Yup, this is a new story.

No, I don't not own Naruto.

To See You Again....

Dear Sasuke,

I am going to hate tomorrow. It will mark another year that you and I aren't together. I'm a shell of my former self. I'm no longer the happy-go-lucky girl that longed to be with you. I'm the desperate young woman that yearns for your return. That is my wish. And no matter how many candles I blow out, I will never get my wish.

I hate how the villagers who act like everything is okay. I hate how they act like you didn't take my heart and threw it on the ground, shattering it, then stepped on the broken pieces. Ino tries to get me to move on, to date other men, to stop thinking about you. But I can't because I'm still hopelessly in love with you.

Yes I still love you. And I forgive you. I just want to be happy again. Did you know that when you left you took my happiness that night? I bet you don't even care. Naruto thinks that by saying he'll bring you back over and over again, it will make me happy. It's not. It only kills me more inside.

Thinking of you. I can't sleep anymore. I'm on sleeping pills. I think I'm going to switch to anti-depressants. My life is a mess, if you couldn't tell. That's the consequences of loving you. People say that I'm a walking dead person. I personally wouldn't mind being that. I wouldn't be able to feel pain.

I wish I could see you again. That will be the best present ever.

Love,

Sakura.

I fold the letter and stick it into an envelope. I have no intentions on sending it. Partially because I don't know where he is. I dread tomorrow. Maybe I could over dose on my pills. Then I can sleep right through my birthday. The raven that has always been following Sasuke and I is perched on my window sill. The color of it's feathers reminds me of his hair. It flew into my room, pecking my letter softly.

"Yeah it's to him. I'm not going to mail it though." It cocks it's head, I chuckle lightly. "I don't know where he is, so I can't." The raven picks up the letter and disappears out the window. I stand there in shock. "I just got jacked by a bird."

~*~

The day has finally come. I hate every person who comes up to me and wishes me a happy birthday. I hate how TenTen gave me three fans. Each of them having very sharp edges on them. I had a black one with a gold dragon breathing fire, a red one with a rose and a bird and my favorite, a pink one with sakura pedals on them. I wanted to love the gift, really I do. But it's not what I wanted, which is why I hate it.

I have to say, I do love the dress Hinata has given me. A short black strapless dress. You can never go wrong with a little black dress. This gift has made me feel a bit better. But of course Kami doesn't want me to be happy for too long.

I knew that Naruto was going to tell me for the nth time this week his 'promise of a lifetime'. So why am I so mad on the inside? Maybe it's because I'm dying slowly on the inside. And I want to blame him for it because he hasn't lived up to his promise yet. Every day it's the same. I'm starting to lose faith in not only Naruto, but everyone else. If I want Sasuke to come back, maybe I'm the one who has to defeat him in battle. I'll intentionally mess up his nervous system, so he can't move. I'll heal him, after about two or three years and he promises me to never leave.

I hate how he gave me several bowls of instant ramen. I guess this is a good gift. I barely ever eat much these days. Today is supposed to be the happiest day of my life. I hate the villagers who past by me with smiles wishing me a happy birthday. I just knew the nurses were going to "surprise" me. Each of them handed me a small gift. I deserve an award for acting like I'm so happy. The only happy thing about this was receiving my paycheck with an extra bonus. I hate how the nurses baked me a cake. Well at least I know what I'm eating tonight, cake and ramen. Yay!!!

~*~

Another kid walks up to me with a blue rose. Don't say the words, I don't want to hear it anymore. How am I supposed to be happy when the love of my life just left and ditched me on a bench? I slowly walked to the flower shop where Ino is working. She grins at me. "Hey girlie!!! Happy birthday!!" Ugh, why in the world did she have to say that word. I just realized the more someone says happy birthday, that more depressed I get. She hands me a bouquet of flowers, all of them being pink. I take them not feeling any better.

"Don't forget we are throwing you a big bash tonight at the club."

Oh joy. "I can't wait!!" Ew, now I want to die. Or get so drunk, I pass out at some random location forgetting where the hell I was supposed to be. Well there is one good thing about this, I already know what I'm going to wear. So that's one major problem I don't need to worry about. I love him still. My heart aches every time I realize that I'm not right next to him. And that's all I want. Is to be with him again. I take the long way to the cursed bench. I often sit here and think. Whenever someone sees me here, they know not to bother me.

You didn't have to leave Sasuke, you could have became strong here with us...with me. I must have lost track of time. I've been sitting here for about two hours, but that's nothing compared to falling asleep on the bench. But the weirdest thing always happens...I wake up in my room with that raven perched on my window sill.

I sigh while standing up to stretch. I hate this day, I hate all days....since he left. Walking home made me realize just how much I hate my life now. I'm the second strongest kunoichi in Konoha, but I can't even bring him back. Everyone knows secretly that I'm not satisfied with life, and yet they all act like everything is great. Maybe it's because I always put on a fake smile to make it look like everything is great. I don't know. I can't even afford a decent apartment.

