"Your pain is mine" Chapter 1: Is Carol okay?
They've been in Alexandria for three or four days and he was already tired of it, he wanted to go out there and be freee. He felt so disconnected here, he sees how the others are acting weird too…. and Carol.. Fuck. He was avoiding her or she was avoiding him or maybe they were avoiding each other,and he knows it's his fault. She needed him after Terminus and he didn't know how to comfort her, and then, after Grady, he distanced from her. He didn't want to lose her.. but he lost her. He lost his fucking best friend, he has taken Carol for granted and now she was acting like a stranger
- Mmm.. Daryl? - said Tara
- Yeah, what?- he asked the girl,he liked her but he already thinks she's too good for this world.
- It's just..- she said insecure and looking at the rest of the group in the porch- You guys think Carol is okay?
- What do you mean if Carol is okay, sweetie?- asked Maggie
- I mean.. she was hit by a car like three weeks ago and she didn't look good on the road and I saw her yesterday …
- Was she hurting yesterday? Carol?- asked Rick
- Mm.. she is good at pretending or maybe she is not hurting but I saw her yesterday trying to take something from the kitchen, she extended her arm and she cried in pain.. I asked her about it but she told me she was fine.. but she didn't go to the doctor here, so I was wondering what if she's not recovered? Broken ribs can really… kill - said Tara looking at everyone
- Why wouldn't she say it? If she is hurting..- said Rick
- She fucking still thinks she's a burden- he said as he left the porch slamming the front door and leaving all of them speechless
…..
He entered her room, she has left her door half opened and he was so fucking worried about her, he needed to talk to her right now. He could stand her not talking to him.. but he is not going to let her hurt so much..And what he saw left him heartbroken
She was standing in front of her mirror, with just her bra on looking at her side which was full of black and purple bruises and she was trying not to cry becaus of her pain.
- What the fuck woman?- he growled coming at her before she could covered herself
- Daryl, I'm okay really - she said with that fucking fake smile
You think I'm stupid, woman?- he growled looking at her side- Why didn't you say something?
-And then she snapped.
- You don't fucking care so what if I didn't told you? I was hit by a fucking care and we were walking the same day I woke, Rick didn't ask, Maggie didn't ask, you didn't ask.. so what? You thought I have recovered in two hours?- she shouted at him and he could see she was in too much pain to act rationally. And he knew she was hurt by him, by everyone… not just physical pain- Just leave me alone- she said as she left the room while putting her shirt on
- Carol!- he shouted as he went to her, running trying to catch her before she would leave the house
And then something happened, as she walked the porch, she gasped in pain and started to fall, thank god Glenn was faster than anyone and he caught her before she would hit her head
….
- Fuck- he repeated again as they waited outside the infirmary
- Daryl, easy man- said Rick trying to calm him
- Fuck you Rick, just fuck you- he said as he continued walking
- Why are we like this?- asked Maggie in tears- We didn't ask her if she was okay, she should have rested… God, we're terrible
- I think we thought she was invincible…- said Rick
Daryl could notice Rick looking at him with worry,it was his fault. It was the group's fault as well, but he… fuck. He has failed her again, he was always failing her..
To think that he wanted to kiss her after Terminus.. why did he act this way?
- She thinks I don't fucking care…. - he whispered
- What?- asked Rick
- She think I don't fucking care.. and she's my fucking reason to wake up every fucking morning- he said as he tried not to cry
To be continued.