for Wade. Somehow I let them convince me that I should do something bigger.
That night Wanda, AB, Cricket and Myself set up a karaoke machine outside Wade's House and tried to serenade him, as a symbol of my love for him…AKA the most embarrassing moment of my life, when I instead ended up serenading Meatball. Ick.
After Wade teasing me about it the next morning I turned to George and Lavon for guidance. They both agreed that sex was how you got to guys, which had me thinking that I should try to seduce Wade.
~Wade's POV ~
As I lay awake in bed I still couldn't believe the Doc was going to so much effort trying to get me back. Couldn't she tell that we were doomed to fall apart?! Even as I thought it my heart broke a little, people like Zoe Hart were destined to be with the George Tucker's of the world. NOT some small town boy that ran a bar, even if he did own it.
He knew her constant efforts were slowly getting him to cave, it was scary to think that she still had the power to break his heart. His whole body still ached for her. I groaned as I dragged myself out of bed, preparing mentally in case Zoe had planned yet another attempt to sway him back to her. It was getting so hard to say no.
As I was outside killing time along hopped my father. I say hopped because he had hurt his leg after falling into a booby trap a few days before. I couldn't believe the change a woman had done to him. 5 weeks sober and a date planned with the town health and safety manager and he had completely changed his outlook. Didn't change what he was yet again trying to convince me to do. Namely, get Zoe Hart back.
"You looking for money or free gin?" I asked.
"Listen here Mr. Smarty Pants, it just so happens, I'm almost 5 and a half weeks sober. Got my first date with May, tonight."
"Good for you, dad." I said honestly.
"I'm here because I heard that the pretty doctor said she loves you." Earl stated.
"Me and Zoe, we're like a stick of dynamite, with one of them long fuses. Everythings fine, no trouble here, all the while *hissing sound* and then KABLANG!"
Just then, splashing in the lake distracted our conversation, when none other than Miss Zoe Hart starts flicking her hair seductively trying to be all sexy while in the water. I gulped at the sight of her. She always was gorgeous, and she definitely looked good dripping wet in that little black bikini.
"Hey Wade", she says casually as if it were an every day occurrence her splashing in the lake. "What are you doing here?" she asks.
"What am I doing here? It's my house, what are you doing here?" I reply, chuckling at her attempt.
"Swimming." She replies, "The water's great."
"Yeah I can see you're swimming. You know it's funny though, you're usually so worried about getting your hair messed up, and the snakes, and the leeches, and the mucky bottom." I reply, knowing she's only doing it for my attention.
"Less worries today." She tries to play it off, as she swims away.
"KABLANG" I say.
~ Zoe's POV~
I could hear Wade playing his guitar as I approached his place. He cut off as soon as I walked through the door.
"Hello there," I say, in what I hope is a seductive manner.
"What's going on here?" He asks, as he puts down his guitar.
"I, Wade, am here to seduce you." I declare as I raise my heeled foot to the coffee table.
Wade chuckles, "You know most people usually don't announce it first."
"I just wanted to make sure you were aware, of what was happening." I said while approaching him, "because this, my friend, is happening."
"This is going to be hard to resist." Wade stated bluntly.
"Yeah, well that's the plan." I say.
"Uh, Zoe, this isn't going to work the way you think. Sex doesn't lead to, anything else." Wade says.
"Well we'll just have to see about that." I whisper, whilst removing my blouse.
Wade reaches for me heatedly, and I'm taken back to the many times before when we had been together. It felt right to be back in his arms, even though I was unsure of what would come of it.
~ Wade's POV~
I woke up before Zoe and stared at her beautiful face. I shouldn't have let myself have this moment. I knew it would make it even harder to resist her. She stirred beside me as I roused myself, hoping to play last night off as just sex, and not something that could bring me closer to getting my heart broken again.
"Just like riding a bicycle." She says cheerfully as she wakes.