~*~

I throw my gifts on the floor and sigh. Tonight is going to be the absolute longest night ever. I might has well start getting ready. I take long hot showers to calm my nerves, and for some reason I always liked seeing my skin be red from the water being too hot. This will be the first night I let my hair out ever since that unfortunate accident at the forest of death.

The girl Kin, had a strong grip on my hair. I didn't know what to do, or how to get out of it. The only way to break free is if I cut my hair. Oh goodness I didn't want to. But I told myself that it will grow back. But what I cut is something that can never ever grow back. I swore I was aiming for my hair. The forest fell silent and a warm wet fluid was dripping down my neck, hair (which hadn't been cut), and back.

I turned around and saw that Kin was missing a hand. And it was all (or mostly) my fault. And from then on I just kept it in a tight bun, only letting it free during the night. I curl it, it actually looks nice. I apply my lip gloss and look at the clock. I'm late. But it doesn't matter, it's my party. I have every reason to be late.

I put a gold belt around my waist, so it can match my shoes. I remember the fan TenTen gave me. It goes with this outfit perfectly. I walk to the club, going past the bench, I stop. "I'm not going to have fun tonight." I say as if he was sitting right there. I keep walking.

~*~

Everyone cheers when they see me enter the club. "Happy birthday!!!!" They all shout. Here's where I need to be a nominee for best actress of now.

"Oh my gosh!!! I can't believe you guys did this all for me!!!"

"Of course!!! Who else would we do this for?" Ino she tries, they all try but it's not enough. It will never be enough. But I don't want my depression to rub off on them. I just keep faking that smile.

Ino was dancing with Sai. Kiba was next to me at the bar. "What's the birthday girl doing by herself?"

"I don't know." I sip my tequila.

He puts his arm around my waist. Mistake number one. "You know, me and you should leave this dump." Mistake number two. He grabs my ass. Big ass mistake number three.

I whip out the fan and fold it to his neck. "Get your fucking hands off of me." I spat venomously. He backs away slowly. I snap it close and storm out. I so hope that Ino or anybody else noticed. I don't think they did, they were having too much fun. I walk home on the verge of tears. It hurts to think that if I can't be with Sasuke, then I'll have to settle for a jerk like Kiba.

~*~

I get home and kick off my heels. I walk upstairs holding myself. I'm wondering why I'm sensing another presence of chakra. Maybe it's someone sent to kill me. Good, put me out of my misery. I won't fight, I will stand there and accept what's coming. I open my door expecting a some some high class assassin, not the object of my desires.

He was just sitting on my window sill looking at the window. The breeze rolls by and his hair moves with the wind.

My breath was caught in my throat. "S-Sasuke-kun?" He looked at me with those indifferent eyes. "W-what are y-you doing here?" Yes I am fully aware that I'm stuttering just like Hinata.

"You said you wanted to see me." He said.

"Well, I do. It's just that I wasn't expecting you to be here." He got up and walked to me.

"You said seeing me would be the best present ever. So I'm here."

I didn't know what to say. I'm so shocked and so happy and I don't know, I'm feeling emotions I haven't felt in years. I can't help but smile, he came. For me.

"Are you really that depressed?" He looks around the floor to see empty bottles of sleeping pills.

"I have to cope somehow." I feel ashamed that I had to resort to being elated all day. But it helps.

"I'm sorry." He says. My heart beats again.

"It's okay. I forgive you remember?"

"I didn't expect...you to be this bad."

"I could've been worse." I say honestly. "I'm so happy that you're here." I wish he could stay. But I know that he has to leave.

"Sakura." He smirks at me. "I do care about your happiness." He leans in closer and captures my lips. I kiss back with equal force. Because I'm so shocked, I need to breathe like right away. "Happy birthday." He whispers.

"Sasuke-kun." I call him before he gets ready to leave.

"Hm?"

"You know what will make me really happy?"

He seems curious. "What?"

"If you would stay here...just for tonight." He picks me up bridal style and lays me down carefully down on the bed. He laid down next to me. I snuggle against his chest, treasuring the moment that we're having. He strokes my hair and I trace circles on his toned chest. I feel asleep in his arms, happy for the first time in years.

~*~

I knew that when I wake up he won't be here. I woke up and saw a small box with a small note attached to it. I open the box and pull out a small necklace, with a heart shaped gem. It was half emerald half onyx. I look at the note which read:

I hope you aren't depressed anymore. I didn't like seeing you that way. Maybe one day I will come back, if I'm not dead. And as long as you still love me, I'll be more than happy to be the man that spends the rest of his life with you.

I couldn't believe it. I could not believe it!!!! The only thing that stands between us being together is the possibility of him dying. This brings a new hope. I squeal in delight. I'm not going to work today, I'm going to stay in bed and bask in the lingering scent of Sasuke.

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