Author: Yuugina
Title: I Miss You
Rating: PG - Some adult language, contents containing alternate lifestyles
Genre: Anime, Tragedy/Angst
Show: Yuugiou GX
Disclaimer: I do not own Yuugiou GX nor the characters contained within it. I do own this fanfic, though.
Author's Notes: Just a really depressing idea I got from listening to Evanescence's (pft, go figure) 'Hello' and 'My Immortal'. This is actually a really common plot with alot of fanfics, but meh. Whatever. It doesn't change the fact that I was crying while writing this. Whenever I write stuff like this, I act as if it's me that's going through whatever the character's going through. So yep. Judai's POV. Enjoy.
- .I Miss You. -
Shou… Why did you have to leave me? Why did you have to get ill? Why did you have to be so young when this happened?
My once-boyfriend, Shou Marufuji died a few months ago. And I'm still crying every morning when I wake up. I miss him being here. I miss him being cuddled next to me while we're sleeping. I miss him and his smile. It was once so bright and it used to light up his face. Now, it's just a peaceful looking, pale face. One that will never open it's bright, hazel eyes or ever smile again.
Shou… I can just never get you out of my head. And it hurts. It crushes my chest, my heart. I have to go through the rest of my life without you. Explore and discover new things without you. All because of your illness. Most people would want to kill themselves after their love dying. But me, I don't want to, so I'm not going to. I know that's not what you would want.
We had such a big life planned ahead of us. Now that you're gone, we can't do that. We can't get married. We can't adopt kids. We can't travel the world together. We can't do anything. The only thing I can do is sit here and cry. Cry until no tears come running down anymore. And everyone knew we were best friends. But none of them knew about us being together. I'm still afraid to tell them. I'm afraid of the homophobic society. Afraid of being rejected by everyone. Afraid… of being alone forever…
Shou… I want you to come back, dammit. I want you back here in my arms. I want to hear your laugh. Even… Even if it had to be just one more day. Shou, it's been 7 months and I still can't believe you're gone. Come back… Just, please… Come back… I want to smile again. I wanna be the person I used to be when you were here. I want to sleep again… I want my world to be bright. Shou, please… I love you. And I do know that nothing I say is ever going to bring you back. But you can't help but think it whenever something like this happens. Please, Shou. I wanna eat again. Ever since you left, I lost about five pounds because I didn't want to eat. Everywhere I go, it reminds me of you. So I always stayed in my room. I've grown pale. And I don't like it. Even my room reminds me of you. I can't stand living like this. But I know… I know that eventually I'll become more better. But I still won't recover one hundred percent, not even in forty years.
Please Shou… I want to be the person I used to be.