I chuckle. "That was nothing, like riding a bicycle." Nothing at all like riding I bicycle, I think back on last night starting to feel the need for another round.
"No, what I meant was, it was so easy to fall back into it," she chuckles, "It felt so right. So connected. Sooo.."
I cut her off. "So, stop talking, and lets do some more connecting." I lean in kissing her neck.
"Wade, wait I'm hungry, let's get some food first."
"We can do that later." I say
"Seriously, I'm starving!" she yells in ear.
"Oh my God, are you serious right now." She nods, "Alright, we'll go over to Lavon's, we'll get some grub, and then we're coming right back here and we're finishing this mess, for real."
"That, my friend is a great idea. But I should probably head to work soon. How about, we meet back here later, for a little replay, you know maybe we could get some dinner first" She says questioningly.
Alarm bells ring in my head. No. This is exactly what I didn't want to happen.
"No. No." I stumble on my words. "No, Zoe, there's no dinner, no dates, alright I told you, this… " I gesture between us, "This is just sex. Nothing more." I said in what I hope is a convincing tone.
"Just sex, right, sounds familiar." She says whilst getting up.
"Well, what does that mean?" I say as she walks out. I really need to stop putting my foot in this mess. Jumping back into bed with Zoe, while fantastic, was such a bad idea, and I was tossed back to being alone, heartbroken over her, and then crushed as she moved back, with another guy in tow.
~ Zoe's POV~
I stood outside Wade's place not quite sure what to do, after what Mrs. Breeland had said about sex confusing things, she was at a standstill of what to do. Just then Wade walked around the corner.
"Alright, another round?" He says cheekily.
"No." I say sadly, "No more games, okay? We need to talk. I know what I know, what I have known since…I love you. And you love me too, will you please just admit it.
"Yeah," he says defeated, "Yeah maybe I do"
"Well then what's the hold up?" I say while reaching for him. Torn as he pulls away from me yet again, running his hands over his face.
"Zo, the hold up is, last time we did this is damn near killed me, and I hated myself. For hurting you, So, I tried to be a better man. To show you that it would never happen again. And you still left." He looks so hurt it kills me to see him that way.
"I needed space." I say honestly.
"Look I get it alright, doesn't mean it didn't slay me. And just when I was finally getting used to you being gone, and imagining a life without Zoe Hart. You came back. With another boyfriend."
"That is not fair okay, because you hurt me too. You really hurt me. But I saw that you changed and I forgave you. I got over it"
"I know it's just not fair… But you wrecked my heart Zoe, and I don't…I just can't do this again" He said almost breaking down.
"What if I promise that I wouldn't hurt you." I pleaded.
"I guess, I don't trust that you know how to stop yourself." He finished. "It's as simple as that."
I breathed out the breath I had been holding, and nodded at the news. My heart broke for him and from his words. Without trust what chance is there for anything. So instead I just said, "Okay then." Before leaving.
~Wade's POV~
I had been thinking about Zoe and our conversation since it happened. She'd seemed to have completely given up on trying to get me back… I wasn't sure if I felt relieved or heartbroken at that fact. Just as I looked up there she was. She had been avoiding me, and this was the first time we would speak since I told her how I felt.
"Hey, Doc. Haven't seen you in a while." I said
"Hey" she said tentatively, "Hi… I don't have any hot water, do you think you could look at it."
I deflated a little when I realized she wasn't trying to talk to me but just wanted some help. So it was definitely that I was upset she had stopped trying to get me back. Somehow she was under my skin again and breaking my heart by doing what I had said I wanted.
"Yeah, sure." I say flatly. She doesn't reply but gives me a thumbs up and turns to go
"I mean that's it? It's been 8 weeks, can we… can we talk?" I say trying to get her to stay.
"What do you want me to say Wade? You said how you felt. No matter what I do, you not trusting me is kinda insurmountable. Right?"
I don't know what to say to that, I think she figured the same because she turned around to leave. "I'll just fix your hot water then." I call out to her.
