Teaser: Akashi's last and first love.
I've never really known what the feeling of love is since all I have been taught to do is win. Without winning there is nothing, and without nothing you are nobody. This is what I was taught by my mother and father at a very young age. Although, meeting her I didn't know what I felt, in fact to this day it is still not clear. Perhaps it's love or the empty void I longed for affection but whatever it is, I will let you decide.
I'm not sure what it is about her that makes me remember her as I do. The thoughtfulness that came from all the girls at Teiko was nothing compared to hers. With every day, generosity spilled out from her even with what little she had to offer. She was the type of girl that you imagined came from a dream. A wonderful dream that you wanted to stay in forever and if you woke up, you would be picturing how the dream would continue. Except, this was reality to me. In the span of three months I was able to feel that warmth inside of my chest.
Sometimes I think what would be different if I went back and met her sooner or added more time to spend with her. But actually, I would only ask for only a moment to tell her what I should have said. Seeing her every day, the courage I built up on the way to her disintegrated as soon as I saw her. Our conversations would always lead to the deepest thoughts I held inside and her, I can't even describe how uplifting it was to talk about it with her. She was the type of person who opened me up as easy as a book, the comfort I felt is nothing that I knew was possible. She understood me before I even needed to explain, even though she had it harder than I did and yet she never once complained.
I envy her happiness to this day.
I won't leave you hanging anymore, I will tell you the story of the only girl I've ever cared for.
It all started my last year of middle school before our final tournament….