~ Zoe's POV ~
It had been 2 months since Wade had told me that he didn't trust me, and ever since I had been avoiding him like the plague. I couldn't stop loving him, but if it hurt him to see me because he couldn't trust me, then I would stay out of his life and give him what he wanted by letting him have the space he wanted.
I got up and started getting ready for the day with little motivation, feeling slightly under the weather, probably the start of the bug that had been going around town. "Great." I muttered sarcastically, "Just what I need."
After seeing AB, Cricket and Earl, who invited me for dinner with his girlfriend and Wade, I needed an escape but when I got to the clinic I was met by Lemon whose dad had stood her up for a physical.
"I can't believe my own father stood me up." She muttered, "He's incapable."
"Well he has been pretty distracted lately, you're not the only patient that he's forgotten, if it makes you feel any better." I told her. Recently our relationship was getting better, and I felt like she deserved to have a little support.
"Not so much." she replied.
"So, what brings you here?" I asked.
"Oh, Henry's a worry wart. I haven't been sleeping so well, just tired, queasy."
"Well there is a virus going around, I've been feeling pretty run down myself. Why don't I give you a blood test just to make sure it's nothing else?"
"Okay." Lemon replied.
"So… I noticed that you and Wade are still… barely speaking." She inquired
"Yeah, well, I tried… I really did but, you know, what can you do? He just keeps pushing me away" I said sadly.
"You know that he's just scared right?" She tries to comfort me.
"Maybe, but maybe not." I reply. "I'm really happy that you found someone, I mean Henry, he seems awesome. And that sounds amazing how he saved those orphans from that burning building." I encourage.
"Oh it was just two orphans." She tries to play it down, "Just two."
When they were finished and leaving Brick came strolling in whistling. Lemon sternly told her father off for missing her appointment. After they had left AB and I were talking.
"I think Brick has a secret lover." She tells me.
"Wait, what?" I say confused.
"Seriously, I mean he's spacy, singing, secret phone calls. He let you examine Lemon. She's been dizzy and nauseous for weeks now, and he didn't care. I mean she could be pregnant for all he knows."
We both look at each other shocked. Me because I was putting together my dizzy spells and nausea, and my last period and the timing to when myself and Wade had sex. I had to find out if it was a possibility.
"I'm just going to go run a few more tests." I say whilst grabbing Lemon's folder. In my office I swap out Lemon's bloodwork for some of my own and send it out to be tested. I know fairly surely that Lemon is not pregnant. But I know I can't risk anyone seeing my results.
~ Wade's POV~
"Wade it's May." Wanda says as she hands me the phone. "Eal's fallen down his hole again."
I sigh frustrated as I take the phone from her.
~Zoe's POV~
"Seriously, again with the hole?" I say out loud.
~Wade's POV~
I get to my fathers place and not long after I walk through the door, who should follow but my very own Doctor Hart.
"Where's Earl?" I question.
"Well he's not in the hole." She states.
"I know he's not in the damn hole. I was just at the hole." I say grumpily.
Just then Earl and May come walking out from another room. "What's going on here?" I ask frustrated.
"We're sorry we tricked you." May says shyly
"We didn't know how else to get you to sit down and talk about all this like two adults" Earl throws in.
"What is this?" I ask
"Haven't you seen the movie?" Zoe says, "We've been reversed parent trapped." She says shocked.
As we sit down at the table that have set up for us, I am both awed and shocked that one; we both fell for this trap, and two; that they would go to so much effort to make sure Zoe and I would talk… And, no doubt, wanting it to end in us getting back together.
"Sit, Relax. Enjoy each other." I heard dad say.
As they left the room to finish the meal they were preparing for us I turned to Zoe.
"Look, at least it gives us a chance to talk." I say, even though I have no idea what I want to say.
"Wade, here's the thing, okay? I have wracked my brain to try and figure out a way to prove you can trust me. But its impossible if you don't give me a chance." She stutters out. "I want things to be different. I want you to come and knock on my door, and… and tell me that you want this, that you want to take a chance. I know that it's… pathetic, but it's the truth."
"I don't know what to say." I meekly get out. It's true, because I don't. I miss Zoe. I'm terrified of getting my heart broken by her again. Of putting myself out there to find out I'm not good enough. But neither of us is good at being just friends.
"Who wants crab cakes?" Earl calls out as he re-enters the room.
"You know what, I'm actually not hungry." Zoe says, while making a quick escape.
I have no idea what to do. I hate seeing her leave upset. I love her. But I don't have it in me to get over her again.
"Night didn't go quite as I'd hoped." Earl sounds disappointed.
"Look, you and everyone else around here got to understand that me and Zoe, we just, we don't work." I said tentatively.
"I get that you're afraid of getting hurt, I get that better than anyone, after your mother died, I was so afraid of loving, of feeling again, I hid inside a bottle for 20 years. Hiding did nothing for me, and it'll do nothing for you." Earl reasoned,
"Dad it…"
"But I'm recovering. I'm learning to live again, feel again. And I'll tell you something, even if May crushes my heart, it'll all be worth it! Take a chance, son. Don't be like your old man."
He's right. I know he's right. I wouldn't still love her after all this time, or be so scared of being hurt, if she wasn't the one.
~Zoe's POV~
As I walk in the clinic AB looks up and asks if I'm ok.
"Oh, you know…peachy." I say sarcastically.
"Ok well, Lemon's test came in."
"Oh cool." I try to sound calm, even though I've never been this nervous in my whole life. As I peek inside, I try to keep the scared expression off my face. I need to get out of here. I wrack my brain for anything I could use as an excuse to leave so I don't have to be here.
"Om my gosh! Old man Jackson was getting his new wheelchair today. I said I would be there!" I say quickly, "Can you reschedule all my patients, AB?"
"Of course." She says confused.
I go straight home trying not to freak out about the fact that I was pregnant. Pregnant with Wade's child.
~Wade's POV~
I was going to bite the bullet and do it. I'd already walked over to her door and now I was going to do it. I was going to do exactly what she said she wanted. I was going to tell her. Oh god, why did I have to be so god damned nervous. Before I could chicken out I knocked on the door.
"What are you doing here?" Zoe asks, surprised.
"Uh… Well… I thought maybe we could go to dinner." I say nervously.
"Is this a joke?" She questions.
"No." I say, slightly hurt. "Look I'm sorry I waited so long. But you were right, I love you Zoe, and I want to give this a try."
Several emotions cross her face, I'm not quite sure what they all mean, but I hope they're good.
"No." She shakes her head.
And there it was again, hurting even more than the last time. I felt all my hope that maybe we could make it work plummet. She had changed her mind again. She didn't want to be with me. I thought this would finally be it, that we could finally be together, no pretenses.
"You were right, this is never going to work out. I'm sorry Wade, but it's just too late." She continues, as if she hasn't just torn my heart out for the second time. She closes the door on my face. I break a little inside. I need to get out of here. I need alcohol. NOW. I realize there's no getting over Zoe, there's learning to live with her. Being together, or wishing we were. But I thought this was what she wanted! She had been telling me for months now. Trying to get me to let her back in. Even tonight she had wanted it. What had changed?
~Zoe's POV~
My heart broke as I closed the door on Wade. I'd promised to keep trying and for reasons I couldn't yet tell him I couldn't… I just couldn't. He already didn't trust me and I didn't want him to feel like I was trapping him. I needed to figure out a way to tell him. The only thing I was certain of was that I wanted to keep our child. I loved Wade, and I want a future with him but I needed him to believe I wasn't trying to trap him by falling pregnant.
I fall onto my bed.
"Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god." I repeat frightened. What the hell was I going to tell Wade? How was I going to tell him?
